CO is as addicted and obsessed as the fantards she sanctimoniously disdains. Here's one of her deleted posts admitting how fucked up it is and that she's done (but, of course, she's back doing all the same BS):
[quote]When the Veil Lifts–Again (1/2/17)
[quote]In early April of 2015 a veil clouding my vision and heart lifted. One tweet too many happened on Gerry Braiden’s timeline and suddenly I was over the ship.
[quote]I remember when I finally realized I was free of it. For me it had been an exciting but painful roller coaster ride and although when I initially found out that the ship wasn’t real I felt some pain, a few hours later I felt the veil lift and I was suddenly much lighter.
[quote]And it felt great!
[quote]Part of why I have debunked some of the misinformation from the Extremers’ camp was to help other people who wanted to disembark from the ship to achieve that similar feeling.
[quote]But I didn’t realize there was a second “veil” that needed lifting.
[quote]Until it lifted a couple of hours ago.
[quote]Let’s face it part of why we all care about the Outlander co-stars is we have an infatuation with one or both. I think for me my celebrity “crush” was always with Sam. So even though the need for the ship had passed away for me back in April 2015 and the Sam Infatuation had died down a lot, it was still there. Consequently, I would often join my fellow Outlander fans in squeeing in delight when I would see him in photographs or interviews or the show.
[quote]I didn’t fully realize how much of my need to protect him and the women he cared about (such as MM) stemmed from that small remaining infatuation but apparently it did.
[quote]Going through the ringer in the last couple of days something happened to the infatuation. It was suddenly gone–and a second “veil” lifted.
[quote]All of a sudden I realize I have zippo need to protect him or the women he is close to like MM or Abbie. Oh, that doesn’t mean I won’t join with my fellow Outlander fans in decrying the bashing or harassment that happens against probable SOs or against Sam. But the need to protect? To really speak up? Suddenly it is gone.
[quote]And that feels great!
[quote]I do care for the people who are stuck on the ship to nowhere and I will from time to time debunk some silly theory being generated by the Extremers that keeps people shipping way past their expiration date.
[quote]But I also don’t have a need anymore to really work very hard to help them disembark.
[quote]Maybe it is because I have worked so hard for about 18 months trying to help people find their way to dry land, with some rewarding results but often with disappointment that I sort of don’t care that much anymore about that either.
[quote]I have more than enough posts on my blog that debunk the basic things that most shippers get wrong, like understanding how BTS pictures happen or how shipper gif makers can slow down a gif and focus on a moment in time to create the illusion of grand love. Those tools will still be in the archives of this blog and in the sidebar for those who want to learn about them.
[quote]For those who want to understand some of their Sam/ Jamie infatuation or what might be happening in the conflict in the fandom and ways to get out of it, “My No Verra Sensible” series will remain for people to read.
[quote]But I really don’t have to keep rewriting what I have written long ago. The original posts are still there.
[quote]So in conclusion a second “veil” has lifted and I just don’t care that much anymore.
[quote]And you know it feels darn good.
[quote]I think this time it wills stick because the last of the Sam/ Jamie infatuation has evaporated.
[quote]And that’s a good thing.
[quote]And it feels great.