I’m in my early 30’s, and I’ve really struggled with my sexual orientation. I’m attracted to men definitely, but can’t see myself dating or marrying another guy. I don’t love women either, but see a longer term relationship with a female as more viable than with a male.
I’ve had the strongest connections with white, jockish bi/straight curious guys in their 20’s and early 30’s. Upon further reflection, I could never date see myself dating these guys, and most of them would never want to date me either.
I find myself very infrequently attracted to gay men. I dated another gay guy several years and it never felt right. I hate gay voice, mannerisms, and “culture”.
Since I’ve always wanted biological kids, I figure I might as well have kids and marry a woman. Be upfront about everything and commit to being a good father to who provides for his children.
What do you guys think?