Escapism

I daydream about my fantasy man. I know it's called "maladaptive daydreaming' but I love thinking and doting on him.

Alcohol. But not nearly as much as in the past. Typically, daydreaming during walking meditations through the woods works wonderfully well for me.

Camping. It's actually quite nice to disconnect from the tumult and sensory overload of 2020.

The Edge of Night on youtube

Weed and masturbation.

Chardonnay

Writing fiction about my old celebrity crush.

Weed and watching old MTV vidchecks on YouTube.

Last night I watched the Gem Shopping Network while blasting some disco, getting high, and cruising this Instagram:

Football

The Last Kingdom. On Netflix. 5 Seasons.

Kind of like Game of Thrones but set historically in England in the reign of King Alfred, with lots of battles, shiftlessness, and blood. And a very hot actor playing the lead. Total escapism.

Shirtlessness. Not shiftlessness. Although if that were a word, there'd be some of that too.

I don't understand what is so horrific about 2020.

Can you not deal with being by yourself for more than five minutes or what?

Food

Microdosing shrooms. Started in June and I swear to god it's changed my life and psyche and outlook.

R15, interesting.

I escape to the world of charming murder mysteries: Father Brown, Miss Fisher, Midsomer. Yes, a few people get murdered but everyone else has impeccable manners and a beautiful tea set.

Depression napping. 3 hours at a lie

Lucky you, R13, if that’s the worst that you’ve had to deal with in 2020.

I am by no means unique, R13, but in my case I have been hospitalised three times with Covid-19 and related illnesses in addition to losing my job in the middle of the year in an economy in which I have no reasonable expectation of another job before February 2021.

Pina Coladas. Getting caught in the rain.

I go for long drives in my Ford Escap(ism) ;-)

I smoke copious amounts of ganja and watch YouTube videos of towns and cities suffering from meth and heroin addiction outbreaks to remind myself that things could be much worse.

R7 Did that help you get over your celebrity crush or intensify it? I've been told to use my celebrity crush as a muse and write about my experience so I'm curious about your efforts.

Watching videos of campers and RV’s and imagining having my own.

Kirsten Dirksen videos

Virtual reality. Oculus Quest. Better than reality.

Weed. Music. Hiking. Coconut cream pie.

Gaming. I'm a nerd, and have always loved computer/video games, when I am playing something I get so focused on it that I don't think about anything else, whereas with most other activities I will usually be simultaneously worrying about something or have something on my mind. To a lesser extent working out is also pretty good for this as I am trying to focus on my body rather than my mind, but as gyms are closed at the moment I don't have that outlet and home workouts aren't the same for me.

DL is, actually - I'm spending half my day here!

R28 I’ve never really been into gaming, however my boyfriend wants to get a system. Can you recommend a gaming system to get? They all kinda seem the same to me. At least initially, I think we would want games that aren’t too complicated.

Sashaying thru DL threads, for sure...I love getting lost in Internet black holes about obscure topics or once famous celebs.

I've been making an effort to enjoy the pool while it's still warm enough, as well. I take a book and a drink and get some sun for an hour or two. Sometimes a neighbour's cat wanders over and keeps me company on the pool deck. It's very calming to take some deep breaths and enjoy the fresh air and sun.

UK guy, I have been gaming ALOT during this. I'm on Xbox. Add me if you want. My tag is Chakramtosser. Currently playing Sea of Thieves almost every night with a friend and Assasian's Creed, Syndicate.

Used to be wine. Unfortunately now, it is food. And poring over interiors and furniture, seeking out inspiration.

R23 My writing has intensified my celebrity crush...so much so that I’m trying to delve into his personal life. I find it all amusing and very intriguing.

Realtor.com. And weed.

Watching old movies and TV shows on DVD and pretending it's the 80s and I'm still a happy kid.

EZ. Old Forester Signature, 100 proof. Just since my sensimilla plants died, of covid-19, I suspect.

Straight guys feet on Twitter and IG

Porn, of course, Hot muscle daddy and twink porn.

Pron, yes, but its good to learn others are daydreaming, too. I was beginning to wonder if it wasn't odd behavior

R15 more details, please, on how microdosing shrooms has improved your life.

R34 Same here. I become more intrigued the more I delve into his personal life because he is so private. I started a thread awhile ago about trying to stop my infatuation; using him as a muse for my writing was a DL suggestion, however, I find myself delving deeper into his private life. The little bits and pieces I find only encourage me to dig further. Can you share more?

R41, happy to share. I've done Wellbutrin and mindfulness and all the shit you're supposed to do, and as the years went by, just felt emptier and more hollow despite outward appearances of "having it all." A neighbor turned me on to microdosing years ago and I never thought much of it, I just knew she seemed content and cool and very confident and comfortable in her own skin. She grows her own "penis envy" variety. When the pandemic hit, we were both home all day (still are) and started taking long morning walks with our dogs and she asked if I wanted to try some after I expressed to her my overall anxiety.

She gave me four mushrooms and told me "make these last about two weeks" and snipped off a little piece of one stem and I swallowed it. I took another about six hours later. I dose twice a day now at about .5 grams each. Everything feels easier and lighter and I'm way less anxious. I've taken Wellbutrin and several other antidepressants in the past and this is different--it works immediately and doesn't seem to wear off even when I go several days without. No side effects. I work out a lot more and the veil of depression floated away months ago. My work is focused. I laugh a lot more and enjoy people and places and hobbies again. I cook healthy, decadent meals for myself instead of microwaving tv dinners out of boredom and laziness. The boredom is gone, even when I'm just reading or watching the hummingbird feeder. Everything feels like it has purpose and connection.

I know I'm making it sound like a miracle medicine but it has truly changed my days.

R42 my celebrity crush was from when I was very young. He was very handsome and very popular in the 70s. I kept up with his career most of my life. During quarantine, I delve into his past life and that of his family and their trials and tribulations. He is gone now but still lives on in my heart.

My shrink would say I am doing this because it takes me back to a time when life was much simpler and secure. A time when everything was much more in control. That is apparently what I am seeking by doing this ...control and innocence, in a time where there is none. And by seeking information about my crush I don’t have to live in this reality...just for awhile!

My Kindle and mysteries with gay lead characters and stories.

OP, where is the pic your posted from? Whose back is that?

Omg, R22 I watch the same type of videos on Youtube.

DL, YouTube

R46 that is actor Kit Harington as Jon Snow in Game of Thrones.

Eightball of horse and Joni’s “Both Sides Now” orchestral version in vinyl.

Puzzles. Naps. YouTube. Booze. Jerking off to hot celebrities.

Oh and I’ve lost family members and two beloved pets this year R13 so enjoy your privileged bubble while it lasts.

I hate to admit it, but all the intrigue these past four real in the political realm has been sustaining to me. It's better than any scripted show because whether we like it or not, this is the stuff that can have an impact on ones life. Being well into middle age, I'm starting to wind down. I'm trying to whittle it all down, hoping to for self-reliance and creating some small pleasantries before I die.

(My previous plan was to Off myself once my mom and dad pass...but SHIT! it's fucking hard to purchase this specific model gun I want,)

I don't have any more escapism, nothing else amuses me, I'm dead inside.

Me as well.

Time to re-read some of my favorite murder mystery series: Hamish MacBeth, Miss Marple, Lord Peter Wimsey. The last envisioning Ian Carmichael, not that also-ran Edward Petherbridge.

Trying to figure out the best way to organize my sewing room, and then actually getting on with it.

R54, try shrooms. They will change your head.