R68 you might want to look into the accident Henry James had when he was a teenager: "In 1914, James published the second instalment of his autobiography, Notes of a Son and Brother. The book covers James's early manhood, including the period of the civil war, during which he was exempted from military service because of an "obscure hurt" he had suffered as a teenager. Notes is written in the dense prose of James's mature years, and although he recalls the incident over several pages, his reminiscences have proved opaque enough to result in nearly a century of lurid speculation as to what, exactly, his injury might have been.
Let's hear it from James himself. In 1861, aged 18, he was helping to put out a fire when he was the victim of an unfortunate accident:
Jammed into the acute angle between two high fences, where the rhythmic play of my arms, in tune with that of several other pairs, but at a dire disadvantage of position, induced a rural, a rusty, a quasi-extemporised old engine to work and a saving stream to flow, I had done myself, in face of a shabby conflagration, a horrid even if an obscure hurt; and what was interesting from the first was my not doubting in the least its duration - though what seemed equally clear was that I needn't as a matter of course adopt and appropriate it, so to speak, or place it for increase of interest on exhibition.
This "horrid" but "obscure" form of damage went on, as James explained, to alter his fate "for ever so long to come". In his commanding biography of the writer, Leon Edel led the way in trying to sift through the rumours that attended the story. Was it a back injury? Possibly; but on the evidence, unlikely. This unmentionable hurt was referred to by James as "most entirely personal", "extraordinarily intimate", "awkwardly intimate". What, asked Edel, "after all is the most odious, horrid, intimate, thing that can happen to a man? However much different men might have different answers, in the case of Henry James critics tended to see a relationship between the accident and his celibacy, his apparent avoidance of involvements with women and the absence of overt sexuality in his work.""