[quote]Something just doesn't add up.
It's this attitude, as with the idiot in the rescued girls in Cleveland thread, that completely enrages me. It tells me that these two fuckers led such a life of ease that they could never understand nor comprehend just what it means to live in fear of an adult/authority figure.
It freezes you up. And it is incredibly difficult to articulate to another human being just how unable you are to move forward, especially if you're STILL a child. It takes years to be able to figure it out on a personal level, how on earth are you supposed to sum up that kind of experience for an audience? It can't be done.
I remember how I felt as a child having to listen to my father beating the shit of my mother. I'd be shivering down in my bedroom, my arms around my little brother and sister trying to comfort them, and wishing with all my heart that I could do something to make him stop, to stomp upstairs and hurt him the way he hurt us, to feel like a superhero and save her. But the truth of it was I was absolutely terrified of him. It kept me immobilized. I was a twelve year old girl and he had about 200 pounds on me and a temper that was all-consuming. And the shame that I felt about not being able to stand up to him (or my mother, she was no picnic, either) engulfed me for a long time; well into adulthood.
Is it really that difficult for you to comprehend how much power an adult can have over an 11 year old's thought-process? Especially one that he wants to keep. I had to deal with mindfucking and abuse from people who actually birthed me and supposedly loved me. What of someone who has kidnapped another person against their will?
They will do and say ANYTHING to keep the mind and being of that person under their control. It's as simple as that. Sure, Devlin let this kid out and created a scenario that wouldn't look out of place--that of a dad raising his son. And the fact that Hornbeck didn't run, even after his torture and abasement at the hands of his captor, tells you a LOT about what kind of mind games this guy was playing on a CHILD. It didn't even have to be threats. He could have told him stories about Shawn's parents, how they never loved him, could never want him as much as Devlin, or whatever bullshit came into his head.
Think about it for a second. You're so vulnerable at that age, and all it takes is one person convincing you that you're worthless, or that they have complete power over you, for you to lose your self-esteem, self-preservation, self-worth, your entire self. And it becomes very important to live within those strict boundaries that person has placed on you because you're so terrified of what might be beyond them.
It must be so nice to have grown up so whitebread and drama-free that you absolutely cannot fathom that kind of situation. And that you really can't appreciate how easy it is to fuck with an eleven year old's (or fourteen year old, or even a terrified woman being raped on a daily basis) head.
Count yourself lucky, OP. And good job with those empathy skills.