The best sex of my life was rape
Just a warning, this depicts a rape. Vividly.
This was 2015. I was in Argentina at a party, and I was pretty drunk so I went upstairs to the bedroom while there was a big party going on downstairs. Some guy came in and saw me and I wasn't really awake, I was coming down on some drugs, and he got into the bed and started feeling me up suddenly. I felt his cock touch my thigh and all of the sudden I just JOLTED awake and then he held me down, hard, on the bed, and started making out with me while holding me down. I struggled and struggled for a solid minute, I tried shouting but he kept making out with me. I remember biting his lip at one point and he just kept making out with me to keep me quiet. But then he entered me. I was so tight. It hurt, his penis was big. And then something just... came over me. I was on drugs, I think some kind of mix of ecstasy and amphetamines, and I was drunk, maybe that played a role. But after a few thrusts I just gave in and let him fuck me, and he was still holding me down so hard but he was so... just attractive and hairy and muscular and I was so attracted to him at the time. I remember feeling his muscles against me and feeling just overwhelmed by the raw masculine sexuality of it all. I wish I could say that I continued to struggle. I wish I could say that I kept trying to push him off and that I hated every second of it. Instead after a few thrusts, I just wrapped my arms and legs around him and let him fuck me. I started to moan slightly. I remember someone walked in briefly, they saw me under him moaning. I could have yelled help. I could have done anything right then, I could have said "PLEASE THIS MAN IS RAPING ME!!". Instead I just laid there and let him fuck me, and my rapist told the guy to shut the door and the guy said something like "haha nice" or some shit like that. And then my rapist went right back to it, harder than before. And something about the forcefulness and the raw muscular feral strength of it all just overwhelmed me and I came, hard, for a long time. Like, my thighs were shaking, I was moaning loudly. It was obvious to him that I was. And I saw the worst sight of him smiling at the sight of me having an orgasm, this horrible, confident smile which said "hell yeah, I am awesome". I remember my brain just went haywire at that moment, I was so angry I wanted to fucking kill him, and simultaneously my pleasure center was just exploding. Then he came, inside of me. He just lay on top of me afterwards for a bit, and he said "that was good, right?". I didn't even know what to say. I had bruises on my shoulder from him holding me down. My asshole was a tiny bit bloody. But he knew I came. He knew that I enjoyed it, a lot. I didn't respond to him, I think he knew that he had raped me, but some part of me thinks that maybe he wasn't even sure, but how could he not be? I was struggling for the first half. He fucking woke me up by rubbing his cock against me. He knew what he had done. He eventually just got up and got dressed and went downstairs to the party and I just laid there, astounded at what had happened, completely in shock and awe at it. He didn't use a condom. I got tested, of course. I never reported it to the police, I wasn't a native to the country and someone saw me literally moaning under him.
| by Anonymous | reply 39 | October 9, 2021 8:23 PM
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Its been 6 years and I hate it so much. I almost wish it was horrible sex, I wish he wasn't so attractive, I wish he was some fat greasy slob so that when I think about it I can just think universal hate for the event. Instead when I think about it, I get hard. I get horny. And this horrific guilt, this horrible feeling at me getting horny occurs. I hate the fact that nearly every single time I masturbate, the one thing that came make me cum is that event. I hate that every time I have really good sex, I ALWAYS think of that time. Not right now, but that's because I am on painkillers from my surgery (knee surgery, ugh) and its hard for me to get aroused. Maybe that is why I feel so confident to even write this right now.
| by Anonymous | reply 1 | July 14, 2021 5:06 AM
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I haven't told anyone in the world about what happened. I feel so ashamed. It is not just getting raped. If it was just that, I would tell people. The shame of enjoying it, the shame of moaning so much that it boosted my rapists ego. I wonder how that made him think "I can just rape guys until they enjoy it, hell yeah" and how many dudes he tried that on. I hate that the experience has ruined my sexuality and that every time I think about sex, that event lingers. I hate that my rape was the best orgasm I have ever had in my life. I hate it. I hate it i hate it i hate it.
| by Anonymous | reply 2 | July 14, 2021 5:06 AM
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If you enjoyed it, don't feel ashamed. You will ruin your life forever feeling ashamed for something that you enjoyed. Rape is always wrong, but shame is worse.
I'm extremely sorry you were raped though, even if you did enjoy it.
| by Anonymous | reply 3 | July 14, 2021 5:13 AM
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It wasn't your fault OP. You've got nothing to be ashamed about, regardless if you enjoyed it or not. The complete blame is on the guy who raped you.
| by Anonymous | reply 4 | July 14, 2021 5:15 AM
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OP, tell us about later, when he made you perform degrading dances and sing humiliating songs.
| by Anonymous | reply 5 | July 14, 2021 5:16 AM
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Dear Blueboy Reader's Forum,
I never dreamed I'd be writing to you, but you'll never guess what happened to me.
| by Anonymous | reply 6 | July 14, 2021 5:18 AM
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So a bottom got topped, what's the problem?
| by Anonymous | reply 7 | July 14, 2021 5:19 AM
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This reeks of tumblr slash fiction.
| by Anonymous | reply 10 | July 14, 2021 5:23 AM
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I was sexually assaulted in college and these guys were determined to make me shoot; I had a boner -- later learning it was a physiological reaction -- but I didn't come.
I was scared. That was probably why.
It wasn't anything I enjoyed because the whole time I thought there's only one way they can be sure I wouldn't talk and that would be to kill me; obviously, they didn't. But I didn't know that.
I was asked about it by college officials, but I knew it was going to come down to their word over mine. Some were on my side; some weren't. I felt everybody's agenda except my own.
I couldn't tell for sure how my family would react; would they blame me? Kick me out? Did I want to put my widowed mom through this?
Ironically, I ended up meeting other people, one of whom was really good to me after I moved away. So..something good came out of something horrible.
| by Anonymous | reply 12 | July 14, 2021 5:28 AM
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And your asshole was miraculously clean and he could get it into you without any lube, OP?
| by Anonymous | reply 13 | July 14, 2021 5:29 AM
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OP, 'm saving your post for my next Yelp review of a Wework location.
| by Anonymous | reply 14 | July 14, 2021 5:31 AM
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Shut up, Donald. Your rape fantasy bullshit has always been tiresome. It's why your mother kicked you out of the basement. Jesus!
| by Anonymous | reply 15 | July 14, 2021 5:40 AM
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I wish I could say that I kept trying to push him off and that I hated every second of it. Instead after a few thrusts, I just wrapped my arms and legs around him and let him fuck me. [quote]
Then it’s not really rape?
| by Anonymous | reply 16 | July 14, 2021 5:43 AM
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Goddamn fucking phone!!! Why won’t it let me post quotes??
| by Anonymous | reply 17 | July 14, 2021 5:44 AM
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[quote]R16 Goddamn fucking phone!!! Why won’t it let me post quotes??
Because your phone was apparently raped.
| by Anonymous | reply 19 | July 14, 2021 5:46 AM
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At least this EST had a consistent narrative, a controlling idea, and a character to root for (who isn't in love with the "rapist"?).
Kudos OP!
| by Anonymous | reply 21 | July 14, 2021 5:51 AM
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So, do you need a negative Covid test to go to Argentina? Asking for a friend.
| by Anonymous | reply 22 | July 14, 2021 5:52 AM
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Scarlett O'Hara said the same thing, OP. You're in good company
| by Anonymous | reply 23 | July 14, 2021 5:58 AM
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Just because a rape victim has an orgasm and ejaculates doesn't it mean it isn't rape. It's still rape.
| by Anonymous | reply 24 | July 14, 2021 6:02 AM
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Was he built like a shit brickhouse OP?
| by Anonymous | reply 25 | July 14, 2021 6:04 AM
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Lady…sings the blues. She’s got ‘em bad, she feels so sad….
| by Anonymous | reply 26 | July 14, 2021 6:07 AM
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Has anyone ever done a gay version of Extremities? I would cast Jim Parsons as the roommate who walks in with a cheesecake.
| by Anonymous | reply 28 | July 14, 2021 6:40 AM
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r16 he was high on drugs and passed out when the encounter started. It’s rape.
| by Anonymous | reply 29 | July 14, 2021 6:44 AM
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Was a bottle of poppers conveniently in your back pocket?
| by Anonymous | reply 30 | July 14, 2021 6:52 AM
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Op, that doesn't sound like rape rape to me.
| by Anonymous | reply 31 | July 14, 2021 7:09 AM
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I should've killed myself when he put it in me. At first, it wasn't all right. You know I lived sinlessly. We never slept in the same bed, but we never did it, we hadn't even met. And then, that night, I saw him looking down at me that way. I smelled the cheap local gasoline for hillbillies on his breath. Then he took me. He took me, with the stink of filthy moonshine on his breath, smiling like he was the champ and I liked it. I liked it! With all that dirty touching of his hands all over me.
And then I shot my load all over my chest.
Fin.
| by Anonymous | reply 32 | July 14, 2021 6:13 PM
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This never happened.
You chumps who are consoling the OP are just trying to confirm the OP's bias that rape is okay and/ or make commenters look bad.
Get some professional porn -- you don't need troll hacks like the OP.
| by Anonymous | reply 33 | July 14, 2021 6:17 PM
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Of course it never happened. No EST did. But I find it fun to play along. If you don’t, go away r33.
| by Anonymous | reply 34 | July 14, 2021 6:18 PM
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What if OP is confessing to a crime he committed...
| by Anonymous | reply 37 | July 14, 2021 6:58 PM
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OP was actually the one who was smiling.
| by Anonymous | reply 38 | July 15, 2021 3:09 AM
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Sorry you went through that, OP.
| by Anonymous | reply 39 | October 9, 2021 8:23 PM
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