Traveling Argentina and the world as a professional basketball player, Sebastian Vega was living his childhood dream. But carrying a secret deep within was a nightmare.
“When I started to feel attracted to a man, I had a very bad time,” Vega recalled recently on the phone from his home in the southern city of Comodoro Rivadavia, Argentina.
“I felt shame, guilt, a lot of rejection, but at the same time the desire to be with someone,” Vega told the Thomson Reuters Foundation.
That all changed last week when Vega posted a letter on social media coming out to his fans - the first openly gay professional basketball player in Argentina’s history.
“I was really scared, but the fear didn’t paralyze me,” said 31-year-old Vega. “I felt truly free: it had been a long time since I’d walked without such a heavy weight on my shoulders.”
Argentina has made significant progress on LGBT+ rights in recent years, in 2010 becoming the first country in Latin America to let gay and lesbian couples marry and adopt children.
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But despite this, in a country where machismo is common and gender roles are strictly enforced, homophobia persists.
Vega grew up in Gualeguaychu, about 125 miles (200 km) north of Buenos Aires, and said it was tough for some relatives to accept his sexuality at first, particularly his father.
“As parents, their greatest fear was that you might suffer ... because of your sexual orientation,” he said.
And while Argentine society has evolved to some extent on gay rights, sport remains particularly homophobic.
During the 2018 World Cup in Russia, football’s governing organization FIFA fined the Argentine side $105,000 for homophobic chanting and violence.
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The country was fined for homophobia five times during World Cup qualifiers.
Such attitudes have made Vega’s revelation particularly remarkable, garnering global headlines proclaiming the star was helping “break the taboo of homosexuality” in Argentine sport.
But it also made coming out all the more challenging: the basketball star recalls fellow players regularly using homophobic slurs, on and off the court.
“Unfortunately, (homosexuality in sport) is still a taboo topic,” said Vega. “It’s very difficult to say you’re gay...you have to be masculine to not be (seen as) less than.”
Vega had few role models to emulate: despite progress on gay rights worldwide, just a handful of professional athletes have come out as LGBT+ in recent years, including U.S. swimmer Abrahm DeVine and the British Olympic gold-winning boxer Nicola Adams.
In Argentina, footballer Nicolas Fernandez and volleyball’s Facundo Imhoff are among the few to have come out as gay.