Armchair Psychologists, I need you

Insufferable.

This is not a good time to be a drama queen.

Take a few pills and get hauled to the ER, same as usual, and you won't be allowed any visitors and God knows what will be coughed on you.

This is honestly a huge chunk of my Facebook feed right now. So many insane alarmists looking at the worst case scenario of everything and that's all they post. I get it. This whole things sucks, but can we show a few shreds of positivity every now and then or at least an amusing meme or video?

Post some cat videos for him.

Easy solution - CALL THE GUY and deal with him directly.

I think the scenario is plausible. This guy is a bitter, manipulative, self-pitying troll -- he probably has a partner who stages suicide attempts every few months.

We’ve had no answer to calling him and so far the partner has not responded to our messages for updates other than to say he was not allowed for go in the ambulance which would be expected.

The guy who knows him best in the group said he was “eccentric” but that his posts this week were out of character and “weird”.

I feel bad for the guy if it’s all real but hope we’re not being duped. Life is so surreal right now!

Check in 1x a day until you get news. Otherwise concentrate on more important matters.

For me, it ebbs and flows. At times I feel, “This too, shall pass”. And certainly, it will. Yet I’m also pretty realistic as far as money goes. Maybe it’s because I’m entering my OCD stage of sobriety.

Between 4-5 years sober, I begin this thing where I become super organized, and try to make everything perfect. Don’t know why it happens, but it does.

First, I start off by obsessing on my health. I quit smoking, and then, I begin to obsess about the gym, my environment, my car, my home, money, etc. I become super conservative with cash. I save everything, don’t spend on anything I don’t need, and become super rigid in my routines.

All of this sounds positive for some, and much of it is. However, I eventually and inevitably fail at “perfection”, thus I set myself up for failure. Then I go into major self pity, start making reckless decisions, and relapse.

This time, I am highly aware of this “cycle”, and am attempting to not obsess on this shit. However, this virus has made me super anxious about my health and money, at a time where it is actually kinda good to be obsessed with those things. I obsess on these things for a few weeks, to a few months, and then...BOOM! Overnight, I become Little Miss Perfect.

I’m seriously concerned for our economy and our healthcare system. And I know that my OCD thing makes it worse, however I’m not unjustified in thinking this way at this time.

I know this shall eventually pass. My problem, and the problem everyone else is currently facing in America, is our leadership. This could not have ever shown up on the horizon, than right now.

Currently, our nation is being held hostage my an administration that probably believes this is still not as serious as experts believe and know. They deny science, they look down upon experience, expertise, education, facts, data, and on and on it goes.

This isn’t about Republicans bs. Democrats. This is about a virus that gives not one fuck about who voted for whom. And we will be paying a larger price than what we are seeing now. Thousands of people, dead, as of right now, in our country, because our leadership couldn’t be bothered with “science”.

We are not in a good place. We are on trouble, and there will be blood.