Hey r59, OP here, just a few hours shy of 7 days sober! thanks for coming into to share your positivity and message that there are many tools out there, many different ways to get sober, and it's not a one-size-fits-all thing by any means. To answer your question, I think need to rewind a bit.
Back in November 2022, I had been drinking so heavily for over 3+ years after a period of 18 months sobriety prior to that. In late 2022, I did use online AA meetings quite a bit and found the support and companionship very helpful. I had been unemployed for over a year at that point, but was living off savings I had made and was really very housebound and isolated. AA really helped in the first four months to find a sense of routine, support, encouragement, positivity. Along with AA, I also made small steps every day to put my life back in order, starting with cleaning the shithole i had let my apartment become. That was an extremely big job, but i took it a step at a time. I also made sure to set myself up for success, by downloading a sobriety app, stocking my fridge with good, healthy food and non-alcoholic beverages, downloaded some games on my phone for times when i would usually be drinking, and generally kept myself very busy. About four months in, I began exercising a lot and that became a big part of recovery for me, along with going to the doctor and dealing with all the effects my drinking had taken on my health over those years.
I then began looking for work when my money was running out, around June of last year. I was very lucky to be recruited to be an Office Administrator of a non-profit in July, a job I still have, despite the past 4 1/2 months of heavy drinking. That really took over my life, along with dealing with the final days of my longtime pup's life. A week before I began my new job, my mother died, which was a huge blow to me as well. I had to finally decide to put my dog down at the beginning of December, and the thought of the impending event and the pain surrounding it was devastating to me. In mid November, a day after my year sobriety, just did me in. I began drinking again. I gained all the weight I lost in the last period of sobriety and don't know what the health effects are at this point, but I'm hoping they aren't quite as serious as last time.
So that was last time, and you asked me about this time. This time, I have a lot going for me despite my losses during last year. I still have a wonderful job, a wonderful boss and workplace, my best friend is still around me despite my lapse back into drinking, and I have a new pup in my life who I helped bring into the world, holding him on my chest and keeping him warm right after he was born. So, I have a HUGE ADVANTAGE I didn't have at all last time. I also revved up the ol' sobriety app again, stocked my fridge with the good food/beverages, began taking my meds again, and started just appreciating how good it felt to wake up without pain - in my head, stomach, bruises from where i fell or bumped into something, and with the peace of mind knowing I'm doing the best i can. I grieved my losses in a really bad way, but I'm moving forward with my life. I have to look at the balance between loss and gain, and I can see that now as the grief has subsided over these past 4 1/2 months. I have more to do here, more life left to live, more people to give and receive love to and from. So, i'm choosing to live it. I haven't attended any AA meetings this time, but I don't rule that out as a possibility. However, I seem to be doing okay for the time being. I do have a 4 month old puppy to take care of as well as myself. (cont)