From Sir Larry : The Life of Laurence Olivier - 1981
WE didn't know it then," says a woman who was once a schoolmate of Vivien Leigh's, "but then how could we? It was there, though. Vivien would get along fine for a few weeks, a few months—be perfectly normal and friendly and involved in her activities. Then, suddenly, a complete turnaround. Sometimes it would last only a few hours, other times a day or more. But when it happened, we'd see a completely different girl—moody, silent, petulant, rude, often hysterical. None of us understood it, not even the schoolmistresses.
At first we credited it to longing for her family—they were living out in India, you know. But as we got to know her better, we realized that she was quite happy to be at school and didn't seem to miss her family at all.... Knowing what we know today about these things, one would definitely have to say that Vivien was a disturbed young girl, disturbed in some way that she had no control over. Had she been a child today, someone undoubtedly would have taken serious notice and sent her to a doctor to be examined. Who knows what he would have discovered—a chemical imbalance, a genetic defect?....
....Vivien Leigh first glimpsed Laurence Olivier during his stint as Tony Cavendish in Theatre Royal in the fall of 1934. "Viv was entranced by Larry," says one. "She was dying to meet him, but afraid to as well. It was then she realized once and for all that her marriage to Leigh had been a mistake, that she did not love Leigh. She was madly in love with Larry, even if it was only from afar. She used to tell me that she imagined being in bed with Larry instead of Leigh. She went to see Larry in Theatre Royal on eight or nine occasions, matinees, all by herself. Leigh would come home and ask what she'd done that day. She would invent a story about having done something else. Larry became an obsession with her."
Says another, "Vivien might well have become discouraged with her acting and given up the whole idea, as Leigh wanted her to do, had she not become aware of Olivier. But once she became aware of him, there was no stopping her. 'I must become an important actress so that when I meet him we will be equals,' she said once to me. 'Who knows, perhaps we'll marry one day and become the new Lunt and Fontanne. Wouldn't it be fantastic to be another Lunt and Fontanne, and then live in the very house Lynn Fontanne lived in?' That was just one of her fantasies about Olivier. She had many others. When she was reminded that Larry was already married, and to a famous actress, she shrugged it off. She started asking around, asking anyone who had the slightest knowledge of Larry and Jill Esmond, asking what their marriage was like, whether they were happy together, that sort of thing."