From her Vogue interview
On being 42:
âI donât feel older, and I donât feel like I look it, either, so I am just acting the same way I have always actedâ
On her long-time manager, Benny Medina:
When I ask Lopez if she thinks of him as her âgay husband,â she laughs and says, âYeah! I kinda do!â But then she gets more serious. âI just think of him as a real, creative soul mate. Heâs been the most consistent man in my life besides my dad. We love each other. People always ask about all the men I dated, and I am like, âYou know the Benny and Jennifer story? Thatâs the real story here.â â
On learning to love herself:
Suddenly, Lopez leans forward and shows me a ring she has on her finger. Someone gave it to her right after her divorce as a reminder to âlove myself first,â she says. Indeed, it is a diamond band that spells out: I LOVE ME. âThat may sound conceited, but itâs not. If you donât love yourself, you canât love anybody else. And I think as women we really forget that. All we want is to be happy, to feel secure, to feel understood. But you canât look for somebody else to do that for you. You think about it. . . . Oh, yeah, of course I care about myself. Of course I have good self-esteem. But when you really take a good look, you are not treating yourself like someone who does. And when you let people treat you in a way that you donât want to be treated, itâs not their fault. Itâs yours.â
Her manager, Medina, on her relationships:
âThe thing that I always sort of wished is that she would give herself time to just naturally meet someone,â he says, âinstead of having nearly obsessive guys pursue her. The ease with which that obsession becomes a relationship I think sometimes works against her ability to have a real meaningful relationship.â He goes on: âAnd she never half does anything. When she commits to anything in her work, her life, or her relationships, she is in it. Iâm not telling you anything I havenât told her. And I think to her detriment, the will of Jennifer is so strong that she believes that it can actually change who someone is and how they relate to her.â
On having a diva reputation and developing confidence:
âI had such a reputation,â she says of that time. âAnd it was sad because I felt like it so didnât represent who I really was.â
But as she herself will attest, in some ways the negativity came from within. âI think of myself on that day at the studio on Long Island and how insecure I was about my own talent. I just never really gave myself any credit. And because of that, nobody else did either. You mirror what the world mirrors to you.â She thanks Anthony for helping her believe in herself. âHe always told me what a beautiful voice I have. He was like, âItâs in there; you just gotta let it out. Itâs a confidence thing with you.â Then all of a sudden one day I was like, Iâm good at this!â Here she gets as worked up as I have ever seen her. âOh, man! People are not giving me jobs because they feel sorry for me! I am an actress. I am a singer. I am a performer. Thatâs what I do! Once I started giving myself a little credit, the whole world opened up.â
On her twins:
âThey do something to you where you want to do everything right for them,â she says. âAnd obviously no parent does everything right. Itâs this weird thing that happens where you are striving to be as good as you can be so that they turn out well. And that requires that you be a really great, evolved, aware person in every moment. Which is pretty awesome. But itâs also putting tremendous pressure on yourselfâwhich is why women feel so guilty!â
On doing American Idol:
âIâve been in the music business for years,â she says. âI know what it is to audition, to perform, to write a song and record and tour. I have something to say, and you never get to talk about stuff like that.â The big surprise has been to realize that people didnât know what a sweetheart she is. âSilly me, I thought everybody knew my personality already. And they didnât!â She laughs. âSo this is a great time because I feel like people really, finally know me.â