R140, I’ve often wondered how these cops live with themselves, and just like Trump, they constantly complain about others, exploit, abuse, and lie to others and themselves, about themselves, consistently.
I think that it just becomes a way of life after a while, and they are forced to continue in profound cognitive dissonance, because it would be pretty overwhelming if they genuinely recognized the error of their ways.
It becomes a life of keeping up appearances, rather than a life of humility, self examination, admitting one’s wrongdoings, asking for forgiveness, and making true attempts to become better people.
People who are drawn to this line of work and aren’t also people of true integrity, do this as a way of adding another piece to a puzzle they have created for themselves, which is a false narrative about being esteemed and respected by others, rather than holding others in esteem, and also respecting them.
They have to constantly blame others and play out their disrespect and aggressions towards others, because they lack the fundamental abilities required to be regular, average people, and cannot bear the thought of being anything less than respected and admired by OTHERS.
They get their entire self esteem or their vision of what self esteem means, from their peers, rather than from all people in their community.
They MUST be above someone, or their belief that they’re better than “others”, or else their entire false and incomplete persona projected on those whom they believe respect and value them, falls apart.
Their value and self worth is founded upon the misdeeds of others, rather than on consistent values that are sound, just, honorable and decent.
These are EXTREMELY fragile people, which is why they react so disproportionately and vehemently to anything or anyone that and whom, they perceive as threats to their carefully constructed presentation of themselves to themselves, and to the people whom they feel and choose, as worthy of respecting THEM.
As soon as anyone in their own circle of valued peers, whom they have chosen as those who should respect THEM, breaks from the script, they are immediately devalued and become enemies, rather than someone who has a different perspective or may disagree with them regarding pretty much anything.
This is why they never apologize for hurting others. Why should they apologize to someone who may no longer hold them in high regard?
Screwed up people. For sure. No question.