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If you could go back to HS what would you differently?

I'd study harder, get help with the subjects I had trouble with and do my best to actually graduate rather than drop out.

by Anonymousreply 18001/12/2021

Nothing, it was a necessary step to getting into college but a completely useless experience otherwise. I'm glad I didn't dedicate more energy towards it.

by Anonymousreply 107/15/2015

I'd propostion my hairy chested and furry armed English teacher, Leo McGuire.

by Anonymousreply 207/15/2015

I'd take more AP classes and actually try on the SATs so I could actually get into a good college.

by Anonymousreply 307/15/2015

Give blow jobs.

by Anonymousreply 407/15/2015

Let them put me in the genius group the way they wanted to.

by Anonymousreply 507/15/2015

Not be so afraid to be out

by Anonymousreply 607/15/2015

I would suck Bronson Johnson's big uncut dick in the boy's bathroom when he asked me to give him a blowjob.

by Anonymousreply 707/15/2015

me too !

by Anonymousreply 807/15/2015

I'd have stuck with Calculus and taken a second language, probably Latin.

by Anonymousreply 907/15/2015

Joined a sport - possibly track, swimming or water polo just to sneak peeks in the showers.

by Anonymousreply 1007/15/2015

Not be so afraid of what my peers thought of me. I turned out to be better and more successful than those losers.

by Anonymousreply 1107/15/2015

As your stereotypically fat, asthmatic, uncoordinated, unathletic junior high / high school boy, I spent all of those years doing my damnedest to conduct myself like a grown-up. Which, of course, meant being bullied almost every day, and being physically smacked around from time to time, by members of "the jock crowd."

Ergo, I would've brought a baseball bat to school every day and BEAT THE LIVING FUCK out of each and every one of those cunts.

And if that meant spending a year or two in a juvenile detention center? Well, in retrospect, TOTALLY worth it, to be able to maim those jag-offs for life.

by Anonymousreply 1207/15/2015

[quote] Bronson Johnson


by Anonymousreply 1307/15/2015

Suck more cock.

by Anonymousreply 1407/15/2015

I wouldn't change anything except household abuse, that way I could've had a home after 15 instead of the streets. I didn't care much for my high school. The teachers and staff were criminal ( dean was busted for selling coke and indicted by the feds in an auto theft ring). There was nothing in place, absolutely nothing, for students with promise or who were above-average. It was a school totally about football, which isn't unusual in the South, even still.

by Anonymousreply 1507/15/2015

Seriously, R13

Bronson Lane Johnson

He was so hot. Nice body, gorgeous face and beautiful dark skin!

by Anonymousreply 1607/15/2015

Enlisted in the Marines then went to college.

Played sports & said a big FU to those who made fun of me.

by Anonymousreply 1707/15/2015

I would drop out at 16 and get my GED and go to community college until I was 18. I had friends and an active social life, but in hindsight it was a total waste of time and energy. Having to navigate high school politics and trying to stay on the positive side of the popular spectrum was too stressful and traumatic. Also, I'd proposition ALL the guys I was interested in instead of just every other one.

by Anonymousreply 1807/15/2015

High school had its ups and downs but it was pretty good all things considered.

by Anonymousreply 1907/15/2015

I would have insisted on getting my own brokerage account to buy stocks and sell them before the dot com bust.

by Anonymousreply 2007/15/2015

I was something of a star student (and if I am being honest, I've never quite gotten over finishing as salutatorian, nearly 20 years ago). The mistake I made? I didn't challenge myself, and this went on in college (at Princeton). For example, I got nervous when my Physics grade was a B+. My reaction to that was to avoid science classes going forward, so I didn't take any AP science classes, and in college I fulfilled my science requirement with psychology classes that really shouldn't have counted toward a science requirement. But that was the pattern I followed. I basically stuck to classes in my comfort zone, and I think I missed out because of that. (On the flip side, the way college and grad school admissions work kind of encourages that risk-avoidant behavior).

by Anonymousreply 2107/15/2015

I would have skipped French and taken Spanish instead, it should be manditory.

by Anonymousreply 2207/15/2015

I'd suck SO much cock I'd be a national whore

by Anonymousreply 2307/15/2015

Tried to get gay sex. I didn't know how, where, who. 70's.

by Anonymousreply 2407/15/2015

English should have been mandAtory, too, r22.

by Anonymousreply 2507/15/2015

Same, r22. I didn’t know in my very white hometown that I would need it later on.

by Anonymousreply 2605/17/2020

I went to a small town high school that provided no challenge whatsoever, and I sailed to valedictorian making no effort at all. My school didn't even teach calculus. I arrived at my university to study nuclear engineering woefully unprepared. My high SAT scores got me placed into honors calculus, where the professor assumed all the students had taken calculus already, and the teach assistant really didn't speak english. My small town life hadn't prepared me to advocate for myself to get switched to a "regular" section, so I just flailed along. I never really "caught up" in four years of college - I graduated with a B average, but still never had the understanding of math that I should have had. It wasn't until I returned for a master's in physics several years later (primarily to prove to myself that I could be better than a B student) that I caught up to the level of understanding of which I was capable.

So, what would I do differently? I would beg my parents to let me apply for scholarships to go to a private high school in a nearby town. I think my career could have played out differently if I had a better high school curriculum and school personnel who could help teach me the discipline and self-advocacy I was missing.

by Anonymousreply 2705/17/2020

Killed myself when I was first suicidal.

It didn't get better.

by Anonymousreply 2805/17/2020

Not started drinking until I got to college. It was an easy way out and never learned to deal with life. Just hid from it.

by Anonymousreply 2905/17/2020

Studied German and more math. And, like r12, beaten the living shit out of everyone who bullied me. If I’d done that when it started instead of taking the high road as I was told to do, it might have stopped.

by Anonymousreply 3005/17/2020

I would apply to better colleges. And sadly...short some stock before a major disaster. Sorry.

by Anonymousreply 3105/17/2020

I am r5.

I would also have become better friends with Scott H. We had no idea each other was gay until we ran into each other at the Club Baths nine years after HS graduation and went home together. Best sex of my life.

by Anonymousreply 3205/17/2020

I would not go into complete shock when other boys flirted with me, especially the one who asked me feel on his muscles. I would also keep fewer cock blocking female friends!

by Anonymousreply 3305/17/2020

I would have more self-awareness and not be so insecure.

by Anonymousreply 3405/17/2020

i would have begged, begged and begged some more for my parents to do anything they could (sponsorship, grants, banks loans, etc) and allow me to be a live in student in my high schools years at a tennis academy in florida or somewhere and become a pro tennis player! and i wouldn't have looked back at my family either! one big "adios!" i'll see you in 4 years if that! ..

by Anonymousreply 3505/17/2020

I'd slap faces viciously and with impunity

by Anonymousreply 3605/17/2020

Not worry what others thought, and spend way more time calling out the assholes - bullying, racism, general meanness, etc.

by Anonymousreply 3705/17/2020

Another vote for having more confidence & caring less what others thought of me!

by Anonymousreply 3805/17/2020

I left when I was 17 and nothing could be less interesting than the prospect of going back, but if I had o do it again I would have left for university at 16 or 15.

by Anonymousreply 3905/17/2020

I was top of my class and so motivated back then. But I never had a chance to fool around with the guys. I wish I had.

by Anonymousreply 4005/17/2020

News for most of you: going to a "top" college doesn't change your life either; and for those who think they are just as smart as those people, well if you'd been smarter, you'd have realized that people don't differ in raw intelligence that much, even the homeless, something a lot of people who went to those college always knew and you would too if you are as smart as you say.

by Anonymousreply 4105/17/2020

I did the best I could but a lot of what goes down in HS is beyond your control. The happiest day of my life was when I graduated HS, I knew that from then on I had more control of my life and more freedom.

by Anonymousreply 4205/17/2020

I would really focus on my studies and really make an effort to get into a good university with a strong history department. And I would do my best to seduce Lamar, the gorgeous redneck who already had a fabulous mustache as a junior.

by Anonymousreply 4305/17/2020

I would have done Larry P. I had a huge crush on him. I didn't figure out he wanted it until years later. :-(

by Anonymousreply 4405/17/2020

I would have complete ignored the guys who bullied me as the assholes they were and the mostly nobodies they have now become.

by Anonymousreply 4505/17/2020

I would accept the swim coach's offer to join the team. and (completely unrelatedly) out the dyke teacher that tried to ruin my life before she tried to ruin my life.

by Anonymousreply 4605/17/2020

I would have left home sooner.

by Anonymousreply 4705/17/2020

I would have acted on the guys who were blatantly hitting on me. At the time I thought it was just my imagination but looking back I can see I was a complete idiot because I was terrified somebody would find out I was gay.

by Anonymousreply 4805/17/2020

I wish I would have socialized more outside of school, gone to more parties, concerts, etc. Instead I focused on academics too much and never really enjoyed a typical high school experience. I didn’t even have a car to drive. I went to a grand total of one house party and felt awkward the entire time and just wanted to leave.

I would also be more slutty. Those were prime whoring years I lost out on.

by Anonymousreply 4905/17/2020

i would have blown Jeff Preston when I had the chance and hooked up with the hot basketball player who invited me over to a party thent old me it was just going to be me and him. Hell I would have not been so scared of being called a fag and blown as many dudes as I could have.

by Anonymousreply 5005/17/2020

R50 why do you think you had a chance with Jeff?

by Anonymousreply 5105/17/2020

R51 had more than a chance had his dick in my hand.

by Anonymousreply 5205/17/2020

Wait R52. You had his dick in your hand and nothing happened? You don't need to turn in your gay card, you need to turn in your human card.

by Anonymousreply 5305/17/2020

So many regrets about missing out on dick decades ago, funny that should matter now. Myself, I would have bought Apple at $22 and Amazon at $30...

by Anonymousreply 5405/17/2020

I would have been out. Everybody in HS thought I was gay anyway.

by Anonymousreply 5505/17/2020

I would have ignored everyone and focused on studying and working out. Skipped all proms etc. and would have saved my having fun for university, which I would have attended.

And most importantly, I would never have come out.

by Anonymousreply 5605/17/2020

Not wasted time with losers, thinking that's all I deserved.

by Anonymousreply 5705/17/2020

Joe W. made a pass at me in the locker room and we were alone at the time. Missed opportunity that I think about every so often. Though I had a boyfriend in H.S. at the time, but some quality time with Joe would have been exciting. Is anyone 100% faithful when you're that age?

by Anonymousreply 5805/17/2020

Try all the drugs. I was a goody-two shoes and didn't. I regret that.

by Anonymousreply 5905/17/2020

I would have kicked Sam Reynolds square in the cods.

by Anonymousreply 6005/17/2020

I was tortured all the time in High School and didn't fight back. I go to the prom and end it CARRIE style.

by Anonymousreply 6105/17/2020

I would have been more open to Charif H (he was from Egypt) in the locker room after swim class.

Would have been nicer to all the loser-looking but hot punks who smoked out on the back steps, I was quite haughty in my interactions with them.

by Anonymousreply 6205/17/2020

r53 Dude I was froze - I didn't know if it was a trap or what..I laughed it off and he never moved past it.

by Anonymousreply 6305/18/2020

r53 let me elaborate - Jeff was a senior I was a junior. He was on the wrestling team, I was on the football team. Off-season we would work out in the gym at school. Jeff and I had a few classes together and were friends. I was at the gym late he had late practice. I am sitting in the locker room changing and in walks Jeff from the showers - it is just me and him in the locker room. He has a towel around his waist and an obvious big hard-on. It is just us two in there because it is late - he whips off his towel puts his leg up and says "look at this cock, you know you want to touch it!" stupid high school stuff - and without thinking I reached out and grabbed it thinking it would be funny like he would pull away and we would laugh. Nope. He stood there and for what seemed like a day I had his big dick (and it was big!) in my hand. He just looked at me with a goofy grin - a million thoughts raced through my head in a second. I wanted to open up and swallow it, I wanted to start jerking him off...I wanted to worship not just that dick but him..then I thought - this is a trap, he wants to me do something so he can tell everyone I am a fag..paranoia won, I sort of flicked his hard-on and said "get out of here with that gay shit" and he laughed. I chickened out and never had an opportunity like that again with him. If I could go back I would have sucked his dick til his head caved in.

by Anonymousreply 6405/18/2020

I would be popular. That way, I wouldn’t have had to spend the last 15 years having brunch and cocktails with my 40 closest friends in NYC and LA every weekend. I also wouldn’t be so sad because I can’t now. I guess I’ll just post a TikTok video since I can’t go back in time. 😩

by Anonymousreply 6505/18/2020

[quote]If you could go back to HS what would you differently?

Not go back to high school.

by Anonymousreply 6605/18/2020

In our school, the male gym teachers would let guys go to the weight room instead of participating in gym class. I went to the weight room one time and just stood around because it was better than having to participate in gym class. I wish I had gone to the weight room more and actually worked to develop my 98 pound weakling body.

by Anonymousreply 6705/18/2020

I would challenge my instructors more. Our whole class flunked a trig class and the next semester had to take it over again. Maybe they flunked is the teacher stunk.

by Anonymousreply 6805/18/2020


by Anonymousreply 6905/18/2020

Yeah, r64, you leave me no choice. A hot senior presented dick to you and implored you to do as you please, and you didn’t not behave in the way customary of a DLer. I have to confiscate your gay card. You can turn in your caftan and earrings at the front desk.

by Anonymousreply 7005/18/2020

I wish I had earned the grades to gain a scholarship so I wouldn’t have to pay back my college loan until I’m 55 (I calculated it, that’s when it’ll be paid if I continue not to miss a payment).

by Anonymousreply 7105/18/2020

[quote]You can turn in your caftan and earrings at the front desk.

Provide pics so the DL can decide who gets them.

by Anonymousreply 7205/18/2020

I would prep more seriously for the ACT. I got a 29 overall and should have tried again to get a 30.

I would spend less time in my head and watching TV and make physical fitness a priority.

I would not waste time mooning over my married band director and focused on available romantic options.

I would spend more time with my grandparents and ask more questions that will never be answered now that they are gone.

I would continue going to therapy and maybe get a handle on my self-loathing.

by Anonymousreply 7305/18/2020

I would have shit down R26's throat for reviving another thread from 2015.

by Anonymousreply 7405/18/2020

R42 Rings the truest for me so far in this wonderful thread.

by Anonymousreply 7505/18/2020

What is the big deal about reviving an old thread? It beats reading the 5000th post about whether Cher should have won the Academy Award!!!!!

by Anonymousreply 7605/18/2020

As the OP of this thread I take umbrage with R74's post!

by Anonymousreply 7705/18/2020

The past has passed....

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by Anonymousreply 7805/18/2020

r70 - it was 1994 I was not out and the worst rumor you could hear about anyone was that they were gay. Fear took over. If it was me today I would have said fuck it and sucked it, and hopefully got fucked too. If I knew then what I know now I would have tried to blow as many guys as I could have.

by Anonymousreply 7905/18/2020

I would have applied and hopefully gone to the magnet high school, Booker T. Washington, instead of the upper middle/upper class high school. I hated that place with a passion. I would have studied more and earned better grades to get into a college that I actually wanted to attend.

by Anonymousreply 8005/18/2020

[quote] I would have been out. Everybody in HS thought I was gay anyway.

I was called 'faggot' by the neighbor boys since I was 7. I didn't even know what it meant, but I knew from the tone of their voice, it wasn't a compliment. It took me another 9 years to figure out I was gay, I always wondered how they knew, or was it just a generic insult?

As for coming out in HS, as an adult I did some volunteer work for a gay teen helpline and whenever we got a call from a young queer person who wanted to come out, we made sure to ask them if they had a safe place to go in case things got ugly at home. My left-leaning parents were just fine with gay people until their own son told them he was gay (at 19). Then they told me to pack my things and get out.

For those of you who regret not coming out in HS, would that have been realistically possible?

by Anonymousreply 8105/18/2020

I would have saved enough of my part-time job earnings ($3.35 per hour) to invest in Microsoft stock when I graduated in 1986.

by Anonymousreply 8205/18/2020

Excellent point, R81.

I started smoking cigarettes in sophomore year. I quit when I was 25. If I could go back, I'd never start smoking and would continue playing sports.

by Anonymousreply 8305/18/2020

I had access to porn (pre internet) and my neighbor used to come over to watch it which almost always ended with me blowing him. I'm not sure why I didn't try that with other guys.

by Anonymousreply 8405/18/2020

I always had the hots for Eddie Kawasaki who sat next to me in Algebra , Geometry and Trig. I should have at least tried.

by Anonymousreply 8505/18/2020

I’d try to get a semi automatic

by Anonymousreply 8605/18/2020

Bump for the juicy goodness of r64.

by Anonymousreply 8706/22/2020

I would have offered my services when the hottest guy in my class told me how he tried to suck his own dick but couldn’t quite reach it.

by Anonymousreply 8806/22/2020

I should have acknowledged that I was gay. Seriously life would have been more fun that way.

by Anonymousreply 8906/22/2020

Do a Columbine. Yes, it really was that bad.

by Anonymousreply 9006/22/2020

There was guy 1 year ahead of me, Jon D. Built like a wrestler, jagger lips, HAF. Rumor is after he graduated that he was bi. Not sure if that was true, if I had known then what I know now.....

by Anonymousreply 9106/22/2020

I enjoyed high school. I was a good student, well-liked by the teachers, and I had some good friends I hung out with. The school was not huge, and everybody knew everybody else. The extra-curricular activities were awesome (Drama!!!!!! which always consisted of putting on a musical near the end of the year.)

I didn't study, but I have some weird sort of photographic memory and I retain text in my head pretty accurately for quite a while.

If I was doing it over again, I'd do research for a project well ahead of time instead of trying to get it all done the night before. Apparently I'm a procrastinator who works well under pressure, but it was too much like a Mission Impossible assignment every time I had research.

by Anonymousreply 9206/22/2020

Can I bring guns? 😏

by Anonymousreply 9306/22/2020

r81 I honestly don't know. Sure I would have been shunned probably. Lost all my HS friends but maybe not. I think back to all those HS parties and the debauchery that went on. I am pretty sure I could have sucked more than one dick at least and probably gotten fucked.

by Anonymousreply 9406/22/2020

Technically was never in a closet. Got beat up once in sixth grade then left alone until graduation.

Do differently? Worked a little harder for some art school scholarships.

by Anonymousreply 9506/22/2020

Would have worked a little harder academically and not been so mean to the losers.

Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't actually be nice to the loser crowd, but I wouldn't have been so shitty to them.

by Anonymousreply 9606/22/2020

I would have handled a personal situation with one of my best friends differently. Either I would have gotten us both drunk and put the moves on him in a big way or I would have decided he was too uptight about his feelings and moved on. Instead I took a middle ground and it was a terrible 3 or 4 years of trying to get him into the sack, coming close a few times and slightly messing around. I probably also would have skipped college, moved to LA immediately and gotten my real estate license and eventually flipped homes for a living. I know it sounds modest but its what I really wanted to do,,,,,,,,,,, but instead worked for large corps my whole working career and was miserable.

by Anonymousreply 9706/22/2020

I'd have dropped out the first moment I could, which was my 16th birthday. I failed all of my final exams anyway, I'm not friends with anyone I knew back then, the guys I fancied were all straight, the teachers never did their job, and I had a thoroughly horrible time. I went back into education at 25 and now have a good job and two degrees so what was the point of being miserable for two formative years at a really shit school? My friends who have unhappy teenage kids get pissed off with me when I tell their kids to drop out, go one, do it!, but I'm serious - if you don't want to be there there's really no point staying on. The lovely thing about education is you can pick it up later - you can't pick up 2 or 3 years of wasted time.

by Anonymousreply 9806/22/2020

I'd make a move on my hot Geometry teacher, Mr. Pappas, who found the time to tutor me after-school.

With his help, I was able to go from nearly failing the course to getting an A- on my final exam.

The last day, he told me that he recognized how hard I had worked, but since he had to average the scores over the semester, he could only give me a C+.

I was like, hmmmm can you give me something else?

He was a hot, Greek guy fresh out of teaching school, mid-20s. He looked like Bruno, and he smelled amazing.

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by Anonymousreply 9906/22/2020

r99 I would have blown him repeatedly.

by Anonymousreply 10006/22/2020

I would have started seeing a therapist, been kinder to others, and applied to out-of-state colleges (I overestimated my family's fondness for me).

by Anonymousreply 10106/22/2020

I don't think I could ever have come out because it was the mid-70s, so I guess knowing that I'd have a good life eventually would be enough. Jack F, man oh man, why did I let that one get away? He was handsome and funny and he had this way of looking at me to see if I was enjoying his antics like everyone else. He was so charming he could even take a dig at the teachers and they'd enjoy it. I look at him in the yearbook when he was 16 or 17 and you knew he was going to be a handsome man. We were in maybe 5-6 classes together and a perfect word for him was scamp. One time we walked home from school. We lived in sort of the same direction but it ended up taking us about four hours to get home--take that shortcut, hop that fence, go into that shop. He just told me all about his life and how sometimes he felt he was different and thought I might be too. In my mind I hear him asking something like, "Are you Joe, are you different?" I froze, thinking he knew I loved him (yes, I loved him). I thought his being different was because he was special, he had "it." I think he played some sport, maybe ran track, and he was effortlessly intelligent as well. Once in an English class, the teacher was going on about Romeo and Juliet and the timelessness of true love and he turned around and said, "Any true love for you?" I can see his face as clearly as this laptop.

I'm unreservedly happy with my husband and Jack is a Facebook friend though he never posts. Lovely wife, attractive family, successful lawyer (?) in Chicago. To this day I don't know if he was questioning his sexuality or if his genuine goodness just enabled him to connect with someone who was a little lonely and who could use a good friend. He was certainly that. Funny how DL becomes the venue for revealing a memory that I keep to myself, so precious is it to me. He gave me a lot of courage to be myself and though I didn't come out for a few years after college I feel like he gave me the courage to do so.

Great, now I'm crying as I always do when I indulge the memory of those two years.

by Anonymousreply 10206/22/2020

That's so beautiful, R102!

by Anonymousreply 10306/22/2020

I'd proposition the hot guy who was a male prostitute in our city. He wanted to be friends with me, but I knew he was scary and dangerous.

He was dead at 26 of AIDS.

by Anonymousreply 10406/22/2020

R104 Why proposition him instead of being friends with him like he wanted?

by Anonymousreply 10506/22/2020

I wish I gave a fuck more. I wish I did better. But school was an awful experience for me. Kids teased me from an early age calling me gay and faggot. At home my father was the same type of mentality. He hated blacks, Spanish, gays. Openly used the slang words as reference to everyone. There was alcoholism at home, absentee father, mother who loved us but did way too much on her own. By high school I was just burned out. I don't know how I didn't kill myself.

by Anonymousreply 10606/22/2020

I wish I’d had more fun and worried less about what others thought of me. I made good grades, had friends and a loving family but still worried a lot about my future and being accepted. Things turned out okay in the end and nobody cared that I am gay.

by Anonymousreply 10706/22/2020

R102, that sounds really special. Have you ever told him that?

by Anonymousreply 10806/24/2020

[quote] If you could go back to HS what would you differently?

Not let so many of them survive

by Anonymousreply 10906/24/2020

I would’ve loved to have been on the basketball team but I was too small. Would be fun to try out anyway. Also- would move to LA so I could audition for TV and movies.

by Anonymousreply 11006/24/2020

-Taken dance classes and eaten healthier.

-Not taken AP US History or Calculus.

-Done a better job of finding out which colleges/programs would have best suited my goals, and then would have found a coach to help me get into said programs (most of the places I wish I had gone weren’t even on my radar).

-Flirted/hooked up with the cute acquaintance who expressed interest over a decade later.

by Anonymousreply 11106/24/2020

I would have taken my part time job money (amusement park) and hired a stylist. Have you seen my senior picture? I mean...

by Anonymousreply 11206/24/2020

Our high school coach wanted me to try out for basketball, but at the time I couldn't care less. I regret it now.

by Anonymousreply 11306/24/2020

R22, I looked at my H.S. yearbook a few years ago and found a comment that I never read before. It was from Mike, who sat in front of me in my French class. He was tall, blond, built, way into girls, and I always wanted him badly. Never knew how HE felt until 42 years later...when I finally read how he adored me.

by Anonymousreply 11406/24/2020

Tell the priests to go fuck themselves, tell the nuns they are insane for belonging to a male dominated organization that has no time for females, makes them give up everything while the priests are getting free dinners every weekend at great restaurants, bottles of China’s Regal, Christmas presents from the businessmen who want to be big shots in the church (like my uncle). I’d tell the nuns the gay priest who is always in the boys bathroom isn’t a joke to be tittered at, he’s a fucking predator.

I’d say to the nuns: Your parents didn’t want you. You were the ugliest daughter. They knew you’d be too hard to marry off, especially you butch ones. So they gave you away to the church. They did it for themselves, not for you. They had 12 kids. You have a boy to the seminary & he was the big shot. They gave you to the church & you were forgotten. The only gifts you can get are bars of unsecured box, writing paper, envelopes & stamps to write to your parents who are uninterested in you.

Get out, women. The pedos are going to crash the place down. Take off your habits, wear dull lay clothes & help the poor. I know a guy who fixes cars for the nuns. They have no love for the hierarchy.

It’s time for change, .

by Anonymousreply 11506/24/2020

Fuck the football team. Or be fucked by all of them. In the weight room.

by Anonymousreply 11606/24/2020

r116 was that an option?

by Anonymousreply 11706/25/2020

R64 can’t decide if you won this thread or lost it. Biggest missed opportunity in my eyes.

by Anonymousreply 11807/21/2020

I would have applied to college out of state.

I would have worked and written for the school newspaper.

by Anonymousreply 11907/21/2020

I would have invented the internet.

by Anonymousreply 12007/21/2020

I would do some internships and work with a guidance counselor (and maybe a hypnotherapist!?) to see what field I could POSSIBLY be interested in besides the arts.

I had more success than most people who go into it, but still, in my 50s, I now wonder if there's a "normal" job I could have thrived at that would have given me more security.

by Anonymousreply 12107/21/2020

I would have sued my physically, emotionally and mentally abusive principals and gym teacher, gotten them all fired, and never had to worry about work another day in my life.

by Anonymousreply 12207/21/2020

Would have taken Uncle Micheal up on his offer to spend the summer of our freshman year at Neverland Ranch being his special assistant and letting him teach us about being a romantic leading man on man for the movies. He always said we had raw, untapped talent!!!!

Our parents never let us do anything fun. That’s why we eventually killed them.

by Anonymousreply 12307/21/2020

[quote] out the dyke teacher that tried to ruin my life before she tried to ruin my life.

Hmm, a dyke teacher is probably the only one that saved me. I was not out, even to myself but she saw it and saw kids picking on a young gayling. She put a stop to it really fast.

That prismatic hologram film I put on the band of my wristwatch must have been the give away :D

by Anonymousreply 12407/21/2020

R114 - same here. Except she was a nun. She ended up leaving the nun hood a few years later. But 14 year old me will always be grateful to her for helping me.

by Anonymousreply 12507/21/2020

I would have kicked Woody Donaldson's ass.

by Anonymousreply 12607/21/2020

I would have experimented with guys then rather than waiting a decade. Granted, being gay back then in an all-male Catholic high school wouldn't have been an easy situation.

by Anonymousreply 12707/21/2020

[quote] -Not taken AP US History or Calculus.


by Anonymousreply 12807/21/2020

I would have stayed and let Dave Erickson from the football team fuck me when he walked in on me jacking off in the showers after soccer practice. He was kinda shy and quite, sort of a nerdy smart jock, but fuck’n built and hot as hell, and he already looked like a man, as opposed to a 18 year old boy, with a hairy chest and big thick hairy legs. I’d had a crush on him since he transferred in sophomore year and I think he probably knew it. I just froze there, naked under the shower with a massive hard on as a perpetually horny 18 year old, as he stared at me for what seemed like forever. I said some lame thing and quickly walked out of the shower room, grabbed my towel and went back to my locker and changed and left. It never came up again.

by Anonymousreply 12907/21/2020

Find a way to get out of my toxic living environment but still stay in school.

by Anonymousreply 13007/21/2020

I Would have had a 3 way with the two muscle bear football coaches. Imagine what it was like to see your fantasy man/football coach walk towards you naked, on the way to the showers in 10th grade. Then the other one came out of their office naked to take a shower. I almost fainted.

by Anonymousreply 13107/21/2020

Hot, r131.

by Anonymousreply 13207/21/2020

Try to find some COCK AND ASS.

by Anonymousreply 13307/21/2020

I definitely would be more forward with some of the hotter teachers.

by Anonymousreply 13407/22/2020

I would’ve killed my parents. They’d have put me in jail but let me out in a few years. Then I’d go back to school & make something of myself without those 2 losers holding me down & preventing me from having friends, going out, making some money at a job & living my life without constant vicious criticism & hysterical screaming & hitting for no reason.

by Anonymousreply 13507/24/2020

I was the picked-on kid who DID finally fight back senior year by clocking a bully not once but twice in homeroom in front of the whole class. The teacher just smiled. My reputation was made, "Don't fuck with him." Should've done it years before. It's your duty, boys.

by Anonymousreply 13607/24/2020

Oh and I definitely would've sucked more cock. It was everywhere to be had.

by Anonymousreply 13707/24/2020

Lose my virginity.

by Anonymousreply 13807/24/2020

I would have applied myself and studied my freshman and sophomore years, which I blew off to party and become popular. It worked and I was in the A group up through spring of my sophomore year, but I never really clicked with them. My grades were terrible. I was an A student who suddenly was getting Bs and mostly Cs. My parents should have cracked down on me. My junior and senior years, I never missed the high honor roll. Such a waste of time those first two years. I would have also insisted my parents pay for a SAT prep course, too.

The other thing is I would stick with my true friends. I blew many of them off to get in the A group. That was a huge mistake. I learned my lessons, though. In college, I hung out with people I actually liked and didn't care about joining the supposedly popular group, although in college it really was just a bunch of different groups of people who would hang out. I also applied myself and graduated with honors. College was a much more rewarding experience.

by Anonymousreply 13907/24/2020

I'd have blown Andy F., nice arms and always had his shirt half buttoned. I think he's born again now.

by Anonymousreply 14007/24/2020

Kill everyone who tortured me. So that would be everyone.

by Anonymousreply 14107/24/2020

There are some freaks here advocating murder!

I wasn’t attracted to any of the guys I went to high school with who came out later so I didn’t miss out on a boyfriend back then. I should have hit the gym hardcore to hit the ground running when I went to college.

by Anonymousreply 14207/27/2020

I would have applied myself more and gotten A's in all my classes and breezed into a good college. Instead I had to work nights and turn over my paycheck to my family to help pay bills. Somehow I'm very successful today but in my mind I could have been more so. I still feel like that underachieving kid in high school who was tired all the time and blew off classes. I feel that way even when I'm in front of the rich and famous and the pay attention to me.

by Anonymousreply 14307/27/2020

Sounds like you have plenty to be proud of R143. Consider workIng on healing those feelings of insecurity now since we can’t change the past.

by Anonymousreply 14407/27/2020

I would have not been the pretentious twit I pretended to be and actually enjoyed the experience. My parents spent money they didn't have to put me in a prestigious high school and I spent all my time trying to impress other students who I now realize were just rich kids who could/would go on to whatever university they wanted regardless of their grades. I should have spent time actually trying to get an education or at least planning for a future.

by Anonymousreply 14507/27/2020

I'd drop out on the second day and move to London.

by Anonymousreply 14607/27/2020

“If you could go back..”

If only...

by Anonymousreply 14707/27/2020

I saw how my parents reacted when my 4 year older brother came out, so I didn’t. I wish I had found a way to not let their judgment do so much damage.

I also would have beat the neighbor within inches before he tried to murder my mom.

by Anonymousreply 14807/27/2020

I was perhaps too realistic. Lots of people I barely knew wrote complimentary things in the yearbook, but some of my friends wrote nasty or vicious things. I never believed those who complimented me were secretly in love with me. I guess I kind of always knew that being slightly richer, average attractive, smarter, and not a total dud at sports would make people jealous, but the rabid level of it and the way it has always come up through life reminds me that high school is life, and people don't mature or get over their 12 year old prejudices and frantic judgments. Most people overestimate their family's affection for them and don't find out the truth until they are 70, but I wasn't given that option. Don't ever make the mistake of thinking that "being gay" is "no problem" for your set. It's a big problem. While some of my peers were confused about my sexuality, their parents never were, and I was banned from the house of almost every male friend I made back then. Sadly, some gays still would not want to introduce me to their family or friends today. I hate to be the Emperor here, but your faith in your friends is a weakness.

by Anonymousreply 14907/27/2020

High school? Very little. Most of the mistakes that ruined my life happened from 18-24.

by Anonymousreply 15007/27/2020

Academics weren't that hard for me. But had a number of crushes. And one guidance counselor. Dear non existent he was a good looking man. Imagine about 5 or 6 years later I'm at the gym in the locker room and who walks in yup him. Even my spouse thinks he was good looking. And I was just 17 my first year of college. I suppose I should have gone away for school.

And I've passed up numerous propositions. Shit - I've had cab drivers (And a cute one) proposition me.

by Anonymousreply 15108/10/2020

Study more. I mean, I got into the university I wanted, and had the best times there, but I didn't acquire enough study habits to really excel.

by Anonymousreply 15208/10/2020

I would not have participated in high school sports. Sports were blown up way out of proportion in my community. My dad was born and raised in the town and he was a greaser/loser in high school. He leaned on my brother and me to be sports stars. My brother participated in everything he could but he as born clumsy, so he was a bench warmer. I was more athletic and I played, starting almost all games after freshman year. Still, I graduated near the top of my class and went to the university of my choice (on an academic scholarship).

By the end of college, my past in contact sports caught up with me. I was diagnosed with osteoarthritis in my 20s. As I entered my 40s, it became cause for alarm. Improperly healed bone fractures in my legs and arms have caused problems later in life. A neck injury in high school has resulted in mid-life debilitating pain. All for my father's glory.

This was the late 70s and early 80s, when there was no such thing as sports medicine or team doctors in small towns. Our physics teacher/assistant football coach tended to injuries. When I suffered an open femur fracture, he wanted to tape me up and send me back in the game. But for a kindly neighbor lady, who attended all the away games, I would probably have had it amputated. She actually took me to a hospital in her own car.

You have but one body and I abused mine in high school.

by Anonymousreply 15308/10/2020

R21 You didn’t graduate 20 years ago; more like thirty.

by Anonymousreply 15408/10/2020

I would ask for tutoring, and make an effort, instead of blowing it all off in my depression.

by Anonymousreply 15508/10/2020

My homeroom teacher.

by Anonymousreply 15608/10/2020

R108, I never did. By the time we reconnected over Facebook there had been so much water under the bridge. Rereading my post now, all these months later, makes me think I definitely would if we were ever together again. I’d never send him anything over Facebook or in an email. It would have to be face to face.

by Anonymousreply 15701/11/2021

Great idea for a thread.

Be nicer to a handful of different people that I was not nice to.

Spend more time with my parents.

Apply myself more in math and history in particular.

Continue to play an instrument and participate in music instead of dropping it at the end of middle school.

Be kinder to kids who likely needed a friend.

by Anonymousreply 15801/11/2021

I had crippling social anxiety and panic attacks in high school, as well as before and after those years for a long, long time. Today, in my mid-50s I still have the panic attacks at times, but my social anxiety is so much better. I couldn’t even talk 1-1 at times in high school things were so bad. Yet, I was a very good student (very serious), played French horn in the band and ran track. Every year I thought of trying out for the football team. I was big and fast. I didn’t have the courage though. I watched the other boys gather to meet the coach through a door window every September. I was far from a jock and probably wouldn’t have fit in very well anyway. I couldn’t wait to graduate. It was a long 5 years ( I’m Canadian).

by Anonymousreply 15901/11/2021

Have more sex with those hot young beautiful boys. I know, I am shallow.

by Anonymousreply 16001/11/2021

I should have taken the contract The Face Paris offered me rather than lettering in 3 varsity sports. It kept me so provincial that I floundered for a few weeks when I started at Cambridge where I fell into a fast crowd. Still, I was happy with the success of my autobiographical novel, and being Stephen Sprouse's young muse was a kick.

by Anonymousreply 16101/11/2021

I wouldn't wear tight jeans to school. In the late 1970s almost everybody wore tight jeans and so did I. But when I transferred to a new school for 10th grade a group of girls notice my well developed ass and would make remarks and whistle at me in the hall every time I passed. As a 15 year old it was awkward and embarrassing , especially when at that age you want to be accepted and not stand out. After about two months of this I realized this was not going to stop, so I decided to switch to wearing only loose fitting chinos that were at least one size too big for me. The remarks subsided after a couple of weeks. Looking back now it seems like it should not have been a significant problem but back then it was.

by Anonymousreply 16201/11/2021

A week after I was graduated, I would have asked my favorite male teachers to disrobe for me. I would have said it was for a research project I was already involved in at college. If some of them did, I would watch to see if they were getting turned on by it. The research would have moved to my throat. I wouldn't mind flossing with a pubic hair or two, or a big bush, as I predicted some of them would have.

It was fantasy then, and it's fantasy now...

by Anonymousreply 16301/11/2021

HS was a pain in my ass. It's possible I'd have dropped more acid and smoked more weed, and cut classes more. I was fairly decent in HS and it didn't mean a lot, looking at the bigger picture. I had a decent time, had marginally acceptable grades and only got suspended once (smoking on campus). HS was of no real value to me. I'd have preferred to kick around Europe for a few of those years, meeting new people, having sex and getting high. Yeah.

by Anonymousreply 16401/11/2021

I would have tried my hardest to get into a nice New England boarding school. Sure I would have been slightly shunned as a minority scholarship student, but those schools offer amazing programs. I'm also sure I would have found some good DL dick since it's a boarding school which would beat having little to no options in my uptight small-town school. I would have pushed myself to go to a top school in California and stayed out there for life. Maybe get into Hollywood as an agent or something glamerous.

by Anonymousreply 16501/11/2021

Been more awake to overtures from that swim team Adonis.

by Anonymousreply 16601/11/2021

Mine was basically the mirror of your experience, R124. She singled me out because her gaydar went off. She was terribly insecure and a poor teacher. I was neither the first nor last student she tried to ruin.

As I re-read my reply, both of the wishes I articulated have a common thread in my lack of confidence. It took graduating from college and some professional success before I realized I have it, but I've let failures (and fear of failure) hold me back. That's why I turned down the swim coach, and it's why I let a fat old woman intimidate me. If I could go back, I'd buck myself up and take more risks, earlier.

by Anonymousreply 16701/11/2021

I had to read all this shit to make sure I wasn’t double-posting.

I’ve had this nightmare at key moments of my life and it’s always the same - a dream montage where I apply myself, put in real work, and ignore haters within a porcelain-tiled hallway. And nothing changes. That section is still finished - just in a different way.

That cultural capital at home would have to change as well.

by Anonymousreply 16801/11/2021

I guess I should have been a bit less of a whore........ In HS 30 years ago & at this age have gotten more than a few "hey, hows it goin" emails or FB messages from those straight boys...... Haven't answered a single one!!!!! One day perhaps...... I'm more curious in their stories & to catch up than anything.

by Anonymousreply 16901/11/2021

R114, what did he write??

by Anonymousreply 17001/11/2021

I would have done sports. But I would have had to somehow control my penis.

I was a talented swimmer, but starting at the age of 10, whenever I saw guys naked in the locker room, I got an erection. It was automatic, a reflex. There wasn't even any sexual feeling attached to it at that point.

By high school, there was. But I still couldn't shower with other guys without getting hard. Could not pray, distract or talk it down.

The upside was that was how I knew being gay was completely natural. The downside was I missed out on sports. I could have had a great body and all that muscle memory and carried on my dad's tradition of being a swim champ. He would have been so proud.

by Anonymousreply 17101/11/2021

Start taking hormones, and get a sex change before college.

by Anonymousreply 17201/11/2021

Had more sex, but it was the early 80s and nothing would change that fact nor the fear.

by Anonymousreply 17301/11/2021

A lot of you are tapped

by Anonymousreply 17401/12/2021

The smartest thing I did in high school was to leave a year early for an early admissions college program. With advance knowledge of that plan, I would have relaxed more, selected a few courses differently, done even more independent study, and had more sex.

by Anonymousreply 17501/12/2021

[quote]A lot of you are tapped

They don't have extra money to spend on something?

I would have just stuck to myself, not worried about having friends, put my head down and do my homework. Same goes for college. Friends will fuck everything up.

by Anonymousreply 17601/12/2021

Friends AND family will fuck you up.

by Anonymousreply 17701/12/2021

[quote] A week after I was graduated, I would have asked my favorite male teachers to disrobe for me. I would have said it was for a research project I was already involved in at college. If some of them did, I would watch to see if they were getting turned on by it. The research would have moved to my throat. I wouldn't mind flossing with a pubic hair or two, or a big bush, as I predicted some of them would have.

R163 oh my, that is quite a vivid visual. My only question - would you have swallowed?

by Anonymousreply 17801/12/2021

I'd homeschool myself so I could finish in two years, take as many AP courses as possible and start college online early. I'd also lock myself in my room, allow my dogs in and keep my parents and awful sibling out. At the appropriate time, I'd move out and never see my family and my community again.

by Anonymousreply 17901/12/2021

I'd take karate and kick some bullies asses.

by Anonymousreply 18001/12/2021
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