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You all misunderstand borderline personality.

Believe it or not, people with this affliction, at their very core, are the inverse of the narcissist. People with BPD start out 'too sensitive', too empathetic. People with borderline personality disorder empathize to the point of pain.

When the highly sensitive person grows up in a very non-validating and/or abusive environment, with a history of trauma, BPD can manifest.

In order for borderline personality to develop, an invalidating environment with and a highly sensitive person MUST BE present.

What is going on in a Borderline Personality Disorder sufferer's mind and how they are acting can be two entirely different things.

To the sufferer, BPD is about deep feelings, feelings often too difficult to express, feelings that are something along the lines of this : tIf others really get to know me, they will find me rejectable and will not be able to love me; and they will leave me;

tI need to have complete control of my feelings otherwise things go completely wrong;

tI have to adapt my needs to other people's wishes, otherwise they will leave me or attack me;

tI am an evil person and I need to be punished for it;

tOther people are evil and abuse you;

tIf someone fails to keep a promise, that person can no longer be trusted;

tIf I trust someone, I run a great risk of getting hurt or disappointed;

tIf you comply with someone's request, you run the risk of losing yourself;

tIf you refuse someone's request, you run the risk of losing that person;

tI will always be alone;

tI can't manage by myself, I need someone I can fall back on;

tThere is no one who really cares about me, who will be available to help me, and whom I can fall back on;

tI don't really know what I want;

tI will never get what I want;

tI'm powerless and vulnerable and I can't protect myself;.

tI have no control of myself;

tI can't discipline myself;

tMy feelings and opinions are unfounded;

tOther people are not willing or helpful.

To the family members, BPD behavior is often very frustrating can feel unfair and punitive - something like this: t You have been viewed as overly good and then overly bad;

tYou have been the focus of unprovoked anger or hurtful actions, alternating with periods when the family member acts perfectly normal and very loving;

tThings that you have said or done have been twisted and used against you;

tYou are accused of things you never did or said?

tYou often find yourself defending and justifying your intentions;

tYou find yourself concealing what you think or feel because you are not heard;

tYou feel manipulated, controlled, and sometimes lied to.

by Anonymousreply 47006/16/2015

Finally, someone on DL who really does understand BPD! Thank you, OP. Reading that description (of my feelings and behaviours) is both empowering and very very sad.

by Anonymousreply 908/06/2011

That hit home, OP.

by Anonymousreply 1208/06/2011

R7 It's borderline 'personality disorder' like real-close-to-being personality disorder. The latter you do NOT want to catch.

by Anonymousreply 1308/06/2011

[quote]There is no one who really cares about me, who will be available to help me, and whom I can fall back on;%0D %0D This one resonates, but almost nothing else in that list does.%0D %0D I guess that means I'm not BPD... I'm just pathetic.%0D

by Anonymousreply 1508/06/2011

They sound like typical sociopaths.

by Anonymousreply 1608/06/2011

Uh, we really don't care. We have our own lives, which you care nothing about. Get back to the borderline.

by Anonymousreply 1808/06/2011

One of the best depictions I have ever seen of BPD was the character Christina Ricci plays in PROZAC NATION. The movie went straight to video because the central character is so monstrous to the people around her that its almost intolerable to sit all the way through it: however, her behavior is very much like a person who has BPD. But this "they may be beautiful on the outside and so shouldn't be blamed for acting in a way that is perceived as evil" argument really bothers me. The argument that "they can't help it" would then have to extend to sociopaths then too: once could always say they can't help being sociopaths, after all. I agree that BPD sufferers often are tremendously hurt by what they do to other people and feel they can't help it, but if they're manipulating, and lying to, people (or behaving cruelly to them), then they absolutely have to take the consequences, just as a sociopath would.

by Anonymousreply 2308/06/2011

[quote]I still don't get why it is called "borderline personality"

It got this moniker when it was thought it might be something on the fringes of schizophrenia, on the borderline between neurosis (emotional distress) and psychosis (break with reality, hallucination, delusion).

by Anonymousreply 2408/06/2011

[quote]I have to adapt my needs to other people's wishes, otherwise they will leave me or attack me;

I've never thought of BPDs as being particularly concerned about the wishes of other people. Quite the contrary.

by Anonymousreply 2708/06/2011

BPDs are concerned with other people's feelings, in a way. They can't really mindfuck with you until they've won your trust, and they win the trust by appearing to be whatever you want a friend or lover to be. %0D %0D They read your feelings, although it's only to further their own ends.

by Anonymousreply 2808/06/2011

Can someone explain what the difference is between someone who is BPD and someone who has abandonment issues? My bf has a lot of the symptoms in OP's post, but I think his main issues revolve around past abandonmnets.

by Anonymousreply 3008/06/2011

r30, that's like saying, "Can someone explain to me the difference between someone who has lung cancer and someone who has a persistent cough?"

by Anonymousreply 3108/06/2011

The clumsiness and imprecision of the diagnostic umbrella - not helped necessarily by the fracturing of the thing along a variety of pseudo-objective categories - reflect the continued lack of understanding of etiology.

We continue to diagnose psychiatric disorders by symptoms rather than by underlying cause(s). Physical medicine is in many cases farther long - at least we don't say people died of the flux; we say they died of an e coli infection.

Granted that psychiatric disorders are not all going to be found to issue from genetic or environmental proclivities, and the actions of social environment always will affect outcomes just as much as they do for physical disorders. But until the roots are better identified, we're going to be left with the same kind of symptom-driven, falsely objectified claptrap that produced the borderline personality disorder fiascos (as I see the results) and those for other personality disorders.

Don't yammer at me about treatment successes. Sitting down with anyone open to it and talking and working through things using REBT or other behavior-modification, reflective-based therapies will work - for those for whom they're going to work.

And as far as the DSM refinements "based on current research," I've been through the last two and it's like watching sausage being made by vegans with a hankering for steak. I KNOW members of the BPD committee were diagnosable in the area themselves - how does that give me confidence in their twaddle?

by Anonymousreply 3208/06/2011

OP, thank you.%0D %0D R29 - sorry about your friend.

by Anonymousreply 3408/06/2011

Some of those sentences posted by OP are so universal, so broad, they according to that list, we would ALL be walking around with it. We all have feelings and thoughts like those at some time or other. I agree with the poster upthread that it's a new "diagnosis" designed to cover a wide area when a more specific diagnosis isn't applicable.

by Anonymousreply 3608/06/2011

[quote]The co-worker looked at the floor, and then to me and said softly, "You know she died, right?"

C'mon, finish the story. How did she die?

by Anonymousreply 3708/06/2011

[quote]. But at least I can hop on DL and say with authority, "I had a friend with BPD, and she died."

You just made my day, r29.

by Anonymousreply 3808/06/2011

This crap is like horoscopes. You can always 'make' it fit.

by Anonymousreply 3908/06/2011

I honestly don't know how she died, R37. We had our last conversation in December 2000, and she died in 2005. I didn't find out until 2009. My co-worker only knew that she had been in and out of the hospital for a number of months before she died. I've fallen out of touch with any mutual friends, and I didn't feel right calling her family four years later and asking for the gory details.

She was very obese and had a litany of health problems, so it's not a shock that she died so young. But it's especially sad knowing that she had an odd fixation on retirement -- obsessed with getting vested for pensions and the 401(k) and when she could start drawing Social Security, because if she could just hang in there for 25 more years, then no more going to work and life would start getting good. I always used to tell her that it wouldn't be so horrible to try to be happy today as well. I should write fortune cookies, huh?

Sorry if I'm being bloggy.

by Anonymousreply 4108/06/2011

nah... I think I got it down pat...

by Anonymousreply 4208/06/2011

One time, I blamed this guy for taking me to an Indian restaurant for dinner where I got food poisoning. I puked for two days straight and lived off of popsicles for another week because my stomach was still so fucked up. I had it in my head that he did something to my food while I was in the bathroom. And later I felt bad about blaming him for a kitchen problem. But then it turned out he was a total psycho and probably did intentionally poison my food, he did much worse things to me and others. Does this make me borderline or him a psychopath?

by Anonymousreply 4308/06/2011

are boderlines cared all the time

by Anonymousreply 4408/07/2011

I don't know if this was answered (or correctly as I read some very incorrect statements): BPD is named such because originally ( back in the first half of the 20th century ) because suffers' perception of reality was so queued, so twisted that they were on the borderline of a psychotic break from reality.

Looking at any borderline and you can clearly see how that relates. The entire push/pull they go to avoid abandonment depression - which is what drives them to cling with a vice grip to someone then succumb to the fear that they person will leave/reject them inevitably so they do it first to protect themselves and on and on. THAT is the key. Not empathy. They neither have real empathy or would know what to make of it of they did. They perseverate on being abandoned. The fear consumes them and that is all the care about.

Borderline's are the most difficult to treat and are dreaded because they manipulative - but in a different way than the anti-social or the narcissist.

THE classic example is Glen Close in Fatal Attraction. Oh yeah - it is predominant in females as anti-social is in males.

The only thing worse to treat or have to deal with than a female borderline is a male borderline.

by Anonymousreply 4511/01/2011

One of the most intriguing people I've ever met was diagnosed as borderline. His capability for excessive empathy was definitely supported by his codependent relationships with women (he was straight). He also bullied his way to the top of a large corporation, making himself obscenely rich. He seemed to be constantly struggling with his desires to be treating people really well and then randomly feeling the need to treat them like total shit. Still not sure if he had a conscience..

by Anonymousreply 4711/01/2011

R47, so was he in genuine emotional turmoil, or just occasionally an evil asshole?

by Anonymousreply 4811/01/2011

I know a woman who is BPD and bipolar, and when she's NOT on meds she's a total mess with binge drinking, blaming her own kids for her own problems and issues, and it's a shame.

Thankfully she's gone on meds and getting help.

by Anonymousreply 5011/01/2011

But borderlines are not expressing real empathy...it's a manipulation. They need constant validation and they will do anything to get it. They can fake empathy incredibly well. They can seem incredibly concerned about you...it's part of a snare. Once they've ensnared you, they want you to only think about them...their needs, their desires.

OP's therapist/support person is an enabler. This business about "being an incredibly beautiful person on the inside, but one who does bad things" is typical of therapists who aren't qualified to work with a serious illness like borderline. They are easily manipulated by their client, who can feign caring, tenderness, and empathy to a degree that the therapist cannot objectively judge the manipulation. Borderlines really need to work with professionals who understand the illness really well. Otherwise they'll inadvertently harm the client by spewing the kind of nonsense that OP has been spoon fed. It's critical that therapists not enable their clients. But therapists don't always understand the disease, and others have a hard time dealing with their client's meltdowns so they frame everything in a flattering way.

OP's whole post is a classic manipulation. "I am a tender, sensitive person who has been cruelly misrepresented. I don't mean to do the evil things I do, I'm just so lost, lonely, and frightened. Things have been hard on me, and I can't help myself." Borderlines rarely hold themselves truly accountable for the harm they cause others; they're too busy feeling sorry for themselves.

And though not technically "narcissistic disorder", it's just as serious a pathology. Some believe it's actually worse. Narcissists only see themselves, they are at the center of everything within their perspective. They often lack the guileful ability of borderlines to manipulate, something which makes the borderline person far more dangerous. Narcissists tend to inadvertently expose their disorder; borderlines can deceive a prospective target with much greater finesse.

People who are "beautiful on the inside" don't commit "evil acts." That's an enabler's perspective being reflected through the borderlines manipulation. Deep within borderlines is a sociopathic potential. Because they see themselves as always being the 'victims', they are able to rationalize and engage in some pretty heinous behavior. They can be very dangerous. Frankly, you're better off with a narcissist (and that's really saying something!).

by Anonymousreply 5111/01/2011

49 is correct...borderlines don't respect boundaries.

by Anonymousreply 5211/01/2011

It is true they do not respect nor even recognize boundaries but that isn't why this disorder is term'd Borderline. #51 is spot on and I touched up that in my post. They lack a sense of self and therefore they attempt to satisfy their needs etc externally. When they are said to be primitive - it is akin to the toddler testing independence by slowly playing farther and father away from Mom Or dad and then running back and clinging to them. In a toddler it's a natural process. The borderline does that - or rather it is similar - as an adult.

I really do my utmost to not have to treat someone with BPD. I swore and oath and I would not turn my back on someone in an emergency but my style just doesn't work well it.

Generally, however, a major barrier for those with characterological disorders is that personality generally begins to solidly in adolescence so it becomes entrenched and with each passing year more difficult to treat and effect a positive outcome.

by Anonymousreply 5311/01/2011

From Wikipedia:

"Borderline personality disorder is a diagnosis about which many articles and books have been written, yet about which little is known based on empirical research."

That's a big red flag.

The DSM is five or more of the following 9:

"Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment."

"A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation.

"Identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self.

"Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging

"Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, threats or self-injuring behavior

"Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood

"Chronic feelings of emptiness

"Inappropriate anger or difficulty controlling anger

"Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation, delusions or severe dissociative symptoms"

The one about fighting is the one people care about.

The WHO does not recognize this "disease." It has a different definition more narrowly focused on negative aspects.

Three of five of: "marked tendency to act unexpectedly and without consideration of the consequences;

"marked tendency to quarrelsome behaviour and to conflicts with others, especially when impulsive acts are thwarted or criticized;

"liability to outbursts of anger or violence, with inability to control the resulting behavioural explosions;

"difficulty in maintaining any course of action that offers no immediate reward;

"unstable and capricious mood."

The WHO's definitions would not fit OP's scenario, I don't think.

by Anonymousreply 5411/02/2011

Wikipedia says the opposite, that it grows less over time and some recover, R55.

by Anonymousreply 5511/02/2011

That is the "Impulsive Disorder" of WHO.

Their "borderline disorder is

Two of the following in addition to the above

"disturbances in and uncertainty about self-image, aims, and internal preferences (including sexual);

"liability to become involved in intense and unstable relationships, often leading to emotional crisis;

"excessive efforts to avoid abandonment;

"recurrent threats or acts of self-harm;

"chronic feelings of emptiness."

by Anonymousreply 5611/02/2011

What is the best treatment for a BPS? Therapy + meds?

by Anonymousreply 5711/02/2011

R57, Dialectical Behavioral Therapy is the best treatment.

by Anonymousreply 5811/02/2011

R55...Wiki is hardly the authority on such things.

My experience is that borderlines get worse as they get older, not better. Their commitment to their illness, rather than to recovery, gets stronger and stronger. To do otherwise would potentially force them to actually see the damage they've caused to other people, rather than to view those episodes as having been evidence that they were somehow the victim.

Some illnesses do get...softer, as the person gets older. Borderline is not one of them. Generally speaking, a borderline diagnosis is a bit of a sealed fate. That's why medical professionals are often reluctant to go there first. Most borderlines have had multiple diagnoses before they are actually properly diagnosed as borderline. By that time, the damage done to the person by their illness (and behavior) is somewhat irreversible.

It's always best with these things to get the person into treatment while the brain is still developing. Ideally, that would be before the person is 25 or so. Once the brain has finished that stage of early development, it's extremely difficult to treat them. The pathology makes it virtually impossible, because borderlines assume a 'victim' stance that precludes a lot of self-discovery. And by that time they've learned habits (such as the faked empathy and guileful manipulation) that become difficult to treat.

by Anonymousreply 6011/02/2011

R58 is absolutely correct.

The sad reality, however, is that DBT is the only treatment that has ever shown any success with borderlines, and yet it is only considered moderately effective in many cases. In most cases, even DBT cannot effectively affect a significant change in borderlines. And the practitioner has to be incredibly skilled at this method; a lesser practitioner will completely enable the client's illness, creating more harm than good.

I personally think it's a better treatment for sexual abuse and trauma survivors, than for borderlines. It's too tricky with borderlines. They are seeking validation, and one of the methods of DBT is to provide validation. I've seen this go horribly awry, particularly when practitioners do not understand the manipulations and deceptions inherent in the illness. I've seen people suffer terrible setbacks because their therapist/ support person validated dysfunctional behavior, inappropriate actions, and/or dysfunctional thinking, because they were either inappropriately implementing DBT in a way that did not understand what they were dealing with.

by Anonymousreply 6111/02/2011

Are people who do the "I'm so worried about you" thing where they contact you because they say they fear for your health/safety or whatever and then proceed to make demands where you have to help THEM considered Borderline?

by Anonymousreply 6211/02/2011

R63...you want an answer on how best to get revenge on a person who's severely mentally ill? Seriously?

The best "revenge" is not to pander and enable them. Walk away from the person. Live a happy, functional, and fulfilling life.

by Anonymousreply 6411/02/2011

"Even though people with BPD sometimes act evil, they are not evil. "

I reject this distinction. If your actions are good, there's no point in somebody's saying that "although you usually act virtuously, you're not good."

Am I jus thickly practical, or is this allegation of inner goodness--despite outward acts of evil--precisely what is fucked up with therapy?

If you do good, I don't care if you secretly seethe with hatred. Because I'm unlikely to ever know, but also because you might take on the qualities of your own actions. Do good, become good.

Tired of people apologizing for bad deeds with, "But that's not me; not who I really am."

by Anonymousreply 6611/02/2011

Whut Ev, OP

by Anonymousreply 6711/02/2011

The reasons behind it don't change the effect. BPD's are still impossible to deal with.

by Anonymousreply 6811/02/2011

Best revenge on a BPD person is to abandon them, full stop. It's what they're most afraid of and it fuels why they behave the way they do.

I grew up with a classically Borderline mother and it was hell. I was trapped - she could put on a perfectly reasonable, seemingly sane face to the public but behind closed doors, all she wanted to do was rage about something and usually at me (my younger brother was the perfect child, I was the monster. Oddly, he was the one with friends who did drugs and all I did was have weird drama friends, who obviously must have been a bad influence on me so I never heard the end of it about how I needed better friends.)

I got lucky - I escaped, and menopause and grandmotherhood seems to have mellowed out my mother. I still see it lurking behind her eyes, but she's learned to keep the rages under control (or at least out of my eyesight.)

And the cost is that her first-born son moved halfway across the country and sees her a couple times a year. All she ever wanted was a stable family, and she fucked herself out of it because of her selfishness and the rage inside.

I deleted my Facebook after she joined because I could tell we were going down that road again. No huge loss - but it should say something that not using Facebook at all is easier than dealing with my Mother's reaction to whatever is on Facebook. And I'm 36, but it's energy I don't need in my life. I've worked too long to move away from it.

I've spent enough time in therapy to know that I'm not borderline myself, but you can tell the ways in which I was raised by a borderline. I tend to be overly nice and accommodating to people, but when I hit a breaking point I have a hard time arguing rationally, because with Mom rational arguments meant nothing and the only way the fight would end was with one of us completely breaking down, so I had to learn to say the most awful, cruel, straight-to-the-gut insulting things just so Mom would cry and the fight would be over. Things about how I was glad she'd die young because she was so obese and her heart would give out (spoken calmly while looking her dead in the eye, screaming it would have lost the impact) so it means that I have an exceptionally cruel streak that can come out in very stressful situations.

I could go on for days, but a post asking for sympathy for borderlines while they deliberately make other people's lives hell is classic.

Sending good positive thoughts to anyone else trapped with a BPD in their life. It's a horrible, confusing thing to have to contend with.

by Anonymousreply 6911/02/2011

So this is what it has come to: lack of "validation" = abuse? Why would ANYONE want to be a parent in today's world? Talk about thankless and impossible . . .

by Anonymousreply 7011/02/2011

I've been friends for 18 years with a woman who was recently (finally!) diagnosed with BPD. She's been going to DBT for around 2 years. It's only made things worse. From the time I've known her she's been at turns: charming, funny, odd, rude, smart (very), histrionic, narcissistic, manipulative, angry - very, very angry, lonely, lost, promiscuous, withdrawn, demanding, untruthful, malicious, and very dramatic.

She's gone through 12 - 15 therapists. The next to the last one finally referred her to DBT after 5 sessions of my friend sobbing on the sofa for the entire 50 minutes. She's on anti-depressants, anti-anxiety medication and has a prescription for Xanax.

She's blamed her mother - who didn't love her enough and was sometimes got very angry. - her younger brother for being born and taking away her father's attention. - her aunt for coming between she and her very special very favorite grandmother. - her older sister for not paying enough attention to her when she was young. - her first boyfriend for getting her pregnant and abandoning her after she broke up with him and didn't tell him until she was 8 months along and he had moved on and married someone else. - her parents for initially disapproving of her pregancy (after she told them 2 weeks before the baby came - surprise!) and even though they later apologized and adore her daughter. - her ex-boyfriends wife for stealing him away - her bosses - who expect her to do her job like an adult. - her students (she's a teacher) who don't respect her in the way that she so richly deserves - most of her friends who don't pay enough attention to her problems and aren't sympathetic enough - strangers on the street who ask her "How are you?" and don't [italic]really[/italic] mean it. - religion (it stole her soul) - politicians (they don't really mean it either) - the internet (nobody really means anything) - her fellow group therapy patients (they're all soooo self centered) - every man that she's every had a crush on, cared about, thought about, dreamt about, who didn't respond the way she "needed him" to.

She's pretended many, many times to deeply care about someone (even a student who later committed suicide) and some how made it completely about her.

She's never had a genuinely kind thought about anyone else's feelings in the entire 18 years I've known her.

She's was getting a little better after 1 1/2 years of DBT. Recently she spent almost an entire weekend sobbing and screaming at me on the phone because she got called on the carpet for not taking attendance in class. ("It's too much to ask along with all the other stuff I've got to do")

Her therapist wouldn't answer her pages. He later apologized and validated all her hyper dramatic emotional response to a minor situation.

Everything is all about her - always. She's the victim. Nobody has every loved her enough and never will. I feel very sad for her.

I've walked away. Stopped taking her phone calls, stopped going to lunch (where I always had to pay) and feel like I'm free again.

by Anonymousreply 7111/02/2011

I had a friend with BPD. We met in high school and I was her friend until she was in her mid-twenties. From what I have read about BPD, it tends to rear its ugly head starting in the late teens to early twenties, but the seeds of it are planted in early childhood, usually from family-inflicted trauma.

My friend had been molested and raped when she was a young child, mostly by her oldest brother though possibly by her father as well. She blocked out those traumatic memories and only began to uncover them after years of meds and therapy. It is sad to think of what a marvelous person she'd have become if not for the abuse and instability in her childhood.

She had always been articulate, dramatic, emotional, witty and caring since I'd met her, but as time passed it seemed that her personality was being eroded and consumed by the disorder. The wit and charm and listening skills and logic all fell by the wayside and what was left was a quivering mass of untethered emotions. It became exhausting to be around her because of all the drama! drama! drama! and her relationships to people always seemed to be 100% LOVE or 100% HATE.

She became obsessed with some loser guy who treated her like crap and for the last half-decade that I knew her, it seemed her every thought and desire revolved around him. I never met him but by her description he seems equally dysfunctional, so I dearly hope they never have children. The good news is that, because of the mood stabilizing meds she takes, the doctors made her have an IUD implanted that'll keep her from getting pregnant for ten years.

As to people with BPD mellowing out or getting better over time, what I've read is that they're at their highest risk for suicide/suicide attempts in their mid-to-late twenties and that after that they seem to naturally stabilize enough so that they're no longer suicidal. Since BPD is mostly diagnosed in women, I wonder if the severity of the BPD is related to hormone fluctuation / fertility level.

Either way, I have been told that people with BPD are never really cured and that the most you could expect is for them to stabilize enough to be functional in society; hold down a job etc. That unless you're directly related to someone with BPD, it's in your own best interest not to get involved with one on any meaningful level because it's stressful and emotionally exhausting at best.

I've only known the one person with BPD, but she did have a conscience and, underneath all the crazy, she had a good heart. She was a good friend for more than a decade and I hope she finds peace and fulfillment in life. Perhaps in a decade or two modern medicine will offer better treatment for her disorder.

by Anonymousreply 7211/02/2011

Gurl, I dont care what causes the disorder, all I know is it takes a damn fool codependednt to deal with one. Face if, if someone says "I borderline", run as fast as you can. Otherwise, you'll be on here posting next week how your borderline friend stole your credit card and boyfriend cause he was cycling that day.

by Anonymousreply 7411/02/2011

R72...your friend was lying. It's what borderlines do. You were manipulated. Your own post is baffling...you say she had a "conscience", yet all the behavior you describe suggests otherwise. You say she was a "good friend", but "exhausting" to be around; that she HATED or LOVED people, and that she was "drama, drama, drama!." That's all contradictory. My guess is that she was your "friend" because you were fairly easy to manipulate, and you (in some way) enabled her. Borderlines tend to LOVE people who enable them, and HATE people who call them on their shit.

The "recovered memory" business is typical of borderlines. They create abuse scenarios to help rationalize their cruel, aggressive, and harmful behavior. The scenario is meant to elicit sympathy and to make the other person more malleable.

The fact that you are terrified that your friend might choose to have children says a lot about her. You are no longer friends with her, and I'm assuming it's because it all became too much for you. I understand that you want to believe she was a 'good person deep down inside', but it's not a question of that. She has a serious mental illness, one that creates a situation where behavior is always a means to an end.

by Anonymousreply 7511/02/2011

R65...generally I'd agree that there is a "spectrum." But illnesses such as borderline do not have a huge variation in manifestation. There are folks who can function at a "higher level" in terms of working, perhaps. But I never use "working" as a criteria of 'better' or 'worse' mental health. There are mentally ill who can't work who are highly functioning in other areas, and vice versa. Borderline is fairly consistent in its impact upon the individual and on those in that individual's social environment. A "lessor" form of borderline might well be another illness...it might be a manifestation of trauma, for example. Borderline itself is fairly predictable and consistent.

It's also important, I think, to point out that personality disorders are often not a result of abuse. That's a misnomer. PTSD can be triggered by abuse. But personality disorders often manifest in people who are raised in families where the parents have personality disorders. It often seems to get perpetuated within families through a replication of behavior/perspective from parent to child. This may be partly caused by a genetic predisposition; scientific research has shown a chromosome issue with BPD's, and there is a high rate of BPD among twins. Nothing has been proven; it's all correlation, not causation. It is interesting, however, to see the high degree of correlation in these areas among people with BPD. This would clearly be exacerbated by behavioral issues within the family, particularly ones that are parent-to-child.

by Anonymousreply 7611/02/2011

Interesting post R76.

Do we know how borderline personality disorder correlates with employment? I wonder of there is a "best career choice" for them. Based on what I am reading here it seems some would excel at sales.

A psychologist friend once told me that even non-indulging children of alcoholics enter adulthood with alcoholic behavior because it's their norm, the only adult behavior they know well.

by Anonymousreply 7711/02/2011

Theoretically, people with borderline can work. The problem is that borderlines have difficulty interacting with others, and that can create a myriad of problems. They tend to go from job to job, on a fairly frequent basis.

The other alarming fact is that they tend to be drawn to helping professions. This raises a whole host of other issues, particularly since their motivation for wanting to be in those professions is usually dysfunctional. It's a part of the illness...wanting to manipulate vulnerable people by trying to create a false persona...faking empathy as a manipulative snare...trying to elicit validation that they are "good people" while simultaneously carrying a hidden agenda. It's a disconcerting aspect of the illness.

I have heard of instances where someone who was diagnosed as borderline became successful in the work field, but it's all anecdotal. I've never actually seen that myself.

by Anonymousreply 7811/02/2011

[quote]Based on what I am reading here it seems some would excel at sales.

I think that would be the worst - they can't deal with rejection. In sales you deal with a lot of rejection. I doubt they would last long in sales, it would be too much for them to deal with.

Lots of informative information on this thread.

OP, I do have compassion for people who suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder. Because I don't think they can help themselves. I would be supportive if they were therapy bound though. However, even if they were, I would always have to keep a safe distance, and just be causal friends or acquaintances having to accept the fact that at anytime the casual friendship will completely cease, with no rational explanation. Basically never expect anything from them - not even common courtesy, consideration, or a real heart to heart exchange. It will never happen.

I could never get involved with someone who has this. Ever. There is no sense of fairness in a romantic relationship or good friendship with one. You are constantly walking on eggshells having to censor or carefully word everything so the BPDer would not feel a sense of abandonment or rejection - there will come a time where you will slip, which will just cause the BPDer to turn on you and suddenly make you his or her subject of hatred, drama and turmoil. It's too much work with nothing good that will come out of it. Not to mention all of the turmoil and drama involved. The cycle of hurting people. It is not a two way relationship - only one way - their way, a way that always changes when the wind blows. You can't even predict their behavior, thoughts or feelings, it changes so much.

A borderline has nothing to give, and will only take. They will put you on a pedastal one day and suddenly turn on you the next day due to factors that are completely out of your control.

It's just not equal footing, and so not worth the hurt and turmoil involved.

They also have no real sense of identity. They will obsess over one thing one day, and lose interest the next. They take on the interests and hobbies of the people they are "interested in" at the moment - and lose interest in those activities as they lose interest in that person. Then on to the next obsession, and identity/hobby/interest shift. They are not true to themselves because they have no idea on even who they are - or what they want. If they don't know who they are or what they want - how are you supposed to know as a friend or romantic partner? You can't know. Basically you can't ever "know" them on a deep level. The "relationship" will always just be too surfacey with no potential to evolve and grow deeper.

Ideally, they talk of wanting to be normal, having a normal life, a stable life, but that will never happen. They are not capable of that.

It doesn't mean that they are not good people somewhere inside - I do believe that under all that confusion and instability, deep down there is probably a lot of good there - but their over sensitivity, irrational thought process, impulsivity, and selfish behavior over shadows all of it.

From what I have read real borderlines don't seek therapy, is this true? Or do therapists just avoid taking them on as clients due to how difficult they are to treat?

by Anonymousreply 7911/02/2011

R79...it depends upon the definition of "seeking therapy." Borderlines are often advised to apply for Social Security Disability, and that requires psychiatric assessment. In order to get other critical services (like health care) they may have to have a case worker.

Their interest in "therapy" is often only an interest in being unconditionally validated. If they do not receive that validation, they quickly move on to another practitioner. In some instances, a borderline will search, fairly exhaustively, for a practitioner whom they believe they can manipulate, and who will enable them in their illness. Even in these instances they will become extremely agitated, and even very confrontational, if they believe the practitioner is not 'on their side.' They will insist upon the practitioner's 'sympathy' and unconditional acceptance. This is obviously very damaging to the person in treatment; they often change the facts of circumstances to make themselves seem more sympathetic, and will even create elaborate abuse scenarios in order to elicit sympathy from the practitioner. If the practitioner is an enabler, this can have serious consequences, and the borderline's mental health can severely deteriorate...it's a catch-22. The borderline wants only positive feedback and complete, unequivocal validation. This is, in turn, damaging to them. Yet they will not tolerate any criticism they perceive to be 'negative', even if it's proffered with great care.

So, in a real sense, they are not looking for "therapy." They're looking to be enabled. This is why practitioners are often reluctant to work with borderlines...it's a situation that isn't amenable to real therapeutic growth, and it can ultimately actually cause greater harm to the person because their motivation is dysfunctional.

by Anonymousreply 8011/02/2011

[quote]Yet they will not tolerate any criticism they perceive to be 'negative', even if it's proffered with great care.

Yes, this is what I was referring to as always having to censor yourself/walking on eggshells when communicating with a borderline - and there will come a time when you slip and are not as careful. It's a lot of work, and doesn't seem worth it.

If they do receive criticism or perceived criticism, they are confrontational, correct? Or, is their way of confronting just dropping the therapist, or person who is confronting them with their behavior - as they are suddenly the "bad person" for saying something?

What I am trying to say is - a borderline WILL confront someone, verbally? Or do they use other methods - by just dropping someone or being avoidant of the issue/criticism at hand?

by Anonymousreply 8111/02/2011

And you have to watch everything you say *so* carefully because you know it can (and likely will) be used against you. Somehow. Some way.

by Anonymousreply 8211/02/2011

[quote] So, in a real sense, they are not looking for "therapy." They're looking to be enabled.

Sounds like they are looking for love but only as it exists in their unbaked definition of it.

by Anonymousreply 8311/02/2011

R81...borderlines will not eschew confrontation. To the contrary, they can be extremely confrontational.

The reason they drop the therapist differs from the one the borderline person would generally proffer. A borderline person will say, "this therapist doesn't get me. He doesn't understand that I'm the victim, and that I need support and self esteem. I need affirmation, not criticism. He's against me. He's not on my side." Etc.

What's really happening is that the borderline person's manipulations aren't working, and he's afraid that the therapist is 'on to' him. Borderlines won't tolerate that. They may fight, at first, and demand that the practitioner accept their false persona at face value, and deal with them in accordance with that false persona. Borderlines will sometime fight tooth and nail to get the unconditional validation that they demand. You'd be amazed at how often this is successful. Practitioners will sometimes 'back down' just from the sheer force of the borderlines indignant anger and their accusations. Ultimately, however, the borderline can only get so much compliance from practitioners, in terms of getting nothing but positive validation and unconditional acceptance. When that happens, the borderline person will start shopping around for a new practitioner, one whom they can start 'fresh' with.

In some instances, borderlines, after learning the details of BPD, will demand that their diagnosis be changed, or they will not work with the practitioner. They refuse to accept the diagnosis, and will aggressively argue that they do not fit the criteria. If the practitioner does not acquiesce, the borderline person will move on.

by Anonymousreply 8411/02/2011

R83...looking for love? No, not at all.

by Anonymousreply 8511/02/2011

R84, with all the different personality disorders discussed on DL, I have read on some, but get confused as many have common traits - but are entirely different disorders. Thank you for clarifying that BPD's were confrontational.

by Anonymousreply 8611/02/2011

Any famous Borderlines?

by Anonymousreply 8711/02/2011

I think the Office's Michael Scott is a perfect example of BPD. Because they have made it into a comedy, the impact of his abuse as manager is dampened. But just watch him in each episode and you will understand the dysfunction in full view.

by Anonymousreply 8811/02/2011

R60 - BDP is the military's favorite diagnosis for everything, particularly in cases where individuals either refuse to conform, or in cases of those who are whistleblowers, precisely because it is seen as a sealed fate, and certainly affects military careers that way.

by Anonymousreply 8911/02/2011

I am fairly certain that my sister, who recently died after years of struggling with mental illness and drug addiction, was either Borderline, Bipolar or both. Sometimes the two disorders can manifest themselves in similar ways. And I'm not referring to the bogus contemporary notion of Bipolar as a disorder that afflicts anyone who has ever had a mood swing in their life, but rather the severe, chaotic manic depressive disorder.

by Anonymousreply 9011/02/2011

R89...that's interesting and terribly depressing. I doubt that most practitioners would accept a military diagnosis of a mental illness. There's usually an agenda involved. Fascinating to learn that the military is even more evil than I had imagined.

by Anonymousreply 9111/02/2011

R90...you're exactly right. It's not uncommon for borderlines to be mistakenly diagnosed as having bipolar disorder. And I'm also referring to the actual illness, not the contemporary pop culture version; another astute observation on your part.

by Anonymousreply 9211/02/2011

The military was misdiagnosing people as having personality disorders before there was a better understanding of TBI and PTSD. It is only very recently that things have changed. It is also hard to diagnose those conditions because there is less continuity of care than in the civilian world, since service members change duty stations frequently. I have seen my friends' personalities change after war and nobody at their new unit will have any clue what they were like before combat. Unless your chain of command happened to put you in for a Purple Heart, nobody will know you have TBI.

by Anonymousreply 9311/02/2011

R93...thank you for that clarification.

by Anonymousreply 9411/02/2011

I've been told one of my mother's sisters was diagnosed with this. But everything I read about it seems even more descriptive of my mother and grandmother. Granted, my aunt has been medicated for quite some time now and went through some therapy, the other two have never had it looked into.

by Anonymousreply 9511/02/2011

In Girl Interrupted wasn't Winona's character diagnosed BPD? She didn't seem manipulative though.

by Anonymousreply 9611/03/2011

"In Girl Interrupted wasn't Winona's character diagnosed BPD?"

There was nothing really wrong with the Winona Ryder character in that film, although by the end it looked like the mental hospital would drive a normal girl nuts.

The Angelina Jolie character was supposed to be a real BPD, and didn't it come easily for such a limited actress!

by Anonymousreply 9711/03/2011

I'm pretty sure my mother had BPD. She was a cross between Faye Dunaway in Mommie Dearest and Eunice Higgins from Mama's Family.

by Anonymousreply 9811/03/2011

R97, What makes you think I was acting?

by Anonymousreply 9911/03/2011

R98=my nephew

by Anonymousreply 10011/03/2011

I thought Angelina's character was a sociopath. She's always saying how proud she is of that because they are so rarely women.

by Anonymousreply 10111/03/2011

Recovered memory syndrome is a skeevy, discredited theory. People who've been abused as children develop all sorts of problems precisely because they CAN'T block out what happened to them.

by Anonymousreply 10211/03/2011

A large portion of our population has some form of mental illness. They end up self-medicating with illegal drugs or drink, because it is cheaper and easier than paying for real treatment.

by Anonymousreply 10409/22/2012

So do people with BPD ever "cure" themselves with therapy? How many years does it take, if so?

I went no-contact on an ex that I believe had BPD. It was crazy-making already and I could see that it was only going to get worse (which he would have "relished" or at least enjoyed the complications, I feel). He went smack-bang into a long-distance relationship with someone else almost immediately afterwards and has it least twice tried to meet up to talk intensely about our original connection/love.

I decided to keep him at a distance, certainly while he is still in another relationship. But it's painful for me; I could and can see his issues, and he can too (he has said this), and I wonder whether he will ever change. Or maybe he is "fixed" in his new relationship, and I am just kidding myself that he was BPD (or possibly bipolar, which I think was his only official diagnosis years ago, which he claims his psychiatrist then changed her mind about).

Can they change / do they change? Will a different relationship "cure" them and their behavior?

by Anonymousreply 10509/22/2012

BPD bump.

by Anonymousreply 10609/22/2012

Here's a question? What do I do with my mother, who completely enabled my father's BPD and emotional abuse against me for decades?

My father was a cruel, nasty guy with intense BPD. He made my life miserable growing up, and I finally walked out of his life when I was 32 and never saw him again until a few years later when he was on his deathbed in a coma. I should have done it years before.

My mother spent my entire life enabling him - making excuses for his outbursts, telling me that I provoked him because of my "tone," because I used certain words he didn't like, etc. She has never taken any responsibility for her actions or her complicity in his abuse. Instead, even now she makes excuses, focusing on how much emotional pain he was in, and pretending she actually stood up to him and protected me. She has a long history of lying - certainly to me, probably to herself - in order to pretend that everything is fine. In essence, my mother decided to be a mother to my father rather than to me - probably because he was the one with the job that paid the bills, and it was easier to just crush me than to stand up to him.

For years we've had only the most superficial relationship because she simply wouldn't recognize the toxic family dynamic or do anything about it. He could have temper tantrums in public or pull whatever sort of juvenile behavior he wanted, and I was always at fault because I didn't accept and understand it. For years our entire relationship has been her babbling on about whom she's run into at the supermarket, what random cousins I've met three times in my life are dying of what form of obscure cancer, etc. There's never been any effort to reach out to me or deal with the mess of the past.

This year I finally got sick of the charade with my mother and had several huge blowup arguments on the phone with her (she's in IL, I'm in NY). I basically told her that she was a bad mother, that she had decades of opportunities to make my life better but refused to do so because she didn't want to be bothered, and that I wasn't sure I wanted her in my life anymore. Now she's calling me all the time and leaving voicemails, saying she misses me and that she loves me, blah blah blah. I think it's just that she's all alone - mid-70s, no siblings, dead husband, and her only child who doesn't want to deal with her - and is scared. But she still has shown absolutely no understanding of how she contributed to his abuse or that she has anything to make amends for.

Do I just cut her out of my life completely?

by Anonymousreply 10709/23/2012

108 is clueless.

107, your mother didn't "enable" your father's abuse. It sounds like she was the primary abuser.

He was mentally ill. She was not. She was the healthy one. The one seeing the world clearly. Making rational decisions, informed choices. Or what she thought were.

by Anonymousreply 11009/23/2012

This thread has surprised me. Really. Some making (ridiculous) excuses and justification, a handful offering professional experiences and some spewing vitriol.

It doesn't really matter what the borderline's intent or internal struggle is to the people whose lives have been damaged. It only matters to the borderline, and they are most likely lying to everyone, including themselves, anyway.

If a person is toxic, stay away from them. You can't save people from themselves. Be clear about your reasoning:

"Mom, you're a hateful bitch who made my childhood a nightmarish misery. You still make me miserable and I don't want you in my life. Stop calling me. Good bye." Don't expect her to agree or validate your feelings or ever do anything but continue to be a miserable bitch. It's not going to happen.

"Friend, I'm sorry you are a borderline personality and I would help you if I could but you are trouble on two legs and I have my own issues to deal with. Stop calling me. Good bye." Yes, she/he will have a tantrum and trash you to anyone who will listen, but so what? Consider the source.

I know this sounds harsh, but half my family is bipolar (most unmedicated because the meds "make me feel like I'm not myself." Duh! That's the point!) and a few have worse things going on, including BPD. When I was younger I thought I had some obligation to fix them all but I finally realized that I couldn't and in fact I was just throwing my own energy into a black hole that nothing could ever fill. The little I could do just propped them up enough to make them worse. Yes, it's an awful thing that so many people are so profoundly damaged, but unless they really want help and are willing to work on it, including taking their meds, then you can do nothing for them but sacrifice yourself on the altar of their selfish needs.

/rant

by Anonymousreply 11109/23/2012

Huh.

Of all those "symptoms" of BPD in the OP's post, only a few seem to be true of me... but they're very strong. So I don't have BPD, but clearly I have something. Maybe it's just "trust issues"? These are the ones that are true of me, as far as I can tell:

- If someone fails to keep a promise, that person can no longer be trusted;

- If I trust someone, I run a great risk of getting hurt or disappointed;

I will always be alone;

- There is no one who really cares about me, who will be available to help me, and whom I can fall back on;

- I will never get what I want;

by Anonymousreply 11209/24/2012

The conclusion OP drew, that the borderline is the inverse of a narcissist, is simply a lie. They are not concerned with others so much that they forget themselves. On the contrary....

by Anonymousreply 11309/24/2012

R105

True borderline personalities employ splitting as a coping mechanism developed as vulnerable infants. They have not learned the basic lesson most infants achieve. That the source of all gratification (mother) sometimes is not available at the moment of need, but she will be available again and can be trusted. If course, borderlines have probably endured much more deprivation and neglect, even abuse, than most infants.

As adults, they idealize the love object, go to great lengths to win and please them. They fall in love quickly and often. This love object is the "good mother", the source of all good feelings. When their expectations and extreme needs can't be met they split, the all good object now becomes the bad object. This leads to the extremely dramatic ups and downs anyone who has had a relationship with one can attest to. They are often desperately pertinent but are unable to change the dynamic.

When a borderline leaves or is forced from a relationship, the partner is often amazed that the person who may have been near suicidal and clinging is very quickly into a new intense relationship. Another example of splitting.

R105 Advice: run quickly and far. He is not fixed, nor will he be. BPD patients are very difficult to treat.

by Anonymousreply 11409/24/2012

I don't have the faintest idea what you mean by borderlines being "desperately pertinent."

by Anonymousreply 11509/24/2012

R108 has no idea what "enabling" is, or why it's a bad thing.

by Anonymousreply 11609/24/2012

R115 I meant pentinent, damn autocorrect.

by Anonymousreply 11709/24/2012

lol penitent

by Anonymousreply 11809/24/2012

Thank you, r114.

by Anonymousreply 11909/25/2012

I have been in a LTR with someone with BPD for the past 7 years, and it is extremely difficult. When she had a good therapist/worked at her therapy, things were better. We had to move for my work, and her new therapist just goes through the motions, and so does my partner. She has fallen into a pattern of justifying outrageous behavior, twisting anything that is said to her into an insult, and picking fights at the drop of the hat. I do care about her, but our life together is becoming untenable. I know she suffered terrible trauma in her past, but I cannot continue to pay the price for the sins of her father.

by Anonymousreply 12009/25/2012

I find this thread to be much like all others regarding BPD. there is such a deliberate coldness for people who suffer from or struggle with this diagnosis. I self diagnosed myself with BPD after years of trying to find out why I felt like a frightened witness in my own mind and body. I suffered a traumatic brain injury in 1998, while still a teenager, and over many years began to feel completely disconnected from my thought processes. Major depression, anxiety, emotional disregulation, rage...all things I was all too aware of that I couldn't always control. No medication felt right in my still developing brain, and no halfassed therapy I would seek out seemed to fit my mind. I am now in my 30s, and basically terrified of becoming the mother with body that ruins her only child, after nearly dying from complications during his birth. I fear being the crazy girlfriend because I tried to act normal and did not make my emotional needs clear-therby setting myself up to lose my shit when I was truly mistreated. I resent being potentially labeled the kind of person who makes themselves the victim when I say I have opened up about my weaknesses and guilt and shame for what I thought were just shitty personality traits--and it left me the one manipulated, used, and invaded for. I believe that bpd is being used as a diagnosis for people who do really shitty things to their kids, their spouses, etc by people who want answers as to why their parent or spouse treated them so terribly. I suspect my mom had a touch of it, but she was more histrionic. All I know is the more I read on this disorder, the more convinced I am that I have it, wonder if the brain damage as a teen assigned me this fate, worry every day that one day my son will be like many of these poster's, so casual when it comes to unfeeling not giving a shit. I have been victimized, but don't consider myself a victim. I have suffered many traumas that would rightly fuck up anyone's mind. I am wary of meds because I think they did damage to my still growing mind. I know that I have done terrible things that I truly felt were beyond my control. I know a lot of the time I meet all 9 criteria for Bpd, but I also know that when someone is having a bad time in THEIR life, I am there to make them laugh and distract them for a moment. I have been told since I was young that I have a knack for making people feel better, and am often called upon just to listen to people vent. I am thanked for my ability to understand what is hurting others when they. cannot.

I do not have to try to understand what hurts people, it is natural. And I don't empathize so as to manipulate later, or expect them to empathize in return--although I think its kinda fucked up that wanting reciprocity in relationships is defined as a symptom of a disorder. I try to make everyone I know feel better when they are sad or angry or confused because I would value that interaction. And it makes me feel good about myself, like even though I have some shit wrong with me--it alone cannot define me. I am a whole person, capable of rage and insensitivity, impulsivity and desperation...but also generosity and brevity, supportive and kind, understanding and accepting.

...and the Bpd in me just has to say once again that all of you with your heartless directives to abandon people with bpd seem to have your own real issues, and if that is the attitude you bring to the table when dealing with someone who has this "horrible" disorder, no wonder they treat you like shit. Just because I have a hard time regulating my emotions doesn't mean I can't tell when someone is shitting on me...

by Anonymousreply 12112/31/2012

There will be mostly cloudy skies in NYC for tonight's NYE celebration. Times Square has been blocked off for tonight's celebration.

The phrases most unpopular include: Whatever and 24/7

The financial crisis loom

by Anonymousreply 12212/31/2012

Get some rest R121. It will all look different tomorrow.

by Anonymousreply 12312/31/2012

This thread is extremely helpful as I just left someone who suffers from BPD and I'm still dealing with the aftermath of that relationship. My therapist told me my ex probably suffers from BPD and told me to read a book on BPD's. My ex pretty much fits all the criteria! I was shocked. As someone who genuinely loved my partner (although I only managed to stay with her for less than a year), it's really hard to explain to my family and friends why I even stayed so long, given the level of emotional abuse. I was constantly blamed for being the source for all of her problems. Yet I still find it hard to cut all contact completely.

Maybe people could share stories of how they managed to cut all contact. How long it took them, etc. I'm really struggling with it, as my instinct is to at least stay friendly and try to help her. I know it's pointless....

by Anonymousreply 12401/04/2013

i know two women with the disorder..both have absolutely no genuine thoughts for the welfare of their (ex)girlfriends or friends, one of them has only one friend, who is also emotionally damaged. both have no social skills other than superficial chatter. there is no depth to them and when they are challenged, they are either 'too tired' or 'too busy' meaning, i know im losing this argument so i return to my default setting.

one wouldnt let her g/f have a phonecall without needing something done immediately, meaning the g/f would have to cut short her conversation, to attend the disorder's needs and therefore her fear of abandonment was allayed again. the other one would be very secretive about her phonecalls, even going out late at night and making up a story about going to help a friend etc..when she returned got very angry when challenged and turned it into the other persons problem that she wasnt trusted! both complete headfucks..they should come with health warnings like cigarettes

by Anonymousreply 12501/07/2013

so if you are in relationship with someone like that, is it best to completely remove yourself from their lives, even on a friend level?

by Anonymousreply 12601/08/2013

both of my friends said they wished they had left quicker, but as usual lesbians will go to the bitter end and by then all empathy for the ones with the disorder had gone. both of them want absolutely nothing to do with them as they are still blaming them for everything and anything. its a great relief that they are no longer the carer, mother, housekeeper, cook, etc. although one of my friends is having therapy to understand why she stayed so long.shes angry with herself for wasting her life with this person. personally i would either run a mile or i would only do what i wanted to do period. no leeway for 'madness'. none at all.

by Anonymousreply 12701/10/2013

I'm convinced one of my ex BFs had BPD. Charming, witty, smart to the public but angry, dark, and abusive when it was just the two of us. I told him it was over and he cried and said he was going to kill himself if I wouldn't see him. I was young and dumb and eventually let him creep back into my life. But then he got even more drunk, mean and controlling and I finally put my foot down and told him goodbye get out of my life. He thought he could guilt me back into the relationship - he'd send me letters, gifts, call me crying saying his father was dying, etc. I was scared he would do something violent towards me and would end up stalking me. He eventually drifted away and found someone else to torture. I looked him up recently - he has held down a fairly high level job and owns house. I can only imagine what he is like now, esp since some of you say one doesn't mellow w/ this illness. I booted him from my life 15 years ago. I used to think he was "just" an alcoholic narcissist but I see it was more than that esp w the suicide threats. Fascinating thread.

by Anonymousreply 12801/10/2013

I have an ex who had this along with being bipolar. The experience was like slamming a hammer into your head over and over. It put every other failed relationship I've ever had into perspective.

by Anonymousreply 12901/10/2013

BPD is of course a real disorder. It is also known as the wastebasket of psychiatric diagnosis, for difficult and unhappy people and lazy clinicians.

Like most personality disorders it is too casually thrown about by internet amateurs who have learned some new words. "Aspie's" do not exist as usually referred to out here.

The OP's definition is pretty on the mark and many others here have expressed their struggles with being borderline or being intimately attached to one. Many therapists refuse to take on this kind of individual and others take them on for the clinical study only.

BPD is the most difficult of personality disorders to treat as it basically requires re-parenting of very difficult adults. But it does exist on a spectrum and their are borderline borderlines, if you will. If self awareness and acceptance is present in the patient, there is hope.

Again I will say this is considered by most all serious clinicians to be a throwaway diagnosis in the common vernacular. I am not suggesting that anyone who has posted out here has not had a real experience, but the label does not always fit.

A true borderline is not without resources. They often have a lot of charm and tenacity. Initially, and sometimes lifelong they are more able to make connections with people in social and romantic relationships that have more depth than a narcissist or obsessive compulsive personality can achieve. Hence the pain and confusion that can be ensue. However even the most unconditional of love is unlikely to "cure" or bring stability to someone with BPD.

Most of the posters out here seem to know this and show a fair amount of insight. I repeat however, that it is a tossed about diagnosis and need not be applied to just anyone who has difficulty in feeling secure in relationships.

The best clinicians are not label obsessed, but use them diagnostically when they think it can be of some help to the patient's understanding and treatment. This others involved of course.

by Anonymousreply 13001/11/2013

[quote]Like most personality disorders it is too casually thrown about by internet amateurs who have learned some new words.

Do you include yourself? If not (and I would suppose not since you jaw on about it so), what are your qualifications then for being such an expert in the diagnosis and not another internet amateur? Are you a practicing clinician yourself? From where did you get your psychiatric degree and your training?

by Anonymousreply 13101/11/2013

I expected this sort of response and challenge and why not r131 ?

I am not BPD. I have made my statements and did not jaw on about anything. Often the most reasonable of opinions and facts are unacceptable to others. Nothing I said is controversial or in debate to mental health professionals.

I am not about to provide my clinical qualifications to you or to defend them.

I posted with all good intentions in accordance with my experience and training. My hope was to illuminate, not to discredit anyone.

by Anonymousreply 13201/11/2013

[quote]I am not about to provide my clinical qualifications to you or to defend them.

Then why in the world should we believe you in particular since you're tearing down other people's opinions on BPD? You raised the entire matter yourself by attacking others' opinions and simultaneously setting yourself up as the expert on BPD.

Frankly, unless you can provide some sort of credentials, none of us has any reason to accept your opinion than we do anyone else's here. You're just another Internet schmoe expressing his opinion.

by Anonymousreply 13301/11/2013

Speak for yourself, r133. R130 hit the nail whith the "re-parenting" thing. Must be a nightmare for therapists.

by Anonymousreply 13501/11/2013

I don't really understand why we need to be fighting about all of this. Everyone brings in valid insights, either from personal experience or more professional opinion. If you are trying to deal with someone who has this disorder, this thread is incredibly helpful. I am slowly giving up any hope that my love and my ability to withstand the mood swings will ever bring about any real change in my partner.

The difference between the narcissistic personality disorder and a BPD is fundamental though and I really appreciate someone explaining it so well here. It's helping me put all the missing pieces together.

by Anonymousreply 13601/11/2013

They want to be seen as good, and manipulate carefully to that end. The nice part seems to be an act, the snarly mean vicious stuff is too practiced not to be the core personality.

It was called Borderline because it was close to a psychosis, but not 100%... and when not in the throws of some emotion driven craziness, they can seem non-psychotic. The name is terrible as it doesn't sound very bad, and it is very bad. Dated a girl with it and she devastated me, caused me to lose my business, a good job, my marriage, and my self respect. It truly is me, me, me, me with them. The sex was great.. but it was just used to get you hooked, it wasn't love. They are insecure and driven by needs... their needs, not yours.

Avoid them for your sake.

by Anonymousreply 13701/11/2013

The over the top angry people who post on this thread are not BPD or NPD, they are people who have come in contact with one or the other, likely recent to their post. People with BPD can do alot of damage and cause incredible suffering and throw normal people way off. I just spent the weekend getting 48 hrs of ranting about how evil i am etc etc. When he bottomed out, he felt well and stable enough to tell me I am as mentally ill and the pot calling the kettle black. I've often wanted to film a BPD rage, they just dont get it! Being Wrong all the time in a BPD relationship causes a lot of anger. People with BPD seem really evil because they supposedly love you but turn on you so quickly. Not only that, they are sometimes unsafe, they destroy your property or get physically abusive. I think some Boderlines are capable of killing you in a rage. Be careful of these ppl! I have broken up today after suicide threats and the whole shebang. I tried to understand but the lack of empathy and the frequency of the rages was making me afraid and sick. Borderlines make you feel guilty for leaving them. I will say just RUN the other way, guilt is better than constant misery and fear which they NEVER comprehend. I am also very angry about this.

by Anonymousreply 13801/13/2013

Oh, I want to qualify my post above when I say that Borderlines 'never' understand the pain and fear they cause, Im talking about Active (not in therapy)

by Anonymousreply 13901/13/2013

I really identify with what a lot of you here said about BPD's and their partners. I too have wanted to record my girlfriend's rages, because I had never seen anything like that. The fights/rages were also over really trivial things and by the end of them, I was always blamed for being the mentally ill one and the one who is angry/evil etc, even though I never even raised my voice. The psychological damage it does to you, as their partner, is hard to describe. And yet, you get hooked to the great sex and the spontaneous and (positively) intense aspects of he relationship, so it's hard to leave. At least that's been my experience.

by Anonymousreply 14001/14/2013

I believe it's hard to leave because of co-dependancy and the Borderlines constant manipulations. After this last bout of rage, blame and fear (because he was saying he wanted to die etc, could not stop vomitting, crying), which had me worried sick- when he bottomed (this is the end of the cycle, energy spent out) he went out with friends to play music, seemed perfectly fine and texted me saying that I knew he was crazy and stuck around anyway so it's STILL my fault. At that point I had the greatest of all epiphanies, immediately cut off the relationship with NO talking or texting and every day since is better. When you get some distance you begin to realize how bad you were hurting, how much they manipulated you, how little all those 'feelings' they supposedly had actually meant, it was all about them, always will be and you, when the short adoration stage is gone- are just their punching bag of choice. I no longer believe 'they can't help it' I believe the action is well practiced and the core person. There IS control because they dont do it when it's important they NOT. They just get everyone doing what they want out of fear and creating chaos for attention and get off on it. They actually despise you- just cant deal with you leaving. Read articles from BPD sites when they tell you how they are, youll begin to believe they should all be locked up for the good of society, and themselves. for a Co-dep who is buying into that a Borderline will kill themselves if you leave them, guess what? a borderline is never alone for long, you'll be surprised how soon that suicidal crying screaming lunatic is in someone else's bed as soon as they find another adoring victim. It's better to leave them AFTER a major rant when theyre spent out, they will tell you to go fuck yourself and you can skip all the suicidal crap, and dont talk to them or they'll reel you back in. The longer You stay with one the sicker YOU will get. Beware.

by Anonymousreply 14101/14/2013

thank you for your thread, you summed up nearly every angle that bpd use for their own gains. as ive said in my previous threads, it can take a long time to realise that your not the 'unreasonable' and 'selfish' one in the realtionship, but you definitely are the 'unwilling victim'. i think also that when youre older maybe 40+ then you start to see things with a different outlook and are not in the 'young love' stage, when 'drama's' and 'making a scene' can be commonplace with just abt anyone. as someone on previous thread said they are called 'borderline' because they are 'borderline psychotic' which is very very scary! and sadly i dont think the knowledge of this state is common like bi polar or autistism is. so we are left with a very large number of people worldwide (im in uk) that are currently going about destroying their partners lives and its put down as 'they are highly strung', 'very emotional', 'difficult' etc etc..wow, so be on your guard and dont be afraid to walk away asap from the new relationship as soon as those bells start ringing!

by Anonymousreply 14201/14/2013

Slap a Haloperidol patch on a Borderline and they are almost tolerable.

by Anonymousreply 14301/14/2013

No you do...sorry but my mother is one..."Beautiful inside" not my momster..she is borderline and histrionic...narcissistic, too. If she had any empathy, it was for herself only..always the victim. She single handed lay ruined the lives of everyone around her and destroyed the extended family. Of course it was never her fault. She is an awful person ...no me can stand to be around her.

by Anonymousreply 14401/14/2013

Oh Gosh, just by this post I can feel your deep pain. Just know there are many here that get it. The best thing to do is make yourself better. Whatever that is, a gym, friends, movies, something and anything. Make sure you get up everyday and look for life, because it's yours for the taking.

by Anonymousreply 14501/15/2013

I'm finding this thread very helpful. I had a partner who must have had BPD and this is the first time I've read any insights that have really helped me to understand what it was.

She was actually great in lots of ways, whip smart, sexy and extremely fun. She did have, I believe, genuine compassion for me and others. She could be very caring and helpful to others and because she was so smart, she could be a lot of help. This was until her paranoia took over, which it always did. Then she was a nightmare, full stop.

She played out an abandonment scenario with me every few months-mostly she would abandon me and I would find myself begging her not to do it. Then we would have a "break up/closure talk" where I would be hauled into her court and have every last thing I ever said to her twisted back to me in ways I never meant. I would fight or resist these interpretations and end up apologizing for things I never said or did just to end the court session. Then she would proclaim us officially I would walk away heart broken and somewhat relieved to have the relationship finally over. Then she would call a few days or weeks later, crying because she was having a crisis or missing me etc... Then the whole cycle started again. I'm still not sure how or why I ended up putting up with this. I was at a low point in my life and the relationship did make me very happy for a brief few months. I kept stupidly thinking that we could just get back there, if she could learn to relax and trust me. (She had a nightmare childhood, of course) I had never had any relationship like it before and I didn't recognize myself in it.

Finally I walked away for good and stopped communicating with her after she sent me one crazy email too many. I still loved her though and was worried about her constantly. She committed suicide 3 months later and I have never been the same. I'm in a very good relationship now and grateful but something feels broken inside me. I'm always worried something will go wrong and I can't enjoy it as much as I should. I feel very guilty both towards her and towards myself for ever being involved in that mess. I feel like I was the final trigger for her. I know it's not my fault but it still feels like some awful twist of fate that I could have avoided if I hadn't been lonely and stupid.

by Anonymousreply 14701/15/2013

R147 your story hits so close to home for me. My ex girlfriend, from whom I just separated, but she is stringing me along and I still love her, sounds a lot like your ex girlfriend. The behavior of twisting my words, making me apologize for things I don't think I ever said or meant, threats of suicide, lack of trust.

The paranoia is what was the hardest part to take, because I always felt like I was dealing with imaginary problems and how can you even begin to resolve something that doesn't exist?

R147 I wish there was a support group for (ex) partners of BPD's because it's been extremely helpful to compare notes. Thank you for sharing your story.

by Anonymousreply 14801/15/2013

Re 147 Babe, I feel your pain and you know it was not your fault. These folks threaten suicide all the time, about 10% do it , most don't. She could never trust you, because there are two things here: While being in a loving relationship is ALL they desire, being in one is like being in a burning building, so there is no solution for them, or you. They just torture themselves and make close relationships the catalyst for it, and your life would have been hell, perhaps ruined had you stayed. I truly hope you find lasting peace, if it was not you it would have been someone else. It's no real reflection on you, BPD is prevalent and any of us who came across one just wished it never happened, to us or them. Be well and happy, and enjoy your great relationship to the fullest. You are very lucky and probably a great person, and know that it's just what is was, a horribly unlucky situation, like a car accident. Peace to you, you deserve it, and all good things in life.

by Anonymousreply 14901/17/2013

I have BPD. I didn't ask to have it. From the responses on here to the post I notice and accept that people are angry about the way they have been treated by people with the disorder it probably isn't easy to deal with some one with it but I just feel like I should say that calling us psyco is a bit harsh.

To paint a picture for you: imagine a little girl the age of five who is cute with pigtails think of the cutest girl you can up until that age her parents have never told her they hAte her they discipline but with good reason. Let's say the mother of that child has two children 16 months apart and the father loses his job and has to take 2 low paying jobs and is never home. The mother starts to suffer post natal depression and beginIs to lock the little girl out side. One day the little girl desperately needs to go to the bathroom. she knocks Nd knocks on the door asking 'mummy please let me come in I need to go" the mother looks at the little girl through the security door and eithe ignore her or just is so stressed she can't really cope. The little girl wets herself the mother gets angry at her and puts her in a diaper and parades her down the street.

Welcome to my life as a child almost every day. Ok so maybe I should just get over it but if you saw this happen wouldn't it make you feel some thing. I'm also not saying our behavior is socially acceptable and not harmful I'm just trying to let you know what it takes to get us to where we are at.

Spare a thought next time you know of any one abusing their child and get the parents help so the child might not need it later.

by Anonymousreply 15001/17/2013

I always feel like things are my fault with my BPD when their is some kind of argument with family spouse ect

by Anonymousreply 15101/17/2013

R149 I like your quote "While being in a loving relationship is ALL they desire, being in one is like being in a burning building" because this is exactly the hell I have been dealing with with my ex girlfriend who suffers from BPD. She literally tortured me while in the relationship, then built some kind of a case against me that let her believe she couldn't trust me just so she could "justifiably" torture me more. All the love and compassion in the world can't change those people though and I was so emotionally depleted with her, I was miserable all the time, even though I really love her.

To the person who says she has BDP, I see hope for you because at least you realize that. My ex would never admit to it and actually said I had it, or other people in her circle had it. If she can't own up to her own behavior, there is little hope, but you can actually make a lot of progress with the awareness. Good luck!

by Anonymousreply 15201/17/2013

Several people here have asked about trying to maintain friendships with borderlines being ex's etc. Also about letting go for good. As a person who had a borderline mother and a recent ex boyfriend who is still trying to manipulate me and I've posted here several times, it's not that I have ultimate answers but have done adequate research I think to comment. Friendship means both people understand what 'friendship' is. You need to assess if this is TRUE. Doubt it, seriously. You will notice that BPD's are usually in constant crisis, either losing their wallet or other personal items like keys or locking themselves out of car or house, car problems, other relationship problems, going to jail, , being sick or injured which is a big one, constantly screaming for help or attention. Late night calls or loving, then either clingy , break down or nasty emails/texts. I have noticed that once you make a first 'out reach' of compassion- they try to get you 'back on the hook.' It may look innocuous at first, they may text with a true pertinent matter, so you respond. The next thing will usually be something that presses YOUR buttons, creating a need for Your response AGAIN, even an angry one will give them what they need. This is the reeling in process and you can find yourself right back where you started or stopped, even spending your day now thinking WTF! I have managed this by setting boundaries 'I ' stick to. (don't expect them to) You will know when you are being manipulated, especially if you give yourself enough time away. Don't answer phone or text after any time you deem correct, no matter what the texts or VM say. No matter if they are locked out, need a ride, breaking down...don't answer. They learn you are not the go-to person. I have said, in the calm time, if you are feeling suicidal go to the hospital, call your best friend, Do not call me! They don't go to the hospital or call their best friend because they would be embarrassed, and because YOU as an ex , friend or whatever are the victim of choice. They pick the best and most compassionate to their cries, you must not be this person, it's a sum lose game for you. Once the camel's nose is under the tent so to speak. There are other people to call if the crisis is real, but they don't, because usually it isn't, This is about Your attention which sooner rather than later- you will be reviled for. As far as 'leaving' and how to? The BEST thing to do is cut off communication entirely and go through WHATEVER YOU Will Go Through- loneliness, withdrawl from your own co-dep, sit with it and know you chose survival- do not engage. Get up and shower everyday, take a walk, look at the beauty in your life, even if it's the little things. Block them from Facebook, dont read their FB page , dont watch them or listen to BS they say on FB, or get screwed up because all their friends are sympathizing with them. Remember that while you likely got a little isolated in the relationship and it seems they didn't, you will recoup, their life is hell in their own mind and all this posturing is FAKE. Each day away is a better day for you. With time away from the entire nuts that was your life, you will see the lies (OMG, the lies come up suddenly and you ask, were they really sick that day, was so and so at work really such a bitch etc), You see the manipulations more clearly, you will be stronger. Fight with all you have your own co-dependency and partake of alcohol or drugs at a minimum, since they make your resolve weak. I take walks, even in the cold. I look around and breathe fresh air and remember who I was and who I am. See friends if you can manage it. I have a little trouble with this (post traumatic stress) but am trying, and my friends keep calling and texting every day, and I take comfort in this. Eat and sleep early and well. Every day is better than the last, that I know for sure. Soon you will be back to your life loving, happy self. Take comfort in the peace you have now and discount the loneliness, it will pass. Know you loved well and will love again. Peace.

by Anonymousreply 15301/18/2013

I dont know you or your ex. I apologize on their behalf also being a sufferer of bpd. It hits pretty hard to home for me to hear what your saying as i myself have done things like that in the past and it breaks my heart that you had to suffer such pain.

You have a great heart and I hope that you have the most amazing relationship ever in the future. Actually I know you will.

I just really feel for you and want you to feel better.

by Anonymousreply 15401/18/2013

this is for sonja..your post was spot on and actually made me laugh cos all i remember is my friends having to cut short their time with me or other friends because the bpd ex had either: lost the door keys, lost their purse, lost the car keys, lost their passport, lost their travel card, lost the vouchers after making you go to the store to spend, flooded the house after 'bleeding' the radiator?, the cat was sick, the electric lights wont work, cant work the washing machine, cant turn cooker on, their mum/dad/brother has turned up unexpectedly, oh and their only other friend cant meet them after all. all needing the return of the poor wretched partner. so yes absolutely/completely/utterly NO contact. they will find a new victim asap anyway. cheers

by Anonymousreply 15601/27/2013

Well, I can talk but don't walk the walk too well. I'm cyber stalking my ex-learning about more elaborate lies every day. Maybe I'm learning or just self torturing. Perhaps you have to convince yourself youre right. it's incredibly frustrating that they have all this 'support' , friends and concern on Craackbook. You feel so foolish, while you sit alone and know theyre a goddamn psychopath, and watch them date and get new people to 'feel their pain', and say bad things about you, then call you and lie through their teeth about how bad it is for them, then laugh with their friends, when you truly are in pain and your stomach is in knots all the time. It's really the most sickening shit I've ever known. I have to ask myself WHY, as if the myriad of lies aren't enough? I need more proof? Or I resent their facade of lies that have other people convinced they are the one 'wronged'. My phone is kinda dead, without all those texts of love or desperate calls for help. You get addicted to that shit. The space becomes empty all of a sudden. You dont quite know what to do with all the freetime, as you see them move on to another victim, you almost feel abandoned yourself. You know it's for the best,... it just feels incredibly UNFAIR.

by Anonymousreply 15701/30/2013

Way back in the thread someone suggested that anyone that had mean things to say about a BPD individual were all hateful narcissists that did not have empathy. Well, let me dare go down that path of having something unflattering to say of BPD. My ex-wife is diagnosed as having BPD. She came clean on her cheating during our marriage, but wont tell all about cheating the 4 years we lived together before marriage, but admits that she has cheated our whole 17 years together. About three times a year she would sexually or emotionally cheat. She would have sex with me sometimes minutes after having sex with another man, some whose names are unknown to her, and some while totally sober. I would kiss her and kiss her stomach unknowingly just after she had had sex or gave oral to some guy. She thought she was in live each time of course, most of these guys she knew and were married and would keep a secret and she had a thing for if THEY showed any flattery towards her. l was home with our three children and these nights out could be out with co-workers to a girls night out or a birthday party gone wrong. She was a total chameleon. So, in her case, the only empathy she has is for herself. She is aware of her pain and distortions, but she cannot put herself in anyone else's shoes nor imagine the humiliation, health risk, ruined life, betrayal and stress that they put someone through. Trust me, I carried her though a decade of clinical depression and paid for all things anyone could want and need. I left here (and me) penniless in the end. She was a secret spender and I have our three children. She is not maternal and cannot stand to be around her kids for more than 40 hours straight (less than two days). So for those that say they are misunderstood and have too much empathy and sensitivity...I say that is bullshit. She is directly evil and male sexual attention is a problematic desire in the bulk of all BPD cases. You just have not found out about it yet or never will. I am a very aware person and she was so stealth. I also find that they partner (become best friends) with females that honor "girl code" and share much of the same immorality. My ex begs me daily for me to take her back. She is on mood meds and had doubled in size. I hate to see her physical health suffer from her weight issues and the loss of her attractiveness, but this is God's doing I suppose. Vengence is his...which is probably fair because she targeted my friends and co-workers and was successful in bedding some of them WHILE I would be with them. She would sneak off on our few date nights that we got per year to go sit and talk to men she had been with if we were out listening to music and come back and say "Oh that was someone I graduated with. I was just asking if his wife was feeling better, she had been sick." When in reality, she now admits that she went over and got a smack on the butt and got a high from the risky flirtatious act that was way over the line. She is sick and will be forever. Hopeless and likely a true psychopath. Her sister and mother are evil people that manifest destruction and human turmoil wherever they go. So, I dare you to tell my damaged children how empathetic their BPD mother is. I dare you. Oh, and get a DNA test if you have kids with a BPD woman. I would consider it essential. She is a rabid liar. Mood meds (anti-psychotics, same as they would give a diagnosed psychopath) slow the demon down a lot, but her thought process and fantasy of men, no empathy, lies by omission in general is unchanged - it is just slower in nature. Anti-depressants make it worse and are not recommended per the DSM manual for clinicians. They only disinhibit the beast within and make it worse as far as acting out.

by Anonymousreply 15801/30/2013

My therapist once described BPD people as having ' a giant hole in them that can never be filled' , though God knows, they try. The neediness, constant attention - it's exhausting. Really, no matter how much is done for them, it's never enough. A giant hole .

by Anonymousreply 15901/30/2013

The problem with borderlines is that they always have to focus on someone to alienate. Someone in their family, someone at their job. You just know it is a matter of time until your number is up. It's all bullshit that they repair after 40 years of age. They freak when they can't cause drama and then run to the suicidal manipulations. Let them kill themselves. Let them go.

by Anonymousreply 16001/30/2013

My BPD ex never really attempted suicide but constantly threatened she would die, she was always "dealthy ill" and had many medical problems, yet at the same time she was the most in shape and resilient person I have ever met. It took me months to figure out the lies and manipulations. That when she claimed she was so sick she couldn't get out of bed, calling doctors etc, it was all lies which she used to elicit sympathy and get attention. Her illness was also something she used when I wanted to make plans with other people. I was always made feel guilty and had to cancel my plans to stay home and take care of her.

by Anonymousreply 16101/31/2013

[quote]If others really get to know me, they will find me rejectable and will not be able to love me; and they will leave me;

From reading this thread, that would seem to be a rational, well-founded belief.

by Anonymousreply 16202/01/2013

Why can't any of these posters who have experience with BPDs ever once use the return button twice? It separates text into separable paragraphs and makes it ten times easier to read.

Look, you just hit

[return]

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and you have separated your text into paragraphs. That's all you have to do. You will make other people reading your posts much happier.

It comes across as crazy if you don't do it, and we suspect you yourselves actually have BPD and are trying purposefully to annoy other people when you don't do it.

by Anonymousreply 16502/01/2013

[quote]Most of us did separate paragraphs but the site put them all together,

You only used the space bar once.

by Anonymousreply 16802/01/2013

Sonja, I say this with love;

by Anonymousreply 16902/01/2013

BPD people are sick fucks who would all ideally be locked up in asylums if they still existed.

by Anonymousreply 17002/01/2013

[quote]My therapist once described BPD people as having ' a giant hole in them that can never be filled' , though God knows, they try.

I know exactly how they feel.

by Anonymousreply 17202/01/2013

Sonja comes across as so sane and reasonable and measured on this thread.

by Anonymousreply 17302/01/2013

Go back to the squirrels' storebin, nutsy.

by Anonymousreply 17502/01/2013

Sonja, I read all your posts and found them very insightful you truly understand how is was to be in a relationship with a borderline an experience only people who have been thriugh it know I can't really add much to your posts since their so accurate imo, but I will say this my first red flag was here her impatience it was not normal impatience also very hypocritical People.

Anyway I appreciate your input...I usually don't reply on messageboards much anymore but your posts inspired me to write. YOU have a comrad here.

Peace&Love

by Anonymousreply 17702/05/2013

Sonja I also sympathize with you. Only people who have dealt with a BPD can understand how damaged it leaves the other partner. And I really do understand the emptiness that comes after cutting off contact, because BPD's put in so much of their energy (both positive and negative) onto you, so when that goes away, it leaves you feeling so empty. You realize you were addicted to that attention.

by Anonymousreply 17802/05/2013

178. Its definitely an addiction to the attention also toxic shame. The thing is that they live fantasy land so much and play so many mind games to avoid pain while inflicting pain its simply a no win situation they're not fit for adult relationships too immature and childish imo they hate truth They want to follow a script they've created in their mind that always changes depending on their mood at the moment.

by Anonymousreply 17902/05/2013

BPD here, relatively high functioning and on meds and ok outside of romantic relationships. I understand the burden this disorder can place on people when untreated, but the level of cruelty here makes me sad. I'm not really angry, I just don't get it...why so mean? Is it because its easy to hide behind a computer and spew hateful words that you wouldn't say face to face? I gotta say my latest guy has been great with me but only after I agreed to take my meds and control over my life. Still, even in my rages, I don't recall being as nasty and unprovoked as some of the comments I'm reading. All human beings are at some point 'me me me.' This thread serves no purpose other than to spread viciousness.

by Anonymousreply 18002/08/2013

Is r181 Debra Winger?

by Anonymousreply 18202/15/2013

what the hell - this is like the Today Show threads with people wandering in from nutso dullsville

by Anonymousreply 18302/15/2013

[quote]This thread serves no purpose other than to spread viciousness.

Well dud...this is Datalounge....pointless bitchery is why we are here. Please read the directions before participating......

by Anonymousreply 18402/15/2013

Could people in this thread state at the beginning wheter they are a man or a woman?

I like to skip the female posts.

by Anonymousreply 18502/15/2013

R182 Nope, It's Chris Brown. It appears that it's Chris's fault but it's really Riri who is making him punch her out.

by Anonymousreply 18602/15/2013

Who are you to decide what I do or do not understand on a topic that we have never discussed?

One of the things that you do not have to worry about is excessive identification with others.

by Anonymousreply 18802/20/2013

What is the best way to drive Bordeline to suicide? I know one who irritates me and I'd like to give her a little nudge to get her going in the right direction (which is off a cliff)

by Anonymousreply 19003/03/2013

The best advice in the world that anyone can give someone close to a BPD person is to encourage them to RUN AWAY and to STAY AWAY from the BPD person. It's the only way to a decent life for yourself. You must cut them out of your life completely - no matter what.

Those of you posting here who have BPD and are dismayed at the response really just need to shut the fuck up. You are a BPD person and you have never been on the receiving end of you. You inflict your vicious craziness on other people and then whine when the best anyone can say to them is to run away from you.

Don't like it? Too fucking bad. No one deserves the shitrain from hell that you put people through. No one deserves the devastation you bring to the lives of others. No one needs to feel sorry for you, you spend your entire life feeling sorry enough for yourself.

Leaving you alone is actually BETTER than you deserve, after the way you treat people. So really, spare us the "oh how can you all be so MEAN" bullshit. Those of us who really know BPD know that you are just being manipulative, self-pitying, attention-seeking assholes - as usual.

by Anonymousreply 19103/03/2013

R192, I will put my real world, real hell experience with a BPD person up against whatever the fuck you think you know, any day of the week.

So fuck off, cunt.

by Anonymousreply 19303/03/2013

Everytime a borderline dies and angel get it's wings.

by Anonymousreply 19403/03/2013

BPD..my mistake

by Anonymousreply 19603/03/2013

What a great thread. I completely agree with the advice to cut these people out of your life as soon as possible. They will never change because they can never accept that there is something wrong with them. I was fooled for too long by someone who it's clear now had BPD. They will say whatever they can to get the desired response from you and if you tell them a contradictory statement they made before, they will have no idea what you're talking about. They are always the victim, even when they act out in a rage.

OP is entirely wrong in describing their empathy, but is right in how emotional they are. They don't care at all for anyone but themselves. There is no hope for dealing with them. Unless they are family, cut off all communication. They feed on it. They're sick.

by Anonymousreply 19903/07/2013

Some people are just assholes.

by Anonymousreply 20003/07/2013

I'm sorry, but if you think empathy is a cardinal marker in BPD, then you need help.

Lack of concept for Boundaries Explosive inappropriate anger Fear of abandonment Anger with a strong subcurrent of anxiety paramount Child-like emotional patterns

These are the meaty part of the curve for all BPD "sufferers" and that's because everyone else suffers as much as they do.

Yes, I am in the field.

BPD is also estimated at 3% of the population (most women). This is not allowing for the fact that probably 90% of BPD sufferers think the world is just 'ked up, not them. Think more like 12-15% of mainly women. Then you start to get scared....

by Anonymousreply 20103/07/2013

I'm so confused. I love knowing about all the various disorders...but this one is tough!!! I don't understand it.

Name a famous film or literary character who you'd say has BPD order...that may help.

by Anonymousreply 20203/07/2013

LMFAO @ R182. That was awesome.

by Anonymousreply 20303/07/2013

Does anyone know of any support group in NYC for people who have been or are in a relationship with a BPD? I have been taking care of my partner who is BPD and I don't know how to free myself of this situation. I almost feel powerless to do that.

by Anonymousreply 20403/07/2013

I "know" someone on another online forum who exhibits some of these BPD traits, mostly the one about being unable to take, or even see his own responsibility in some of the shit that happens to him.

And he's so open about everything, he practically drowns us in so much detail about his life that people have been able to take said information and use it against him in real life. He just got fired from a job he purportedly really wanted, because someone on that forum reported him to his employer.

Yet, it's the employer's fault this guy did what he did, then talked about it online. The maybe BPD guy had nothing to do with it. It was the person who reported him's fault. His employer's fault.

Does this describe BPD?

by Anonymousreply 20503/07/2013

Im 20. Ive been told I have bpd. Reading this. Well... there is no hope for me is there... or any of us. I wish they still did labotomys.

by Anonymousreply 20703/15/2013

I know of people with BPD who have gotten better as they got older, alongside taking dialectical behavioral therapy, R207. So don't be discouraged!

by Anonymousreply 20803/15/2013

R207 The fact that you acknowledge your BPD diagnosis and are looking for information puts you miles ahead of most people with the disorder. It isn't easy and it is a lot of work, but you CAN get better if you really want to and are willing to put in the time and effort to change the maladaptive thinking patterns and behaviors that are the hallmarks of BPD. Good luck!

by Anonymousreply 20903/15/2013

[quote]You all misunderstand borderline personality.

No. It's not that we don't understand - it's just that we don't care OP.

by Anonymousreply 21003/15/2013

[quote]Name a famous film or literary character who you'd say has BPD order...that may help

One of her biographers made a good case for Marilyn having it.

by Anonymousreply 21103/15/2013

As someone with BPD, it's absolutely crushing to read these replies.

I internalize so much of my emotions. I do not destroy my relationships, my family, etc. It's also ableist to use terms "nuts, psycho, crazy." Society needs to grow out of this stigmatizing. I didn't ask for BPD.

& I just want help.

by Anonymousreply 21203/19/2013

This thread has been very enlightening. My sister in law has always been emotionally unstable, but she's recently gone completely off the rails, blaming her parents for things that happened 40 years ago, thinking everyone is a thief and a cheat and out to get her, and generally rewriting history. It's unnerving to be around her, and I don't think she'll ever get the help she needs or take medication.

by Anonymousreply 21303/19/2013

I have BPD. The person I hurt the most enabled me. He let me walk all over him.

I'm now in a relationship with a man i love and who will not put up with BPD behavior but he's mostly blind to manipulating effectionate side. The raging, angry, defensive, blaming side he has never seen in me and it's been a major struggle to hide it. When the "evil" surfaces, which it does about every 2 or 3 months, he is very strict in dealing with it immediately. During these times I secretly fully HATE him.

When he's working or with his family or friends I know suicide would be better than the empty hollow dispair I feel. Sometimes I punish him for spending time with his friends instead of me by not seeing him when he asks but really I'm just wanting him to feel the pain of how he made me feel when he abandoned me. During these times I secretly fully HATE him.

He doesn't know I have BPD.

I decided when the relationship ends i will end my life. Ive already wrote the note. I hate who I am and how I feel and after this charade is over there wont be energy to continue another one and I'm not going back to the endless pain of rages and the horrors they make. I hate me, I hate the emptiness, I hate the hollow feeling, I hate hating someone i love, I hate not being able to control my emotions, i hate manipulating someone I love. We BPD people manipulate for one reason. To make you love us because we know we are unlovable.

We're not narcissistic, we're desperate to hide our unlovable empty selves and to make you fill our bottomless empty unlovable soul.

by Anonymousreply 21403/21/2013

Yes, DL you don't know shit about borderline personality. And method acting, and realpolitik, and the Kinsey scale, and....

by Anonymousreply 21503/21/2013

Despite all the crap re. men vs. women, this post has been helpful to me in understanding a good friend who I knew had some kind of psychological issue but I could never put my finger on what exactly it was. He gets into weird emotional/angry tirades then won't let go, blaming everything and everyone for all that's wrong in his life, see's the world and interpersonal issues in a very black and white manner (he even admits he cannot deal with unresolved/unresolvable issues), tells people what he thinks they want to hear with a huge amount of charm then turns on them when they do something he perceives as a slight etc., regards the entire world as revolving around him and his needs with little real emotional empathy for others (except in impersonal terms such as tragedies that don't involve anyone he actually knows). He uses people for what they can give him, then is willing to dump them when they have no more to give or are unwilling to give him what he thinks they should. Most of his casual relationships seem to involve people he meets over the internet who don't live anywhere near him (and he has very little chance of actually meeting). I don't have much emotionally invested in the relationship so whether or not he comes or goes isn't much issue but I think the trick to dealing with people like this is to be supportive within reason and not get drawn into all their drama--to be able to walk away.

by Anonymousreply 21603/21/2013

Therapists are MONSTERS when it comes to people who need help the most. They are ALL advertised on the Psychology Today database and ALL of them are Monsters when someone with BPD tries to get to see one of them. They will tell any lie to get out of it, they will fail to return a call and lie about the reason, they will then call on SUNDAY when they were supposed to call on a MONDAY...just to throw you off....so they can thrust it in...ie: no "openings" no interest, no professional ethics. I think their favorite lie is they have no room. Who can ever prove this? As a result there is NO HELP for borderlines. And that fraudulent cheap-shop "CBT" crap is worse than simply being offed because it is abuse-in-action. "CHANGE YOUR THOUGHTS OR ELSE" can be accomplished with horsewhips and torture too. GOD help you if you have BPD cause NO ONE else will.

by Anonymousreply 21703/24/2013

R214, are you in therapy? Please don't feel that it's hopeless and that suicide is the best option. I wish you good luck and peace.

by Anonymousreply 21803/24/2013

First off, part of the disorder is psychotic. They are capable of pushing away guilt. For instance, my ex would put me down and swear at me, and then shortly after act like nothing happened. Then if I brought up the fact that she did it, she would then put me down and swear at me. That is clearly someone who is not empathetic but who only cares of themselves. I have heard it described that BPD's can empathize as long as it doesn't affect their needs. As soon as their "survival" is impacted they will tear your head off. They are the worst people to be involved with and to define them as having big hearts is just crazy. My ex would have a big heart for strangers, not her own family. In my opinion it all seemed like an act. She knew not to yell at me and put me down in front of strangers or people we didn't know well. She was in control of her emotions to a degree and clearly seemed to understand right from wrong in those instances of constraint until we got behind closed doors or in the car. To me that shows she could control it and yet didn't. Big heart my @ss.

by Anonymousreply 21904/02/2013

OP, you understand that DSM diagnoses are basically for the convenience of insurance companies, right? All other mental conditions are theoretical and hardly definitive.

by Anonymousreply 22004/02/2013

"order for borderline personality to develop, an invalidating environment with and a highly sensitive person MUST BE present. "

that's not true... I have an amazing home with amazing parents that constantly tell me an my sister how stellar we are. We also have grown up very sheltered, Suburbia upper middle class lives.

My sister still has developed borderline personality disorder. I like that you dispelled the myth of having little empathy but you encouraged another one the 'trauma myth' that some hardship in life is needed to develop a disorder. False

Enjoyed this article though!

by Anonymousreply 22104/03/2013

r212 STFU and go back to Tumblr where you belong.

by Anonymousreply 22204/03/2013

I agree getting upset at these posts really does no one any good,however,listing the people that get upset hear as having the worst cases of all perhaps in an attempt to rise above them is no better or worse than the people you are trying to put down,they for sure have fell in love with these people and hurt! I understand their anger . And being with a beautiful woman and lover for 3 years i can say this,it was the most passionant,fever piched turn table of love I really would not want to miss,and the most hateful,evil,insulting spirit burnt time in my life,She never could admit her mistakes because in her eyes she did them from my actions,she would fight about anything and I would try to put logic to it when she only knew I did not understand what she was feeling,she changed the facts to fit how she felt,I of course tried looking at the facts to understand her feelings,get it?

by Anonymousreply 22404/08/2013

Wow. I have recently come to realize that my BF has BPD. He refuses any treatment becauuse therapy "takes too long, he doesn't have the patience." As well as he can " control his own thoughts, doesn't need someone elses' brand of bullshit thinking, Cu's he won't believe them." Meanwhile, the man will admit his brain will make him think something vastly different from one day to the next? (Ie...his mind is untrustworthy.) I am *so fucked* I can't begin to fathom how to recover. I am 35 yrs old, have no job or career (my own issues, of course I got them!) And am almost seven months pregnant with his child. I have no family, no where to turn. I have always been used and manipulated in my life...but never like this. I never loved anyone like this. Lol! I finally fall in love and it turns out, it's with the *craziest* of craziest. And in my life, that's saying a lot. I$m so 'kin gullible, too honest, too caring...too lonely and desperate for the security of a die-for-you life-long love. He is someone I tried to date a couple of times over the years...at 17 and at 24...six months was the longest I invested back then. He was just..."odd" and stand-offish. I got the sense of his wanting to fill whatever he did with me but not being able to rely on him to return thefavor in any way. I am too co-dependent to be an endless supplier. You gotta nourish back. Anyway..ten years go by and he tracks me down out of the blue. Innocuous emails quickly turned into what is pure manipulation. Of course, stupid me, I didn't think anyone could or would make the things he says he feels up. And I'm vulnerable. Having gotten a small inheritance, I chose to get out of a 15 yr relationship from hell (constant rages, no love.) And see if I couldn't find something better for myself. It was a big risk but I knew I'd never be happy if I stayed with my ex. Sigh* So this guy, BPD guy, decides he can't live without me another day, leaves his wife of six years and their one year old daughters (who supposedly meant the world to him) and moves in with me. And we're madly happy and in love until a month goes by where he then packs up and leaves out of nowhere! Now...at first I bought the BS, he missed his kid (wife refused to allow her near me and he, of course, never challenges her). He would want to come back after a couple of weeks and I, fool that I am, was happy! I have never been in love. I never had anyone feed me, so consistantly, precisely what I needed to hear before. The man has a good job, but between his uncontrolled sense of entitlement (let's buy e expensive things to fill my empty soul) and his wife's complete shalliow self (she refuses to divorce him without ensuring he can not financially afford to move on with his life) *I* wound up using my money to support him, pay for his lawyer, etc... By the time I started to realize I can't ever trust him...he's not simply "confused" but crazy...my funds were very low and I was pregnant. Mind you, I was create, Shit, AM still, addicted to the man. The idea of this love I have, that he created! The man has left about 20 times in the past eight months. This last time he was gone almost a month. I, at 5 months pregnant, had a nervous breakdown. Was facing eviction and had to ask my psycho ragey ex to come and not leave me alone Cu's all I did was shake with anxiety. BPD didn't care.He teased me with promises of returning only to change his mind the next day. He did come back a couple weeks ago but...well, rent's due on Friday and he's been acting shady all week. "Tired," he says. :::SMH::: I've learner this is his code for, I'm putting distance between us so I can work on twisting my brain up so that I can hate you long enough you leave you again. Sigh* This board, I found last night....needless to say, when he's in the throws of BPD (or the manifested part I see as distance) I don't even sleep. The thing that hits me most is how the bottom line is quite clear: he is never going to be anything but this insane child. Part 1

by Anonymousreply 22504/24/2013

Part 2 Selfish beyond all comprehension, irrational in his wants, as not only are they inconsistant, they are veritably at odds with each other. Immune to anyone elses' *needs*, despite wanting to be able to endlessly go back to that well for another cup of your soul. You all say run. I wish I could. I wish I had any means to financially survive. And I'ma have a child! Whom, btw, he has provided *nothing* for!!! It helps, this tho ad....because now I truly know, my own brand of crazy isn't so bad. I *do* recognize, finally, the e depths of this man's depravity. His soul-sickness. It is hard, being a person who wants to heal others, to really accept that all that he does is so far out of my control...it has *nothing* to do with me. A more loving, supportive, intelligent and demonstrative person than me he can never, ever hope to find. And I'm sexy too! Lol! Just saying, if a real life relationship of love and understanding, forgiveness and support as well as the aptitude to present that mirror, to call him to answer to the realities *of his own making* were something he was after, then I wouldn't be so petrified right now of his leaving again. I have read a lot of "professional" opinions on BPD these past few days. None of that comes close to the real life understanding I've witnessed here in this thread. So, thank you. I apologize for my length and the many odd typos...I am using a Kindle and autocorrect is auto-wrong. I'll definitely return here, so if anyone wants mire details (and they are truly mind-bending to me...and sickening to all) or whatnot, ask away. Thanks.

by Anonymousreply 22604/24/2013

There are a lot of ignorant people on this board. Basing your understanding of an illness on a movie is like thinking you are an expert on the Civil War because you watched Gone With the Wind. Each person is unique and if they have an illness or disorder, that doesn't mean they are that illness. Both my father and I have BPD. He was abusive and out of control but pretended to be nice in public. I on the other hand almost never get angry and would say my defining characteristic is kindness. I was just diagnosed, but the literature seems to suggest remission of symptoms is possible in a year with intensive therapy. I think complaining about other people's illnesses as though you are a victim is a pathetic way to feel better of yourself. This condition makes a person feel miserable and you should be ashamed for attacking that other poster.

by Anonymousreply 22704/24/2013

One of my best friends is Borderline. I love her a lot, much more than a friend actually, and that has caused some trouble for us. Neither of us has boundaries. She told me I was her favorite person within a few weeks of becoming friends and it all got really intense from there. Im gay and shes straight, but she would flirt with me and we got very physically close and it confused the shit out of me. When she got a BF I freaked out. We have had like four arguments about all of this. She never dumps me though or gets angry with me about it, which boggles my mind as she often insult or complains about everyone else we know.

About a month ago she broke up with her BF and suddenly decided that she didnt wanna sleep next to me anymore or be close. I didnt understand why and this really upset me. Its taken a little time, but now she is getting close to me again- however with boundaries. I know I will always love her though. Dont know how to get over her...

by Anonymousreply 22804/25/2013

One clear red flag to when a person is borderline is if you go to visit a friend or loved one and the new squeeze insults them incessantly while sucking up to you. You're like, WTF, and wish your friend or loved one were not linked to this person. You might be tempted to think it's an abuser or a cheat, but if the relationship lasts, it's almost certainly a borderline.

by Anonymousreply 22904/28/2013

I never realized that so many people with BPD use the Datalounge. It really explains a lot.

by Anonymousreply 23004/28/2013

I hate r227. Glad their father hit them.

by Anonymousreply 23104/28/2013

Any negative comments about BPD are from ignorant people and should have remained un posted. I have BPD and am a psychologist. It is am extremely painful emotional roller coaster ride and takes contnuous strength to live manageably. I chose to become a Psychologist to help others with BPD since I have a greater source of empathy. Those around you often fail to realize your immense suffering.

by Anonymousreply 23205/04/2013

Even the title of this thread is classic BPD. So insufferable. For your own mental health, if you suspect a friend or partner has BPD... RUN!!!!!

by Anonymousreply 23305/04/2013

One of the prosecution witnesses who is a mental health professional said Jodi Arias had attributes consistent with borderline personality disorder and one other pathological condition.

by Anonymousreply 23405/05/2013

Borderlines should just kill themselves and stop all the whining!!!!

by Anonymousreply 23505/05/2013

"Those around you often fail to realize your immense suffering."

It's true, few people tune into how much pain the BPD is suffering, because they're so preoccupied with how much the BPD-er has made THEM suffer!

If you want sympathy, don't hurt other people.

by Anonymousreply 23605/05/2013

Maybe I'm a borderline...

by Anonymousreply 23705/05/2013

i'll give you borderline!

by Anonymousreply 23805/05/2013

To all of you insensitive bitches who are giving everyone with bpd a ignorant typical stereotype. Think about this you sure as hell ain't perfect but you want to sit and judge everyone with bpd as crazy. I'm have bpd and know how to control it. Several of mention how crazy your partner was... did u ever think they probably thought you were a pyscho? Your obviously heartless and ignorant.but maybe the.problem really in you so how about you learn how to whip your ass before you talk shot bitch

by Anonymousreply 23905/11/2013

Had a girlfriend with BPD. Horrible. Made everything about her. Saw slights where there were none. Always has it in for someone in the family and someone at work. You always wonder when your time will come to be in her "hot seat". She could never understand how her friends and coworkers could hold relationships with men of means. Her envy of these women who thought enough of themselves was so toxic. She never got why men would always go for her friends and not her. Her fragile ego always needed coddling. I watch her struggle for afar via her psycho Facebook page.

by Anonymousreply 24005/11/2013

I know BPDs who -think- they are very empathic, but half the time (or more) they make up the way another person feels, and are actually completely out-of-touch with that other person's emotions.

BPDs may feel deeply, and feel deeply about other people. That's not the same as empathy, though. You have to have more awareness of the other person. BPDs spend most of their time being too self-centered.

And when it comes to other people, also *way* too self-congratulatory.

by Anonymousreply 24105/15/2013

What does that even mean R241?

by Anonymousreply 24205/15/2013

Could one of the more knowledgeable people, if there are any still around, give some of the similarities between bipolar and borderline as well as differences.

by Anonymousreply 24305/15/2013

Saying "you all misunderstand..." to a bunch of strangers, most of whom haven't said anything, seems deeply disturbed and disturbing.

by Anonymousreply 24405/15/2013

Every time this thread pops back up to the front page and I see that opening paragraph of bullshit it just make me insane.

Don't try to talk you way out of this one, you manipulative little asshole.

by Anonymousreply 24505/15/2013

I agree with R245 - just give it a rest, BPD psychos. No one wants to listen to any more of your bullshit.

by Anonymousreply 24605/15/2013

BPD can also be of biological cause. As a parent of a teenage daughter who has just been diagnosed with "tendencies" towards BPD, I can tell you that she grew up with a very loving Mom. Now, her Dad, is another story. He was wonderful. Until the chaos got the best of him. EDUCATION, more EDUCATION and more again. We tried from the time she was very young to try to get "help". NO ONE listened! Started with lies. Lies to gain attention. Telling stories about her family that were far from the truth. Then the never telling the whole truth - just the part of the story that is necessary. As a parent? WOW. You seek advice, you try. You talk, talk, talk. (I did) It ended in divorce for her father and I. At 13, the roof keeps raising on our home. From the age of 10 on, she sleeps in my bed. We do EVERYTHING together. I do my very best to be her Dad and Mom. Things do not get better. At 13, she's sneaking out. Ends up having sex WAY too early. Then the temper... the anger... the violence. Sickness - belly aches. Needing to come home all the time from school only to get home and feel immediately better. I HAD NO IDEA what was going on. Take her to the Dr over and over only to be told nothing was wrong. Put her on the pill to "stabilize her moods". HA! That didn't work (of course not!). On to counselling for her and I. A full year of that! Not much help at all. The only thing it did was help me to think that I'm not crazy.. there really is an issue. GUILT, PAIN, CONFUSION... and even ANGER. Some of my issues. Door after door after door slammed in my face. FINALLY??????? I read enough about teen depression I think it's that. Take her to our NEW dr. He says he'll only give her meds IF she visits Mental Health. Email after email after phone call after phone call. Telling the worker what was going on. Each incident, faithfully, I called. FINALLY???? A screening. An answer. FINALLY. Her and I smile.... We will head down the road to recovery together. DBT first... not sure what's next. We have a different relationship now.

by Anonymousreply 24705/22/2013

All the negative garbage on here???? Educate yourselves. THEN, and only THEN should you waste "finger" time typing junk on here. Possibly there's a medical term for your kind too. Just because you don't understand something or someone does not give you the right to judge.

by Anonymousreply 24805/22/2013

Every time I see the title of this thread it pisses me off. I knew someone with BPD, and she always had to be telling everyone exactly how they had to "understand" something and exactly how they had to treat her. She (and her kids) always used her illness as a way to control others. "I'm SICK, so you have to do X and Y and X and every other thing I tell you to do." Guess what? I don't have to do what you tell me, or to "understand" the world exactly as you see it. I cut her and her family out of my life, and I'm far better for it.

by Anonymousreply 24905/22/2013

R247 this sounds a lot like my 20 year old son.... A truly bright, loving, delightful, loving child as a little boy.....then at age 7, 10, etc., I saw things that disturbed me. Excessive sensitivity & overreaction to "perceived. Rejection or insults." Very exaggerated responses to these things. Then lying over ridiculous things, manipulating & playing one parent against the other. His father, it was suggested to me by a therapist, was a narcissist.... Who let this boy do whatever he wanted, did not know how to say no or set rules, guidelines, boundaries. It was me- mean mom, against them. I felt like a third wheel! My then husband wanted to ( and STILL wants) to be his son's friend, not his father. I felt like I was on my own and going a little crazy. Talk about a total "mindfuck!" Yeah, that's exactly what it was, only I didn't know that term then & could only describe their combined interaction with me as totally "twisted," a pack of lies, contrived stories. Felt like I was really going crazy. My only child & 2 against one. Finally, we split. At 13, my son decides to go with dad & totally cut me out of the picture. Dad has more$$$$$, and dad has no rules, and if you get into any trouble or mess up, dad will lie like a rug for you and rescue you over and over again. I keep trying to maintain contact, I love my son!!! I try to instill in him what I felt he knew and understood as a young child... The difference between right & wrong..... Taking responsibility for your actions.....After 6 to 7 years of running wild, lying constantly, manipulating & using people, then becoming consumed with a frightening rage that comes & goes without warning, all kinds if accusations of me doing horrible things I KNOW I did not do ( and perpetuated by his father to this day) my ex has created a monster of sorts who WANTS to do the right thing, but can't seem to, who overreacts emotionally to everything, who's life is spinning out if control & races from one crisis to another... Who though is extremely gifted intellectually, can't get through a semester if college or hold a job more than a few weeks, can't tell the truth about the simplest thing...... So many secrets!!!!, Involved in one serious, intense relationship after another, possessive, jealous, blowing huge sums of $$$$, and now having some legal issues related to those toxic relationships...... This is how the ex dumps, and I do mean "dumps" him on my doorstep after "grooming" him to be the way he is today. And the ex moves away & washes his hands. There IS a gentle, hopeful, loving, hurting soul in that boy!!! I see it more and more. Don't tell me to run!!! I am his mother! There HAS to be a way out for him. There has to be help! He KNOWS he's not right. He knows. You experts out there..... Tell me what I can do, what we can do. Where can he REALLY get help for this? He's scared but he does trust me now. We're all scared. I used tobthinknthis was bipolar disorder, but it is so much more like BPD, and I think that latter ex scares me even more.

by Anonymousreply 25005/31/2013

I wonder if BPD is genetic.

I have a friend who I have known for 35 years. This thread has helped explain a great deal of the behavior I've witnessed and been subjected to over the years.

At a funeral gathering...I met one side of this friend's family...they all had stories about growing up with extreme BPD behavior.

Thank you all for the discussion.

by Anonymousreply 25105/31/2013

Every time this thread shows up with its "you all misunderstand," I feel resurgent hatred of the OP and his presumption.

by Anonymousreply 25205/31/2013

R241 nails it. I keep an eye on a former friend who is BPD and she is so predictable. Puts her cats before everyone including her husband who is now leaving her because he found a woman with real interests in life. She isn't wrapped up into herself and it is just such a welcomed relief for him.

by Anonymousreply 25305/31/2013

[quote] I keep an eye on a former friend who is BPD

She *is* BPD? Or she *has* BPD?

I see this so often when people have ADD, or some variation thereof, that they say they *are* the disease. I have a condition that has an acronym, but I never say I *am* the condition.

by Anonymousreply 25405/31/2013

No. She is the PD.

by Anonymousreply 25505/31/2013

Fricken sad that all I have to fall back on is this disorder and not a person. I'm probably the poster girl for this disorder. There was a time I was diagnosed with it and I didn't know what my medication nurse was thinking cause I didn't know anything about the disorder. I think the disorder is more like a outside physical handicap that others see and judge but only the sufferer knows how it feels to be handicapped. I grew up with very insensitive people in my family. It really hurt that my brother and sister would always tease me. Then when I would go to school classmates teased me for being poor. Don't people know that you will spend the rest of your life being a child if you are not given a happy childhood.

by Anonymousreply 25606/18/2013

Wow, this thread is filled with real drips and downers.

by Anonymousreply 25706/18/2013

What percentage of the American population is believed to have BDP?

by Anonymousreply 25806/24/2013

Yeah...just like the BPD guy I was dating for awhile "empathized" with me by fucking other guys and girls while we were together,took money from me claiming he was broke(when actually he had thousands of dollars in a bank account he tried to keep hidden), made fun of mentally and physically disabled gay guys and never hesitated ONCE to exploit,manipulate,use and abuse the people around him who tried to be his friend.

by Anonymousreply 25906/24/2013

words fail me at some of these posts, the ignorance of people's beliefs surrounding bpd as an illness are just as misunderstood as schizophrenia, everyone is an individual, yes there are some nasty and manipulative people with a bpd diagnosis out there but there are also nasty and manipulative people who are diabetic or asthmatic etc. the majority of individuals should not be judged by the actions of a minority, get some mental health education before you write such stigmatizing dribble.

by Anonymousreply 26006/29/2013

Libertarians with borderline personality disorder believe in spellcasters?

by Anonymousreply 26307/07/2013

Hello, Im hoping for some advice from someone who has either been in a relationship with someone suffering from BPD or who suffers themselves from it. My life has recently been ripped to pieces by this disorder. And before you "say run like hell" I did. Many, many years ago this girl tore me to shreds and did some pretty bad shit to me. I had no idea anything was wrong with her then or now for that fact. Anyway, she moved long ago but we stayed friends and every time someone would tell her the no good things I was up to I would get an hour long lecture when I saw her. We were in love long ago (I thought). She built the walls that now protect me from being hurt ever again (so I thought). As a matter of fact I haven't been afraid of much in my lifetime...except her! For years I would disappear shortly after these lectures in fear of what would happen next? Well, I just got sick of looking for the right girl and have always known she was right in front of me the while time. Recently following yet another lecture I had my hand on the door to leave and somehow heard "I need a ride" coming from far behind me. I stopped. That's where my life ended. We went out for the next two nights and against her wishes I dropped her off both nights with nothing more than a kiss. She called as soon as she landed from her flight back to her "now" home state and started crying and saying all those things I needed to hear. I pleaded with her not to put me in the dark place she put me before because I couldn't live through it again and she promised me she wasn't that girl anymore. I always knew I would end my life with her. Every time I'd see her she would tell me about something she had kept for all these years and how I was her first intimate relationship. Now, I know this girl (so I thought) better than anyone in this world and soon realized something was fucked! To get to the point without going into to many details. I flew down to see her and spent the best week of my life....and I have had some great weeks! And she did have EVERYTHING I had ever gave her. As soon as I returned home she hated me. She said to give her a few days and I'm thinking WTF? After many hours on the internet looking for some kind of answer being as impatient as I am. I know she had some bad things happen to her but she has overcome them (so I thought). She is the smartest girl I know with a good education and also has a very good job that she has been at for a long time. After stumbling on a few articles that described my 10 days with her almost perfectly I yelled out what I thought was wrong with her. I said that this wasn't her and I wanted her back. I will regret this for the rest of my life! She said she was sorry and meant to tell me and after a short argument hung up the phone and has never talked to me again. She changed her numbers and even called a mutual friend and said some bad things about me. Oh ya, and if the ring wasn't sent down to the wrong store....I would be married to her right now. Stupid or not that's how sure I was of her and I mean no one knows or suspects what's wrong with her. A lot of things add up now especially why a gorgeous girl like that's not married yet? But hell, I wasn't either! And if she didn't admit it to me I still wouldn't know what the hell happened. She did tell me she was seeing a phyc for PTSD but that wasn't no PTSD! I haven't said a fraction of the things that happened but they all added up in the end. OK, first she isn't a girl I just met. She is the most precious thing in this world to me. I value her friend ship more than anything else and can not go the rest of my life with her hating me. SO RUNNING IS NOT AN OPTION. Can someone tell me how to go about just getting her to talk to me again? I know I went about this whole thing wrong but she knew I wanted to say something and kept coming up with excuses to get off the phone, she must have know I was close. I let it go for 4 months now and more than anything I'm worried about her. I wish we just stayed friends. Thanx

by Anonymousreply 26407/08/2013

"I value her friend ship more than anything else and can not go the rest of my life with her hating me."

Don't worry, she won't hate you for long, soon she'll hate her next ex the way she hates you now, and won't care about you at all.

Run away from her and don't look back, you idiot!

by Anonymousreply 26507/09/2013

I see a lot of bpds in fandoms, especially the obsessed ones. Just take a look at tumblr and twitter and see what I am talking about. People are seriously fucked up out there. Obsessions with actors and TV shows. People posting how this one particular celebrity saved their lives.

I see pics of cutting and what not.

I noticed one girl was just furious over how another was talking shit about her, sending her hate mail. She then made suicide threats.

by Anonymousreply 26607/09/2013

Then, there are the jealousy posts about actors who are dating, ripping apart the S/Os.

by Anonymousreply 26707/09/2013

People with an avoidant personality disorder often suffer a lot more than those with BPD. Unlike borderliners they have no friends, never had a relationship, and are un-or underemployed.

Borderliners often have outgoing personalities, to the point of being outright attention seekers, they can be assertive and they usually have lots of friends and a partner who can assist them in their therapy.

Avoidants, on the other hand, hide away, suffer in silence and because of their timid nature they end up as victims of bullying in their neighbourhood or workplace.

by Anonymousreply 26807/09/2013

Every time I see the title of this thread, I get ticked off at the presumption of the OP.

by Anonymousreply 26907/09/2013

You answering in that vein and are in the field. NOW. That's. Scary. I hope u meant in a literal. Field. Now the medical. One, God bless u and the veggies. U must. Be growing, if u would like to debate or have a discussion of MY Specialty, I think I would enjoy that immensely

by Anonymousreply 27307/21/2013

To 201. I am a psychiatrist. Not a computer. Geek, no I never said. Empathy was a marker. For BPD, simply usiong. An andecdote of one form to to express. That. One would not wish ill to a personl, if the disorder was not hurting them, trying for some open understanding for these patients. But. For a person " in the field". To have such a limited closemindedness is frigthening, and should not be expressed in a forum for that topic , I am new here. So I don't k now the protocol to speak to the one that left the msg. Niw for the person that said she was from a stable home. It only takes a few minutes to traumatize a childs persona, and they can not be watched all the time. , b ut that componet is thnere for the victim whther seen or. Not. All I was saying. Was more understanding of the illness can reduce the severity, the person is ill not evil, and the caregiver or. SO needs to educate themselves to for. Better union, that is free of the b ehavior. It can be done, but medical help must be sought, now for the homosexual that caloled me a cunt, that's the first and last time I use that filth I will pray for u, please get ur doctorate. Before u harm othners. U do know. " first do no harm". I do not think u ha e the b ehavior control for this profession, and I do not let en ept cowards. Offen d or disturb. Me I am in control, u should pratice. That. Often

by Anonymousreply 27507/21/2013

The "Beth Anderson" posts are why I don't go to shrinks.

by Anonymousreply 27607/21/2013

A psychiatrist who can't spell "you"?

Sure.

by Anonymousreply 27707/21/2013

Yeah, R277. Or her own name the same way twice?

by Anonymousreply 27807/22/2013

jump...do it!!!.... r279.

by Anonymousreply 28007/26/2013

[quote]Life can be very displeasing especially when we loose . . .

oh, dear

by Anonymousreply 28107/26/2013

Jesus fucking christ.

The fake "psychiatrist" and "lovespell casters" followed hot on the heels of the whining "my darling spawn has BPD and you all are SO MEAN" cunts.

Please, for the love of god, die in a grease fire.

If dying in a grease fire isn't your thing, just leave. Go back to the "Fat Women With BPD Kids" discussion boards and/or the "Fat Women Seeking Lovespell Casting" discussion boards.

Thank you.

by Anonymousreply 28207/26/2013

First, will you goddamned morons please learn how to paragraph before you post? You may have written something interesting, I will never know. I am not slogging through all that single-spaced, un-paragraphed crap.

Hit the return key TWICE and it makes a paragraph break. It works every single time and it's not rocket science.

Now then, let's have a look-see at the lovely and talented R248:

[quote]All the negative garbage on here????

Oh, you mean people posting their actual experiences with selfish, vicious, manipulative, lying, cheating, raging BPD's?

[quote]Educate yourselves.

Regrettably, we've had an education. Those who have been unlucky and/or unwise have had that excruciatingly painful education on a daily basis for years.

[quote]THEN, and only THEN should you waste "finger" time typing junk on here.

See above, then take your "finger" time and shove it up your smug, ill-informed ass.

[quote]Possibly there's a medical term for your kind too.

Yes, it's called PTSD. We acquired it while coping with the relentlessly abusive behavior of paranoid, vindictive, psycho BPD cunts.

[quote]Just because you don't understand something or someone

Oh, but we do understand it, Blanche, we really, really do. We actually deal with it from a perspective you will never understand or know. While you're busily raging, blaming and projecting, we're on the receiving end of your pointless, crazy, exhausting, destructive behavior.

You BPD people think that everyone's somehow obliged to tolerate your shit. We aren't and you have no idea what you put decent people through with your hateful insanity. Of course, it would only matter if you actually cared about other people, which you don't.

[quote]does not give you the right to judge.

See above, we actually DO have that right. We are judging you and we will continue to judge you. Don't like it? Feel free to fuck off.

by Anonymousreply 28307/27/2013

Yes to what R283 said.

by Anonymousreply 28407/27/2013

don't bother with crazy people in real life. period. and there are MANY on here, the internet...feel free to fuck with them.

by Anonymousreply 28507/27/2013

was the song "Borderline" by Madonna about her being borderline?

by Anonymousreply 29008/06/2013

I don't know, you should ask the spell casters.

by Anonymousreply 29108/07/2013

After all this time, the OP's misuse of the word "inverse" was the first clue that the putz simply was trying to explain away her diagnosis.

by Anonymousreply 29308/07/2013

r283, should get the post of the year award. Right on target.

by Anonymousreply 29608/09/2013

The good news is BPD actually starts to wane in your 40s. It's not lifelong like the other personality diorders. If you're afflicted, just hang in there and try to catch yourself. Read the symptoms and then beat them. Recognize them and you'll hasten the healing in your mid thirties. Only you can do this as therapists usually avoid the BPD because at some point, the therapist is going to go from loved to hated. They can't see the grey shades in people. Just black and white.

SNAP YOURSELF OUT OF IT!

Oh and BTW, mostly every teenager suffers with this illness at some time in their lives.

by Anonymousreply 29708/09/2013

My mother is a diagnosed narcissist and it's been interesting to compare her to the things people say about being victims of people with BPD here.

I've always felt like narcissism was to Asperger's as BPD was to full-blown autism - on the same spectrum and both presenting their own challenges, but one was much less debilitating than the other.

In other words, my mother is a selfish, melodramatic complete asshole, but in talking to friends with BPD parents, I know she could've been a lot worse.

by Anonymousreply 29808/09/2013

I' found a FB page and pinterest of a diagnosed borderline personality disordered frau type. Scroll down on the left to the pinterest. Unfortunately, she's turning to the born again church when she should be working on a program with a psychiatrist and compassionate counselor. Feel bad for this poor soul but she might just grow out of it as she nears forty.

by Anonymousreply 29908/09/2013

Is that another difference between narcissism and BPD? I don't think narcissists ever grow out of it.

by Anonymousreply 30008/09/2013

I had a friend who was full-on sociopath (he even asked me to help him kill someone once, just "to see what it was like"), and a friend who had BPD. I'm a healthy enough person to know that ending both of those sick friendships was a good idea, but uncomfortable that I drew people like that to me in the first place. Honestly, I sometimes miss the sociopath's friendship because he was both calm and creative, and seemed to be good at everything. Also, he read people so well it was almost like a parlor trick. The BPD friend was creative too, but so completely melodramatic that she wore me out. She lost friends all the time, and would then try to blame them for her own offensive and inappropriate behavior towards them. I stuck it out for longer than I should have because I felt sorry for her. I don't miss her at all.

by Anonymousreply 30108/09/2013

Who are these freaks posting about spell casting? Is this a joke?

by Anonymousreply 30909/14/2013

I was raised by an undiagnosed BPD. I am positive my mom had it and now that she's gone, I am able to deal with and process it more.

There isn't a person who knew her who didn't think something was "off" or "wrong". Irrational reactions to every day nuances, angry outbursts that included throwing things that could really hurt someone, going OFF on a defenseless server who didn't get the order right, slapping a man at a gathering who said Madonna was hot (very, very true story - she was easily angered by men's attraction to other women for some reason).

It has only been recently that I understood that I was the person in her life who she clung to - my dad was that person for over 20 years until they divorced and then it was me. She was very deft at manipulating me to stay with her, even after she disowned me twice for making decisions she viewed as black/white: if you talk to your dad, you're against me. Goodbye.

It was torture being disowned.

I'm envious of the people here who had the strength to walk away and cut off ties. I never could and I seem to have her patten of behavior on my mind a lot so as to make sure I don't repeat it.

I don't think I have it but a lifelong battle with depression came with the role of enabler.

I just felt so guilty leaving her alone in the world. The bad times were bad (emotionally, she never yelled or hit) but when those shining flickers of love, openness or acceptance came around, I relished them.

I know it sounds terribly pathetic and I feel pathetic writing it. But she's gone now and while I miss her, it is a tremendous relief to be free from it.

For the first year after her death, I didn't know how to live without her stern and judgement, it just had always been there since I can remember being alive.

by Anonymousreply 31009/15/2013

R310 I'm sorry for what you went through and wish you well.

What is up with the spellcaster crap?! God I hate the Internet sometimes.

by Anonymousreply 31109/15/2013

Is BPD always related to childhood sexual abuse? I remember reading that in the 90s, but is thar still considered true?

A family friend's 18 year old daughter was recently given this diagnosis. She has always been volatile, hypersensitive, weirdly monomaniacal - as in, dominating conversations,only wanting to talk about her musical obsessions and not listening to others at all. Very angry and tearful. Not just as an adolescent, but even when a young child.

She loathes her father, our family friend. I know him to be a major pot head and self absorbed. But sometimes I wonder if he abused her.

by Anonymousreply 31209/15/2013

I bumped this so out DL BPD's could investigate Schema Therapy, but somebody is way too committed to spellcaster stuff.

by Anonymousreply 31309/15/2013

I'm not sure about abuse but I always suspected something had happened to her.

This was half-confirmed recently by a family member, who had been disowned years ago, said "it wasn't her fault".

I don't want to know what happened to her, honestly. It doesn't change the outcome of her life and doesn't change those she was close to. Every single relationship in her life was complicated and difficult. There were a few people who escaped her wrath (and I was always curious why they did avoid it - after reading here, I suspect it's because they provided something she needed to continue to function as she did). Many of those who escaped the wrath do bring up stories about a time that her behavior shocked them even though it wasn't directed at them.

I also wouldn't be surprised if she was just damaged with no history of abuse there. It's a really strange disease.

by Anonymousreply 31409/15/2013

I know someone who has this disorder and she's working her divorce through life quotes on Pinterest and joined a born again Christian church. Her FB publicly gives intimate details about her husband dumping her for someone more stable with hobbies and interests. Why she can't see that she's humiliating herself while trying to spite her ex is just giving her former friends that "schadenfrueden" feeling and collecting on bets? She avoided a hospital stay THIS time but all bets are still on that she'll end up there after a faux suicide attempt or something. She weirdly goes from conceit to self loathing within mere minutes. Whenever I come down on myself, I think of this one and feel suddenly fortunate and blessed. BPD, what a bitch...

by Anonymousreply 31509/16/2013

Is there a correlation between BPD and BDF?

by Anonymousreply 31709/23/2013

Wastebasket diagnosis. Anyone who's overly emotional gets slapped with the BPD label.

by Anonymousreply 31809/23/2013

We need something to diagnose the workplace fraus that goad us into fights with their anger only to start crying and make it seem like the fight is our fault, like we beat them or something.

by Anonymousreply 32009/25/2013

Stick to Freud

by Anonymousreply 32109/25/2013

Egad, I hate OP -- enough to find myself saying things like "egad."

The presumptuousness of suggesting that he knows what all of us understand or do not understand is simply astounding. Arrogant twit. I become annoyed every time I see the title of the thread.

by Anonymousreply 32209/25/2013

I still think it's your minions posting and not you.

by Anonymousreply 32309/25/2013

A gigantic, overflowing volcano of hot garbage, lies, filth, worms, feces, and puke. That's what not only this thread is, but also the "we're so empathetic" chants can be described as.

BPD have no empathy. End of story. They have the imitation of empathy, which, in all honesty, is just self-loathing, guilt, and the inclination to beat oneself up.

Even as a BPD reads the above, they will feel emotion instead of looking at it objectively. All the people you've screwed over, you twist into two parts: "They weren't paying attention to me!" or "They were taking advantage of me!"

But really, it was YOU being hot and cold; being an emotionally retarded child whose early sexual/emotional abuse has truly F-ed you the F up.

When a BPD claims to be too sensitive or too caring or other such nonsense, they are LYING and trying to make themselves feel better. Their guilt isn't about how they've hurt others, it's about how hurting others makes them feel. Big difference. They hate the feeling rather than feel remorse for the act.

This is an absolute fact. Do not ever believe their silver-tongued lies and filth.

by Anonymousreply 32511/05/2013

Reread that R325. You really think there is a difference between feeling bad that you hurt someone and being concerned how you feel when you hurt someone? I doubt there is any real difference.

by Anonymousreply 32711/12/2013

Do these moronic spell casters ie con artists, advertise on this thread because they know that people with BPD are easily manipulated?

Why the fuck else would they be here?

The average data lounger isn't going to be interested in their "help"

Do they go around the internet seeking out the emotionally fucked up?

by Anonymousreply 33611/30/2013

They're either looking for BPD twats to victimize or they've been sent our way by some BPD bitch as punishment for discussing them without pulling any punches.

Re:[quote]You really think there is a difference between feeling bad that you hurt someone and being concerned how you feel when you hurt someone?

I'm not the original poster you're addressing but yes, there is a HUGE difference. One shows insight, empathy and genuine emotion. The other is self-serving self pity.

[quote]I doubt there is any real difference.

You are emotionally retarded, R327. Do the world a favor and stay away from other people as much as you can. t

by Anonymousreply 33711/30/2013

This description of BPD is spot on. I have it and am also bipolar. I love hard and hurt harder.

by Anonymousreply 34012/06/2013

[quote]This description of BPD is spot on. I have it and am also bipolar.

For your own sake, and that of anyone unfortunate enough to encounter you, please kill yourself.

by Anonymousreply 34312/12/2013

Correct they prey on your pity and sympathy seeing an ex user friend pull this with unsuspecting people at work and on FB

by Anonymousreply 34512/12/2013

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by Anonymousreply 34912/16/2013

But sometimes, Ted, like you, they are born that way.

by Anonymousreply 35012/16/2013

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by Anonymousreply 35112/16/2013

The orphanage probably cared for him better than she could, and there is no evidence the grandfather was mean and violent towards Ted (as opposed to the women, who didn't go around murdering anyone). He was 4 when his mother remarried and his family life was reasonably happy although he disdained his stepfather apparently from the start. Really you can't get the truth of him from him, but only from others, because he told different stories to different people.

by Anonymousreply 35212/16/2013

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by Anonymousreply 35312/16/2013

No but they are born people and sometimes that is enough.

by Anonymousreply 35412/16/2013

[quote] Imagine a man who come to you with love in his eyes for you and then he come kneeling down, proposing marriage to you and then when you both looked at each other eye ball to eyeball, then you see strong bond of love between you both and you agree to be his love and after the marriage you both enjoy yourself as husband and wife with a strong bond of love and then the first fruit of your union as husband and wife come and you both are happy over it because now he is a father and you are a mother but all of a sudden at work, a young sexy girl is brought as secretary to work for your husband and in the course of her service to him at work, she seduces him to herself thereby gaining control over him and when he comes home, he don't eat your food and he disregards you and show no love and time for the kid and then a fateful day comes by and he tells you, he is no longer interested in you that he don't love you and the kid no longer that he is filing a divorce and then he actually do it and later you get to know that he is having an affair with his secretary and they have relocated to another apartment and everytime you think about him because you love him and wish he could come back and then everyday you pray but he isn't showing remorse or coming back and you don't want the kid to know about it, sometimes when the kid want to ask about daddy, you tell him he is away to Canada working that he would come back to visit and then you hear and read of some psychics and spell-casters who could bring him back but you tried the ones you thought could help you but the situation is worst and he isn't coming back, then you think all hope is lost and your kid become more inquisitive about his dad and you're wanting to tell him the truth but then a friend of yours in another county come to visit you and see how depressed you are and tells you and show you prove how he got his boyfriend back through one powerful spell lord and tells you means on how to reach him and you contact the spell lord and then this powerful man tells you what you must do and then you do exactly as he tells you and then he tells you your desire will manifest in 3 days time and surprisingly, according to the prophesy, he calls you that he is so much sorry that i should forgive him and his son also forgive him and that he is coming home and in the cool evening what you longed for that your love come back to you loving you and never again leave you happens and then you all are again reunited with more love and he write a petition against his secretary and she is sacked and then you both are happy, spending time for your son.

This is all one sentence!

James Joyce is posting on DL from BEYOND THE GRAVE!

by Anonymousreply 35512/16/2013

Hello to every one out here, am here to share the unexpected miracle that happened to me three days ago, My name is James mack i live in United State,and I`m happily married to a lovely and caring wife,with two kids A very big problem occurred in my family seven months ago,between me and my wife so terrible that she took the case to court for a divorce she said that she never wanted to stay with me again,and that she did not love me anymore So she packed out of my house and made me and my children passed through severe pain. I tried all my possible means to get her back,after much begging,but all to no avail and she confirmed it that she has made her decision,and she never wanted to see me again. So on one evening,as i was coming back from work,i met an old friend of mine who asked of my wife So i explained every thing to her,so she told me that the only way i can get my wife back,is to visit a spell caster,because it has really worked for her too So i never believed in spell,but i had no other choice,than to follow her advice. Then she gave me the email address of the spell caster whom she visited.(bravespellcaster@gmail.com}, So the next morning,i sent a mail to the address she gave to me,and the spell caster assured me that i will get my wife back the next day what an amazing statement!! I never believed,so he spoke with me,and told me everything that i need to do. Then the next morning, So surprisingly, my wife who did not call me for the past seven {7}months,gave me a call to inform me that she was coming back So Amazing!! So that was how she came back that same day,with lots of love and joy,and she apologized for her mistake,and for the pain she caused me and my children. Then from that day,our relationship was now stronger than how it were before,by the help of a spell caster . So, i will advice you out there to kindly visit the same website {bravespellcaster@gmail.com},i f you are in any condition like this,or you have any problem related to "bringing your ex back. So thanks to Dr Brave for bringing back my wife,and brought great joy to my family once again.(bravespellcaster@gmail.com}, Thanks..

by Anonymousreply 35712/17/2013

Hello to every one out here, am here to share the unexpected miracle that happened to me three days ago, My name is James mack i live in United State,and I`m happily married to a lovely and caring wife,with two kids A very big problem occurred in my family seven months ago,between me and my wife so terrible that she took the case to court for a divorce she said that she never wanted to stay with me again,and that she did not love me anymore So she packed out of my house and made me and my children passed through severe pain. I tried all my possible means to get her back,after much begging,but all to no avail and she confirmed it that she has made her decision,and she never wanted to see me again. So on one evening,as i was coming back from work,i met an old friend of mine who asked of my wife So i explained every thing to her,so she told me that the only way i can get my wife back,is to visit a spell caster,because it has really worked for her too So i never believed in spell,but i had no other choice,than to follow her advice. Then she gave me the email address of the spell caster whom she visited.(bravespellcaster@gmail.com}, So the next morning,i sent a mail to the address she gave to me,and the spell caster assured me that i will get my wife back the next day what an amazing statement!! I never believed,so he spoke with me,and told me everything that i need to do. Then the next morning, So surprisingly, my wife who did not call me for the past seven {7}months,gave me a call to inform me that she was coming back So Amazing!! So that was how she came back that same day,with lots of love and joy,and she apologized for her mistake,and for the pain she caused me and my children. Then from that day,our relationship was now stronger than how it were before,by the help of a spell caster . So, i will advice you out there to kindly visit the same website {bravespellcaster@gmail.com},i f you are in any condition like this,or you have any problem related to "bringing your ex back. So thanks to Dr Brave for bringing back my wife,and brought great joy to my family once again.(bravespellcaster@gmail.com}, Thanks..

by Anonymousreply 35812/17/2013

A borderline scumbag who thinks we are big ol' meanies called in the spam. Typical.

by Anonymousreply 35912/17/2013

The "My friend/co-worker/boyfriend/ex is a borderline" posters on here are abso-fuckin-lutely nuts.

Holy shit.

by Anonymousreply 36012/17/2013

Is that how you justify being a psycho nasty asshole to anyone unlucky enough to wander into your life R363?

BPD's are always whining that nothing is their fault, that they are in pain and can't help what they do. But that is a load of self pitying crap as far as I am concerned.

We all have pain, you aren't unique. The only difference is is that the rest of us don't choose to use that pain to be manipulative and attention seeking.

by Anonymousreply 36412/20/2013

I don't know if I believe that a constant sense of attack breeds thoughtlessness towards others. I've been in situations where I was attacked all the time and still managed to be nice.

by Anonymousreply 36712/21/2013

Everyone posting here sounds like a certified nut. Lordy.

by Anonymousreply 36912/21/2013

Webmaster, can you please just delete this thread?

by Anonymousreply 37212/23/2013

The

R364 true

by Anonymousreply 37312/24/2013

Esteemed doctors, would you posit that there is a direct correlation between BPD and WTF?

by Anonymousreply 37412/24/2013

OP, does that old lady in the Med-Alert TV commercial suffer with BPD? She buzzed for the Med-Alert agent. When the agent asks if she should send an ambulance the old lady says "oh, I don't want to be a bother." Instead she suggests that the agent call her friend Julie... and we all know what a cunt Julie is.

Is this classic BPD?

by Anonymousreply 37512/24/2013

no, that's histrionic

by Anonymousreply 37612/24/2013

What a bizarre thread--though there are some excellent posts mixed in.

But it reminded me why I have no contact with my BP relative. Enough time goes by and you sort of forget just how bad it was. Because it's really nuts and unbelievable how bad it can be.

So, thanks--cuz I occasionally get family pressure to reconnect, but I'm not going back.

by Anonymousreply 38112/26/2013

They fear being abandoned b/c of their upbringing. Unstable. The BPD people I've known have only been passably attractive but never knock-outs. They can't come to grips with not being stunning and there you have their unstable sense of self.

by Anonymousreply 38312/26/2013

What does looks have to do with it?

by Anonymousreply 38412/26/2013

'Too sensitive' - yes, absolutely. But empathy they totally lack. They feel like they're under attack all the time - all their sh!t is about them 'defending themselves' and they really, really believe it. That 'Amy's Bakery' chick is a perfect example.

by Anonymousreply 38512/26/2013

#385 wrote: 'Too sensitive' - yes, absolutely. But empathy they totally lack. They feel like they're under attack all the time - all their sh!t is about them 'defending themselves' and they really, really believe it. That 'Amy's Bakery' chick is a perfect example."

SO TRUE. Here again, I see the stunning similarity of Nons' and therapists' encounters with BPDs. Though some are high functioning, some low, most average, a few stunning, all share the traits you mentioned. Sensitive indeed. Feeling under attack, in the case of my ex, it was so sad, because those whom she felt or imagined were attacking her, were probably jealous, and had far less mental horsepower, or power of any type. But that didn't matter. She could have about anything she wanted, due to natural gifts, and her strong will, but was often hamstrung by her fear of others undercutting her...she didn't understand her own capabilities. No amount of love and support could really help that, because like with other BPDs, she slipped back into irrational fear, insecurity and the subtle paranoia that accompanied it on a daily to momentary basis. Always getting sucked back into that irrational place. And from THAT place, came the need to defend, to lash out...she did indeed BELIEVE it. It was not just a cry for attention. She really was scared and hurt. Really sensitive...TO HER OWN WOUNDS. But, this did NOT extend to me, her lover of six years. If it was about her, then it was about her. If it was about ME, it usually ended up being about her, also. Sounds ridiculous, and it was. Once, early in our relationship, she had abdominal pain. I put down my work and was at the hospital like a rocket, to be with her. I Spent hours gladly waiting there, to be present and help her. She ended up being fine, but I showed the type of love & care that would make good humorous scenes in a movie. After several years of being together, she once had to take me to the hospital. Later she told me I knew how much she loved me because she would go through taking me to the ER. See, the idea implied is that it hurt and scared HER to witness me being in danger. To her, the danger was HERS. Helping me was secondary. Her lover might be lost or hurt, so SHE was a victim. She resented me for it. Definitely, no empathy among BPDs.

by Anonymousreply 38712/27/2013

I strongly suspect this "diagnosis" is giving cover to plenty of people with poor impulse control and delusions of grandeur.

The behaviours described are in no way connected with sensitivity or empathy let alone an excess of either.

Most of the people who are labled BPD are manipulators who have found cover and self importance under the guise of legit medicine.

However, there is only anecdotal evidence that BPD even exists and the outlandish claims of deep empathy and sensitivity are absolute manipulative self aggrandizing bullshit.

Are BPD's never able to control their outbursts or their intense desire to manipulate based on the circumstances they are in?

Can they be charming when it suits them and a screaming banshee when that offers more manipulative control?

You bet. These people are in total control and not out of it for a second.

The people who enable them need to build up enough self esteem to get away.

by Anonymousreply 38812/27/2013

This thread is a mess. Maybe if we fill it up quickly the whole thing will die.

by Anonymousreply 39012/27/2013

If the spellcasters are so brilliant, why didn't they divine this is a gay board.

by Anonymousreply 39212/27/2013

All the info you'll read on the internet about BPDs being unable to control themselves and being "so caring it hurts" is mostly written by two types of people: those who've been conned into thinking that, and by sympathy-hogging BPDs themselves.

IT IS BS to keep you feeling sorry for them. Go to any BPD blog and try to talk about the people left dead, in jail, or with PTSD after trying to love a BPD. They (the BPDs on the blog/forum) will call you an a-hole for even DARING to talk about it, and they'll flip it into them being victims, not the actual victims being victims. Sound familiar?

It is all lies. All the advice to use SET, JADE, and other 'empathetic techniques' to soothe your BPD are tools invented to KEEP YOU HOOKED to them. It's an amazing masterpiece of deception of which Satan himself would be proud.

Go to a place like psycheforums and just sit back and objectively read the advice BPDs there give, or the rare honest confessions they make. THEY ENJOY AND DELIBERATELY **** PEOPLE OVER. THEY WILL LIE TO SEND YUOU TO JAIL. THEY WILL BREAK YOUR HEART UNTIL YOU COMMIT SUICIDE AND THEY WILL LAUGH ON YOUR GRAVE.

DO NOT. I REPEAT. DO NOT FALL FOR THEIR LIES ABOUT BEING CONFUSED LITTLE ANGELS. That's part of their sick little game.

THEY ARE SOCIOPATHS and very sick, diseased people. Their victim playing is SUPREME.

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by Anonymousreply 40102/19/2014

I've always suspected a loved one has BPD. After watching OP's video- yeah. Turn the volume off or you'll feel suicidal.

Yuck! BPDs are always attracted to me b/c I'm a giver.

I always thought this person had Aspergers and maybe they do but- the part about them being emotionally = to children, puts it all into perspective. The video sealed it.

I've already detached to avoid the dysfunctional drama. I'm grateful to be healthy but about to have a panic attack.

by Anonymousreply 40302/19/2014

[quote]Yuck! BPDs are always attracted to me b/c I'm a giver.

Nah, it's because you're an idiot-frau. Yuck!

by Anonymousreply 40603/24/2014

This is a thread that needs to be purged.

by Anonymousreply 40804/02/2014

And you, dear genius, are here to clarify and bless us all with your knowledge. Patronizing meet condescending.

by Anonymousreply 41305/01/2014

R414, as even a moron could tell at a glance, this is not a "help and support" website.

Go away and take your fucked up Borderline Personality Disorder with you.

TIA!

by Anonymousreply 41605/05/2014

Having been raised by a NPD and/or borderline ..often the best one can do is get out and stay out. Agree with [416]. Basically, they will take you down with them. Very complex to have family and/or intimate relationships. Leave them the fuck alone. You will not better them with kindness and understanding. And you will be worse for the wear.

by Anonymousreply 41705/05/2014

This us just a spam thread now. Why hasn't it been deleted?

by Anonymousreply 42206/21/2014

There's an argument to be made that 'Borderlines' are just feminine sociopaths, as 'Narcissists' are just masculine ones.

by Anonymousreply 42306/21/2014

// Whatever //

by Anonymousreply 43512/05/2014

I am so fucking sick of seeing this thread title. I didn't know it was all spam posts now. There's two good reasons right there to delete it.

Webmaster, HELLO!

by Anonymousreply 43612/06/2014

Spam trainwreck. Lol that its the borderline thread.

by Anonymousreply 43812/10/2014

Miss Faith, you and your "friends" are cunts.

You ruined a good thread with your spam-a-lam-a-ding-dong.

by Anonymousreply 44012/15/2014

DR ALAO: it is time for you to kill yourself now. The feds are soon to be at your door. All is lost.

by Anonymousreply 44112/15/2014

BPD sufferers are highly manipulative, so it does not surprise me the OP would want to spin this to make herself look sympathetic.

by Anonymousreply 44212/15/2014

I am Miss Lucy Hollywood!

by Anonymousreply 44312/15/2014

all of this "spell caster" garbage is a bunch of bull. It sounds like everyone was watching an episode of "Bewitched."

by Anonymousreply 44412/15/2014

It's still got a lot of useful info in it, if you skip the last couple of pages.

I suppose "psychics" think that anyone gullible / forgiving enough to hook up with a BPDer would be an easy touch.

by Anonymousreply 44512/15/2014

Can a symptom of bpd that is striking back at someone who she thinks has done her wrong, be breaking things on purpose, steals, spreads malicious gossip? I'm dealing with almost everything in this post (from the family perspective), and I don't know what I should do. I've been accused of some terrible things through the years and there is no convincing this person that I did not do the things I'm being accused of. Thanks!

by Anonymousreply 45003/10/2015

What a miss/fail!!! A person with BPD is NOT empathetic. The appear to be because they may seem to be affected or interested in other's emotions or circumstances. However, they filter everything in relation to how it affects them and their skewed views of self. Regardless of the so called "empathy", the filter is ALWAYS me, me, me and distorts the result. When a BPD shows "compassion" is because how it makes them feel and it has nothing to do with the other person; nothing! Even concern for others is purely another selfish act.

by Anonymousreply 45204/14/2015

Your quote "When the highly sensitive person grows up in a very non-validating and/or abusive environment, with a history of trauma, BPD can manifest.

In order for borderline personality to develop, an invalidating environment with and a highly sensitive person MUST BE present."

This is not true. Our experience: We have 3 children all raised in nothing but supportive nothing but validating household. 2 of our children are well established and very successful. The third as you have already guessed has a borderline personality. We seen signs of this personality in her since the time she was an infant. Even if experts have not figured it out yet this is a genetic problem they are born with that can get worse or better depending on the individual personality and their environment.

by Anonymousreply 45905/11/2015

R10 I bet you love making children cry

by Anonymousreply 46005/11/2015

I fell into a relationship with woman with BPD..the timeline & stages fit the medical literature exactly..first The Seducer, then The Clinger & then The Hater....what all these commentors need to understand, there are differences among BPDers...they all have a core personality they are born with, & can have co-existing personalities. For example, a very passive, loving person who developes BPD does have a 'good heart'..but a social path that developes can 'be evil'. I know her story, as she was molested then raped while getting treatment..since she never got the needed help she went through life..unfortunately, her kids could not help, but she had co-abused female cousin who she trusted, who I now found out, has actually munipulated her for her own issues, perpetuating her male abusive relationship. So now I am the demon because I 'called her out on it' & brought it to my girlfriend & kids attention. I tried so hard & told her I would never give up, but now I am putting my self in legal jeopardy, so I have to give up....so now the cycle continues, as now in her mind I abandoned her.

by Anonymousreply 46105/20/2015

What the hell has this thread become... Webmaster, delete please

by Anonymousreply 46405/21/2015

DOn't delete this thread. It has great info. Just delete the weird posts related to healings and spell castings.

by Anonymousreply 46505/21/2015

Just ignore witchiepoo

by Anonymousreply 46605/21/2015

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by Anonymousreply 46705/23/2015

Dr. Lee, I just wanted to thank you for all your help and efforts with my situation with Garrett. As you know, he broke up with me a few weeks ago and I found you and asked for your help. I had you cast a return my ex-boyfriend love spell on our behalf and I have to tell you that I am very pleased with the final outcome! I'm happy to say, we are back together again after a few short weeks apart! I was so miserable without him in my life. You have made me so happy! I am ordering a binding love spell right now via Ancientfatherandmothers@gmail.com to make sure we don't split up again. Thank you for all your hard work and attention to my serious problem http://ancientfathersandmothers.webs.com

by Anonymousreply 46805/23/2015

This thread (despite the trolling and spell bullshit) has been very helpful- and I never in a million years would have thought any of this would have ever applied to me. Just left my BPD girlfriend- and I feel free. That is the only way to describe it. I have deep empathy for her- and those suffering from this disorder, but I have to put myself- my family and friends first. Thank god that nightmare is over.

by Anonymousreply 46905/24/2015

Lmao was this thread a trip.

by Anonymousreply 47006/16/2015
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