Some of us are Barry hanging on, and to different degrees, I might add. I haven’t been 100%. I’m not sure that anyone truly ever is, because the mind is a tricky and fascinating little thing, however, specifically mental illnesses require more urgent treatment than others.
Someone who I used to talk to via the phone, and whom I care for and think about often, is in a tough spot right now. There’s absolutely nothing I can do to help him, as I am not a psychiatrist or a mental health professional, & truth be told, I’m not experiencing what he is experiencing in regards to my mental health, but my challenges while easily addressed, are still pretty all consuming in the way that all of my emotional & financial resources are concentrated upon working towards addressing those challenges.
Anyhow, I came across some of his social media posts, & I am vacillating between concern and alarm It’s obvious that if what I saw isn’t some sort of creative art production and writing, meaning, if what I reviewed is authentic, he may possibly be experiencing a manic episode or a schizophrenic one. Perhaps both, if that’s a comorbidity that’s possible?
He is using vernacular which expresses highly disorganized thought processes, & is using a lot of the classic esoteric ramblings often stereotyped in Hollywood horror films, and in more modern references connected to present zeitgeist, there’s a lot of Q-Anon type-ish stuff about the darkness vs. the light, some pedophilia references, NSA Surveillance and hacking accusations, intellectual property theft, the afterlife, God, demons which are referenced in a specific terminology that I am deliberately choosing to not share here for purposes that I find to be practical & wise, an upcoming war, revenge on specific individuals and a group or groups whom he believes have either harmed him or betrayed him, accusations of property and assets theft, repeated warnings and threats of things to come for those who have abandoned him or harmed him, and an affect of him believing that he had a special or divine designation which entitles him to carry out the will of higher deities or supernatural entities, including a Godhead figure, in order to restore balance to what he views as an unbalanced and unjust world. He also has a series of drawings similar to those of an engineer, and of which particular specialization of engineering I cannot say, as I have zero engineering training. LOL.
He lost his long term spouse a few years back & this dovetailed right when COVID started and his mental health had been affected PROFOUNDLY. I suspect he may have attempted suicide, and I believe he had tried to fix his mental health problems with shrooms or acid. He also lost loved ones to COVID, and a dear friend in Afghanistan recently, according to what I was able to decipher in his scribbled or well typed notes. He even did an entire computer font generated magazine cut letter thing I’d like the freakin’ Zodiac used to do. But let me be clear: had he NOT done this, omit would not have lessened my concern one fucking bit.
