She's 85. She's been sick for a number of years (diabetes, then heart disease) and her body is apparently in the process of simply shutting down. Her heart, her lungs, her kidneys. Her doctor says she's in pretty bad shape and getting worse. She has days, weeks, maybe months to live. It'll be either her heart or her kidneys that give out. Her death will be an easy one, he says.
For her part she's being very philosophical about it all. She knows she's had a good long life and is grateful for that. She doesn't want to leave us, but she sees that it's out of her hands so she's simply accepting it. She's signed a Do Not Resuscitate Order and has refused any medical intervention such as dialysis and life support. All she wants is the meds that keep her going and comfortable.
My 92 year old father is, naturally, quite upset but also philosophical. He's also grateful that they had a good long life together and knows that it had to end some day. He's unwell too and I don't think he'll be around too much longer either.
They both live in a full-care senior's home. All of their practical and medical needs are taken care of for them. My sisters pop in on them regularly to take care of everything else and just to visit and talk with them (I live on the other side of the country)
I know she's old, but it still hurts. It's not tragic or horrible or unnatural. It's just what happens to people when they live that long. But it still hurts.
My siblings and I have a lot to be thankful for, certainly. And we'll miss them both terribly when they're gone. But we'll have happy memories of them.
I'm not sure why I'm telling Datalounge (of all people) this. I'm actually keeping this pretty private in my real life. I haven't talked about it with anyone except my partner and my siblings. I feel like this is mine and I want to hold it close for a while. I don't want to share it until I have to.
Does that even make sense?