Parts form her Oprah interview, after Jacko death
O: Where were you when you first heard, where were you?
L: I was in England and I don’t know why but it was the strangest day of my life. I was crying all day.
O: For what reason?
L: I don’t know and I don’t normally do that. I was trying to work and I came home and I was literally cutting my food eating my dinner crying and I wanted to go upstairs and go upstairs and watch something mindless on TV and stop crying. I looked at my husband and said “I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I just can’t stop” and then an hour later the call came and I heard.
O: You heard, who told you?
L: It was a friend of mine who just… Actually, I got streaming texts, “Are you okay? Are you okay? What’s happening” Actually John Travolta was one of the first texts I got, “Are you alright?” And I said, “What’s happening? Is this actually happening?” It was still unclear, you know.
O: And your reaction, your first reaction?
L: Real honest to goodness shock. Not even tears, just floored, I was honestly floored.
O: Was it the kind of marriage where a lot of things went unsaid or unspoken or did you feel a sense of intimacy and connection, that you could ask him anything?
L: I honestly can tell you that it was in every sense a normal marriage and everything was spoken. In the middle of the night, if he needed to wake up and tell me, bounce something off me, and wake me up and wanna talk… if there was trouble…
O: Did you feel like you were in many ways a nurturer or caretaker for him?
L: Very much. And I really loved that role and I loved taking care of him. It was the highest point of my life, one of the very highest points of my life.