I'm trembling in fear and have chills I can't shake. I have a longtime established business, and I'm no spring chicken. I've been accused of something horrible which could end my career. In my industry, just the hint of this sort of thing will end you.
I did not do what I've been accused of. Not any bit of it. There is no way to prove innocence or guilt, so instead, I am perceived as guilty, because that's the easy out. Not only am I hurt at the accusation, but furious. I've lost two major clients recently, and the accusing one is now denying me a month's pay (unused, but we had a month's notice for termination in our contract). They are using their accusation to justify not paying me.
I'm frustrated. And really scared. I NEED that money. But way more than that, I need to not have my career ended by people I cannot reason with. Believe me, I've tried. I was much more articulate in my response to the accusation, and it should have been the end of it.
With the first accusation a few weeks ago, I decided to transition to something else anyway. I'm in a risky line of work as it is. The accusation made me re-evaluate. The risk outweighs the reward. But now it is possible I'll lose everything. Much sooner than I'm ready or able to re-invent myself. Not to mention, choosing to switch gears is entirely different than being blacklisted. (No, I'm not an actor/singer.)
I don't know what my options are. I can't sleep. My partner and I will find a lawyer in the morning, and obviously I have to fight somehow, otherwise I seem guilty by default, but I still don't know what to do. The mere whisper of inappropriate activity is the kiss of death, and can't be litigated against.
This would still suck if I'd actually done something wrong, but to be innocent and possibly losing everything is so much to bear. I'm sorry I'm writing so much. I just don't know what to do. My mind is racing and I have chills. I've worked very hard to get where I am.
If noone wants to post, that's okay. I feel sick. I needed to write this somewhere, right now.