Elisabeth Hasselbeck, 41, holds nothing back when recounting her dismissal from ABC's morning program, which she joined in 2003. She writes that in March 2013 things "had begun to feel unusual," citing a number of guest hosts trickling through.
Hasselbeck writes that she was visited in her office one day by the producer of "The View" and an ABC exec who informed her that her contract would not be renewed and who explained they were "going in a less political direction." Hasselbeck was a conservative voice on the show and was rocked by the news.
"I could not breathe — literally, could not breathe," she shared, revealing she "asked permission" to retrieve her inhaler. "I was bent over — shock, asthma and betrayal all stealing my wind."
"'Was there something I could have done differently?'" she asked. "'Can I do something differently now? If you would just tell me, I would work on that — and make it better ... I kept asking, trying to figure out how to get it back, trying to get it all back."
She said she expressed appreciation for her time on the show and asked "Why?"
Hasselbeck writes that she was told there wasn't anything she could've done. Still, in the moment, she grappled with the news. "'I have come here and had babies and shared my heart,'" she told the two men. "'I have done my work, and I just don't understand. Why did you not tell me there was something I could have done better, so I could have done that?' Blank stares met those anguished words."
According to Hasselbeck, she spent approximately 90 minutes "just sobbing." "Feeling a dose of betrayal and a whopper of confusion, I felt like the walls of the building were folding in on me."
Six years later, Hasselbeck writes she was invited to return to the program as a co-host, which she turned down, explaining God gave her "the freedom to let go" of that opportunity.
In addition to that terrible day, Hasselbeck recounts moments of her friendships with her former "View" cohorts. Barbara Walters:
Per Hasselbeck, the legendary journalist "fought to get approved" a six-week maternity leave every time Hasselbeck had one of her three children.
Walters was also in her corner when she was reaching out to Roger Ailes, the former chairman and CEO of Fox News, about job opportunities. The former "20/20" host wrote Ailes, a gesture that "meant the world" to Hasselbeck, who hosted "Fox & Friends" immediately following her time on "The View," from 2013 to 2015.
Hasselbeck has love for the comedian, who recently made her return after battling pneumonia and sepsis. Though the author admits she and Goldberg began "on the wrong foot," she says the two are "forever friends."
"Whoopi and I each think the other one is downright crazy when it comes to our stance on any given issue," writes Hasselbeck. "And we love each other for who the other is instead of hating each other for what we each stand for."