I steal food from the break room as well as paper products for the bathroom and kitchen at home.\
I''m living paycheck to paycheck and every bit helps.
I hide my credit card debt from my partner because I am ashamed at how poorly I''ve managed my money.
(only my dad, stepmom, and one friend know for sure...everyone else can only connect the dots--single, 30, doesn''t date)
Every Friday at work we get bagels and burritos for breakfast. My cubbie''s right next to the kitchen so I grab four bagels and stash them in my desk so I can have breakfast for the next work week.\
And I hate my job and am trying to find another one as soon as I can.
A space ship landed in my back yard and I didn''t call the cops. I invited them inside. I named them Bob and Dennis. They eat very little, mostly roots and berries. They seem to be building something in the garage.
I don''t really douche. Ever.
I was laid off for a long time and the only job I can find is a very low paying one. I cannot pay my storage space and I didn''t realize I stored my financial papers in it. Yeah, my dumb fault the fucking storage place told me when my stuff is sold they can put in a request for the person to shred it. I''m losing fucking everything, including my my 12 yo cat, who I''ve had since it was 2 months, and my small apartment.\
Of course, despite my supporting motherfucking charities for years, those same places will not help me. Same with people I know. Every single person I know can just go fuck themselves. They have no idea how much I now hate them with a passion.\
I''m taking it as a sign I''m just done in a month. A person can only take so much.
I don''t really hide my emotions as well as people think I do. I only cry when I''m alone and I cry HARD. I can tell it''s gonna happen tonight as soon as I get to my apartment.
I have bipolar 1 disorder. I am a high functioning professional and cannot tell anyone at work. I hate my illness.
Things will come back around if you try and have a better atitude. \
I have a pal who used to be mother fucking homeless who built themselves back up like the Bionic Woman. \
It could be worse OP. \
Oh, and call the storage place, they only want stuff to sell anyway. Get your papers back, they do not need them and it is wrong for them to obtain them. Do not let them BS you, contact the manager or the corporate supervisor, since you obviously have a computer and internet access. \
Dedicate this point onward to building yourself back up come hell or high water and drop that bad ass attitude like a hot potato!
Christ has spoken
r6, sweetie - this thread is for SECRETS not HOT MESSES.\
I went through a horrible, horrible depression about 7 years ago. I didn''t work for about 2 years and lived on my credit cards. I eventually had around $50 thousand in credit card debt. I couldn''t afford it and just stopped paying ignoring every single call and letter from collectors. \
It''s now past the statute of limitations and I plan on having it erased from my credit report using some of the methods I gleand for the insider secrets thread here at Datalounge!
I work at a major retail warehouse/discount chain that sells everything from housewares to food. During the week, we usually have several stations giving out free samples of foods.
I always see a lot of senior citizens make an outing of coming in to eat all our free samples, then leave. Imagine my surprise when a former co-worker from my old job, came in with her three year old and did the same thing!
They were hungry, too. I decided to use my assistant mgr. status to do something. I said hello to them, she was obviously embarrassed to run into me.
I asked her if she and her son would like to try our food court. I told her I was arguing with management about the hot dogs. They wanted to change brands and I wanted to keep the same brand. (It was a lie.)
I asked her if they would like to "help me out." Then I bought them lunch. I told them we had "a few extras" and gave them a couple more to go. She never came back again, and I heard that she moved back home to another state to stay with her parents.
R12, you work at Costco or Sam''s Club. And that''s a secret I''d be ashamed to t ell.
Kudos to you R12 for helping someone out and not trying to make it obvious.
That was a very nice thing you did, R12.
That was a damn nice thing to do, R12.
Kisses, R12. Ignore the cunts on here.
I bill my bosses for more hours than I work.\
R6, there must be someone you know who can at least take your cat for you? I hope things work out.
I hope r13 feels like a fool.
I hate my job so much I take a percocet everyday just to get through it. Yes, I know...
I work at Costco. I have never told anyone about it. I felt bad for them. I can''t imagine what it''s like to be broke with kids! R6, you are angry and hurting, but you can live thru this. Get even by surviving!
I haven''t seen my mother in over 2 years and don''t miss her. She pretends she can''t do anything for herself just so everyone around can do them. When you call her on it she flips out. Even her calls every few weeks are too much for me.
R12 it''s small kindnesses like yours that mean so much to the person you''re helping and that''s what matters. More power to you, you''re my hero for today.
I''ve been separated from my partner of 11 years since May. Only a couple of very close friends know - my family certainly doesn''t. They''ve always been more concerned I''d be alone or "lonely" than whether I was gay. But you can be in a relationship and still be lonely.\
So our weekend phone calls usually involve this exchange:\
"Oh, he''s fine ... he says hello ... "\
I''m going to have to tell them soon.
R9 R10: I had a great attitude. My secret is the people who I always helped, who now cannot be bothered with me, I loathe, but I haven''t yet informed them, so they think everything is cool. \
Someone who fits that category decided to crash at my place in a month. I guess they''ll be sleeping on the street, since I don''t plan to inform them I will no longer be there.\
thank you for the storage place info.
I put an ad on Craigslist back in May and someone I work with answered it.
R26, is that person out at work? Hot?
I have very racist attitudes, but don''t want to. I work with several black people and really like them--so I don''t hate all black people. \
I teach black students and just find them the worst students ever. I really would like to teach at an all-white school.
No r27, he is not out. He has a nice body, average face. He''s Italian and his face is a bit long and "horsey". First tier body, Second tier face in my opinion.
I don''t love my partner.
It''s likely you were conditioned to think that, R28. You''re constantly looking for evidence for your assumption. Just recondition yourself not to think that. Make sure you really take notice mentally when the white students do the same kinds of things that the black students do. The sad truth might be that it''s simply the majority of the students, race isn''t really even the issue.
R27/ R29, if that happened to me and I thought the guy was hot I''d start flirting with him at work. How''d you know it was him? Did he send you a picture or did he send you an email from his regular address?
My company bailed on its education benefit half way through my masters. I now do all my homework and research on company time and print it all out on the company printer [and yes, I empty the copier memory]
He sent a picture of himself from a distance wearing sunglasses and a hat. He has the exact same picture posted on Facebook. It is a bit of an assumption that it''s him because somebody could have stolen the picture off of Facebook. My reasoning for believing that it''s him is that there are millions of pictures for people to steal, why steal this one of him.
R31 & R28, it IS the majority of students -- it''s their age, not their race. Believe me, things are just as bad at an all white school.
All my sexual fantasies involve me getting killed at the end. I mean it.
I work in a small boutique store that I am helping to build the brand. Many days I am there alone. When I should be on the sales floor trying to make it happen, I am in the back jacking off to porn. I have even invited guys from craigslist to the back room and have jacked off with them and have fucked a couple of them.
R25, My brother's a lot like that. He's been out of work for almost three years and has been sleeping on my couch for a year and a half.
He had all these friends and "contacts" but now they don't even respond to phone calls or e-mails. It is amazing since he helped so many of them out when they were in need. And some of them were really needy for a while.
The thing is, if these people were needy people who you had to help, then they aren't the kind to help you anyway. They were assholes then and are still and you're just noticing.
They also sound like very immature user types. Punch and delete them, not youself. And find a better class of "friends."
Actually, this is a great opportunity to really find out what you want, who you are, and what you really need in life. And go for it. Please yourself. You don't have to live up to anyone's expectations.
And all the crap you were handed along with the "kool aid" is bullshit. You can see thru it now. SO go forth and find a way to enjoy yurself and have an adventure...no matter how mundane it maybe to others. Or not.
OK. Let's have some juicy secrets. Enough with this goody goody shit. Did any of you fuck your sister's boyfriends? Did your sister's husband hit on you?
...but I digress...
R37, I''ve actually had a fantasy about walking into some store, finding a hot clerk, then going to the stockroom to have sex with him.
I pick my nose and eat my boogers.
"OK. Let''s have some juicy secrets. Enough with this goody goody shit."\
I think when I was in high school one of my teachers was hitting on me. He was very nerd like and had coke bottle glasses. But he always started conversations with me in the hallway. He once lent me the soundtrack to "Baby Doll".
R6, I'm so sorry. What sort of worker training programs are available in your city? Look into retraining through your unemployment office. Call churches to ask if they have food banks or beds for people like you. In my town, there's a network of churches who help people who are newly homeless, trying to get on their feet again. They let them sleep on cots in the church but they have to be out first thing every morning. They'll spend two weeks at one church and then rotate to another. Also, several churches run food and clothing banks. Check out the Catholic and Lutheran churches especially.
Whatever you do, don't give up. Do you have any money coming in? If you do, try looking for someone renting out a room.
Also, contact your local newspapers and tv stations and tell them your plight. Pitch them a story about you and how you're spiraling into homelessness. Also contact your political representatives and ask for help.
Check out this website; it offers a wealth of information and provides some emotional support. Each state has its own message board.
Oh, and shame on you fucking assholes for telling r6 to change his/her attitude. Fuck you. Walk a mile in those shoes and then come back here and let''s see if you''re still saying "change your attitude and everything will get better!"\
You all who have cushy jobs and money to burn, contact your Congressional representatives and tell them to pass Tier five unemployment support for those people who have depleted their benefits and have still not found work. These people, 99ers, are losing their homes, their possessions, their lives, and no one is trying to help! It''s so horrible and the public knows so little about it. Do what you can for these people. It takes only a bit of effort to contact your politicians.
Get off the government dole and do something with your life r44 rather than come here and yell at those of us who have jobs.
Bulimic, alcoholic, dying
R6, are you in Boston by any chance?
During my senior year in high school in a backwater town, I had an affair with my English teacher. I was so hormonally infatuated with him I''m embarrassed to even think about how aggressively I came on to him. Yet I did, and he was bisexual enough (he was single, but dated women) to let me suck him off and do some frottage almost every weekend. \
He was up front about just having fun and that we weren''t dating. He was clear that after I left for college the following summer that would be it. That was fine with me, but man, did I ever cry my eyes out when summer came and he left on vacation and I knew I''d be leaving for school before he got back. Teenage crushes are intense.\
Oh, no one ever found out about us, but the following year there was speculation that he was having an affair with one of his female students, but it was never proven and he was never prosecuted. But he did quite teaching at my old school after that and moved away.
R48, you should''ve paid more attention to what your English teacher was saying, rather than undressing him with your eyeballs. Your grammar is atrocious.
i have $100,000 socked away and everyone thinks im working class poor.\
i like to keep it simple and im not materialistic anymore.\
Oh and when i reach 45 i am going to get a large sum of money- $500,000 \
im 35 right now and doing ok work wise not great but im single no mortgage since i rent and have no kids\
i havent told anyone about the money- not even my siblings or best friend.
I have a cousin who works six days a week as a waitress and is barely getting by. I''ve sent her a couple of checks for $500 and will continue to do so periodically.\
My partner knows I am doing this but no one else does.\
r50, why will you be getting a large sum of money when you are 45? And are you learning how to invest?
Good for you R50. I''d keep my mouth shut too.\
A few years ago I bought a used car for a few thousand dollars. A co-worker gave me a funny look when I told her I didn''t need a loan to buy it.
I have a degree in IT but I''m too lazy to search for a job in the field. I am a peon clerical worker making less than $40,000 but I''m comfortable and it''s easy and I get to work from home 3x a week. The work from home part is really what keeps me unmotivated.
a mentor that passed away a few yrs ago left it for me in his will and had that age stipulation\
i had no idea he was doing this he never told me\
we were very close and i knew they were ill but i never expected them to die.\
but the reason i havent told anyone about the money ($100,000 and $500,000) is because i was always the nice guy and people would take advantage of me.\
Now i only give and support real charities like American Red Cross etc\
I no longer help family friends or acquaintances\
ive been burned one too many times.\
Yes ive been looking into becoming a wise investor\
but i really hate lawyers and insurance agents and anyone that wants and expects a commission :)\
ive become very fiscally conservative in the last decade.\
I know what it is to be poor and so i rather have a safety cushion and play it safe.
I suffer from severe social anxiety and by the age of 17 was pretty much house bound.I''ve been in thearapy for over 20 years and am slightly better with medication but I don''t date and I''m still living at home.
I''m a very oral, gay man who used to eat pussy...and enjoy it.
r54, check out Vanguard''s Wellesley fund. You would qualify for admiral shares which means a very low expense ratio.\
I received a million dollar inheritance plus my partner and I have lived frugally and saved for years. I am planning to put a big chunk into Wellesley.\
I understand the conflict of interest between most "financial planners" and investors. I think diversifying and keeping expenses low are the keys to success. I''ve done the trading of individual stocks and will not do it again.\
Good luck to you.
R54, I want more details on the "mentor" deal. I''d like to find a mentor with lots of $$!
r53, I''ve been in the IT field for 30 years. It is soul sucking. Don''t feel lazy for not pursuing it. I just told my boss''s boss that I am looking for a demotion so that I can get my life back. I can''t do these hours or the stress anymore.\
If you can pay your bills and put some money away then don''t beat yourself up. Enjoy life.
R54 fucked some old guy and got a few pennies thrown his way when the old sucker died. THAT''S the extent of their relationship.
Aren''t there financial advisors that work strictly on salary so you don''t have to worry about them skimming any money from you?\
R55, I''m in a similar boat as you. I''m nearing 32, still at home, and I''ve never even had a job. The belief is sinking in that this is pretty much the weird non-life I''ll always have.
R60, half a million bucks is more than a "few pennies."
(R58) its all about preparation and opportunity i guess.\
at the reading of the will i found out they were quite wealthy. Lets just say i was the one who got the least amount. I knew them for almost 14 yrs.\
we did mess around several times in the beginning.\
they said they were "bi" but they were not married had girlfriends etc\
I am gay but said i was "Bi" to go along.\
They taught me alot about the industry we were both in- i was a rookie and they were not.\
and before u begin speculating its not anyone famous\
One of the things i learned from this person is that dont ever judge a person by appearances only.\
they can be deceiving \
that the people that appear rich flaunting their cars and clothes are usually poor.\
and above all- you need to learn to delay gratification
R55 & R61, I''m just wondering what you guys are going to do when your parent(s) pass on?? I''m not judging either of you as I know social anxiety can be brutal.
If 20 years ago someone inherited 1 million dollars, to be paid to them over a 20 year period, and that person reinvested the entire amount in a conservative way, what would that 1 million be worth today?
Truthfully I don''t know r64. If I were a religious man, I''d just go join a monastery. At least I''d have a safe bed and a halfway decent chance of getting laid.
Damn, R50, you are typing hot tonight! Is that a new font you are using? It looks good on you. We should hang sometime, I am in Socal too!
Getting heated up
I always end up having sex with my friends or trying to have sex with my friends or feeling guilty for fantasizing about having sex with my friends - regardless of their gender or relationship status. \
I''m good for three years as a faithful friend.
[quote]Now i only give and support real charities like American Red Cross etc\
Who will not take a gay man''s blood donation.
I teach courses and after each one there are at least two people I want to call stupid to their face and tell them to please quit.\
No, you don''t just need a little extra time, you need a new brain!
r56, you''re bi, not gay. Why is that a secret?
My house is worth $2.6 million. I have $750,000 in liquid assets. I have $1.3 million invested.\
I have never given to a charity and secretly believe that the poor, the disabled, and the needy deserve the lives they''re living and we should not intervene in the natural order of things.
Neoliberal thinking at its best, R72.
You are an ass. Do you really think everyone is given a level playing field regardless of the country and economic strata they are born into? Tell that to someone born in the slums of Africa, India, Brazil...
They were born there for a reason, r74. God has a plan in everything He does. You may not see it but it is up for them to find that reason. Stop condescending to those people and let them reach their full potential.
R72 is a nasty piece of work. Unfortunately, his rank is increasing. More unfortunately is that his rank is increasing among people whom have a lot less in assets than he has but still think that they will never fall in to the rank of unfortunate or disabled.
I don''t believe in god, r75.\
I don''t believe that everyone needs to achieve the ''American dream'', r74, and I''m not a capitalist.\
I''m not American, r72, and your politics mean little to me.\
I just don''t feel the need to bail others out and I think it''s tacky that I''m asked to. It''s distasteful. It''s naive to think that every person in the world can live a middleclass existence. We need the poor. And we need the rich. And parents who choose to carry faulty pregnancies to term also choose to live with the consequences of that.\
I simply do not spare much thought for those I do not know personally and am offended that they think of me solely as a potential source of free funds. And that is my secret.
Not all disabilities are detected in the prenatal phase and many people become disabled after birth, and that can include you also R72.\
It''s a shame that you have no sense of moral obligation to anyone but yourself. But even you should realise that the fallout of a society that is poor and needy effects those on a higher level,too.
All white people are racist in that we are born into a set of advantages due to our race -- easier access to credit, jobs, education, good neighborhoods, etc.\
Inevitably we assume that we are better than other races because we do better (on average).\
It does not matter how we feel towards another race. It is how we act that matters. It''s just like a shop keeper who has to serve all races. No one cares what he feels like inside, it is how he acts that counts.\
Try to make your public attitude as racially neutral as possible. Consider how you are behaving towards others (but don''t dwell on it) and make adjustments.\
Eventually your private opinions will change. Fake it until you make it is the cliche.
My students think I''m just going through quitting a pack a day habit, but the truth is that I''m doing a full blown drug detox right in front of them. It''s unbelievably embarassing.
r28, I know you think how you feel is a secret, bunt it really isn''t. It comes off you in waves that the blacks in your life, even the so-called "friends" can feel. Black folks can always spot a racist white person because there are signals you send off and things you say that you''re not even aware of.\
And as for me while we''re doing race secrets I can say that I really, really have a hard time trusting white people for anything deeper than the most superficial relationships. You never truly know where you stand. They can smile in your face but won''t stick up for you when you''re not in the room because their comfort level is always the most important. And there are so few white people with more than one or two black friends that you always have to be the only black person at the party, which is just too weird.\
I believe in equality in work and everything else, but the older I get I wonder if we should all be true to ourselves and just stick to our own socially.
[quote]It''s a shame that you have no sense of moral obligation to anyone but yourself. But even you should realise that the fallout of a society that is poor and needy effects those on a higher level,too.\
To be fair, I do not begrudge the hundreds of thousands I pay in tax which supports the needy of my country, and will support me should I ever need it. That is not charity, that is a functional society.\
I speak only of charities which beg for donations. For instance, I refused to give a cent to America''s Katrina victims. Why should anyone gift money to the richest nation on Earth to mop up after their own government fucked them in the ass? Of course, millions of people DID give to the Katrina victims so I assume that, between the extremely wealthy American government and millions of dollars worth of charity from much poorer nations, everything in New Orleans is completely fixed now and everything is fine...
Yeah, R81, it''s a secret-sharing thread, not a thread for you to scold people. Piss off.
One of my married, female co-workers is having a lesbian affair with the bosses sister that use to work here. They have had sex in the office, kitchen. elevator.\
How do I know?\
Our IT person found the IM''s that they send back and forth to each other and told me. Also, the co-worker cruises lesbian porn sites, which have caused her computer to crash a number of times. Our IT guy has had to fix her computer numerous times and found all the porn.\
I am trying to find a way to parlay this into a nice payday for myself. I am trying to think of a fool proof blackmail scheme to squeeze a few bucks out of the co-worker. She doesn''t need to work and only does so to buy gifts for the grandkids.
I hope you''re fired and charged with a felony, r84.
troll-dar r2 and enjoy.
i loathe closet-cases
r72, why should you keep your views a "secret"? Those are in face very popular views in the US; you could probably run for office here if you were a citizen.
R85- Instead of being so fucking judgmental, you could help me come up with a plan! It is not my fault these bitches were fucking IN THE OFFICE. The fact they fucked in the kitchen, is beyond disgusting. Nasty bitches lapping up pussy juices on the kitchen counter!
R36, please get some help--no one here wants you to die.
I have two children, a son who I adore with all my heart, and a daughter who I loathe. I have tried to like her, but she is a pretentious and unkind person. I hid my feelings for most of my life, trying to maintain peace while my husband was alive. But my husband died several years ago, and I am determined to sever all ties with this horrible person. I feel guilty when I catch myself thinking it would be much simpler if she were to meet with an unfortunate "accident," like in the movie "A Perfect Murder." Oh dear, I''ve said too much.
I am taking ADHD drugs. Don''t really have ADHD but I want to do well in school. What I really have is Social Anxiety Disorder and probably some form of autism.
r84/88 - either you''re a really tiresome troll or you''re incredibly dense. \
You said you wanted to blackmail them. That is illegal and it is hateful.\
Use your fucking brain and come up with a plan that isn''t illegal.
r90: a daughter who I loathe.\
Gee. I started this thread for people just to tell secret, embarrassing things without discussion or goddam advice on what to do with $500,000. Damn trolls.
I pick my nose.
I''m the Pope.
The thought of someone losing their beloved pet has me upset...assuming some of you are being truthful about having money stashed away, can''t you help him out?
I would like someone to share the secret of which shower curtain liner doesn''t billow in on a person in a highly annoying fashion. Seriously.
One that has weights in it R98. Will probably be a bit more expensive but well worth it.
Thanks, r98. I have one with weights, but obviously they''re not weighty enough.
I''d really like to share my secret with you all, but it''s made me a very wealthy woman!
R81 - I''m white and I have never, could never and would never act that way.\
I''m sorry you feel that way and that you''ve experienced that.\
There really are good people of all races.
r80, your name. Is it Dan Dunne?
I saw that movie you were in.
Or you could try not opening the window until you are out of the shower
I have zero time for Muslims. I think they''re the scum of the Earth.
I still have a Ginsu knife from the 70s and dang if that thing still isn''t as sharp as it ever was. I just cut a JIF jar in half so the dog could lick it. Dang!\
I used to think my parents were bad, but after reading this...not so much.
I think I have the same kind of cancer that killed my father & uncle. Father died when he was 55, I''m almost 50. I''ve been at a temp service with no health insurance for the last year. But here''s the kicker. The company I''m temping at is the same company that laid me off last summer when I had health insurance. No surviving family members and no one to confide in except my lover that lives in the UK. I can''t bring myself to tell him because he''ll worry himself to death and he has to take care of his father that has Alzheimers. I"m trying to hold it together and get the house sold so I can move over there. It''s such a mess.
R107, move before the house is sold. Get a domestic partner visa and you''ll be eligible for the NHS immediately.
Boom. That''s the sound of R84''s scheme blowing up in his stupid face.
R107, Good luck to you. I hope everything turns out OK.
Good luck to everyone who is experiencing hardships (an understatement!) on this thread.\
R72, you really aren''t that uncommon. Remember, you are on DL. So you wouldn''t pity yourself if you were to get into a car accident and become paralyzed and dependent on others? A few million dollars in assets really isn''t that much when you face medical bills and need special care for the rest of your life. What country are from, by the way?\
Shower curtain guy: You need shower curtain clips available wherever bathroom accessories are sold. See the link.
R107, No ridicule from me if you discuss your fears here.
About 8 years ago, I was working at a European contemporary furniture store on the waterfront. I was alone one morning when this beautiful young guy, early 20''s comes in, proceeds to sit opposite my desk and just starts chatting away about school, life, friends, all the while madly flirting with me. I was in my late 30''s and wondered what the hell this guy was up to. I was a wreck, he was just too gorgeous. ...after about 20 minutes I blurted out "you''re driving me crazy" ...he laughed, I said I really wanted to kiss him. I pulled him behind a closed door and we kissed, I had his pants down, wanked him a bit, more kissing, then I buttoned him up and we were back out in the store. ...he stayed around a while as I did work. I know it sounds pretty lame, but I''m conservative, with a partner of 28 years and this remains a sweet memory for me. I guess it was a daddy thing fo him.
I believe that discrimination in business, education, housing, etc. should be illegal. But I prefer the company of members of my own race.
[quote][R72], you really aren''t that uncommon. Remember, you are on DL. So you wouldn''t pity yourself if you were to get into a car accident and become paralyzed and dependent on others? A few million dollars in assets really isn''t that much when you face medical bills and need special care for the rest of your life. What country are from, by the way?\
I might pity myself but I wouldn''t beg others for money. My bills would be paid by my private medical insurance and by public health care. As I have stated, I happily pay my exorbitant taxes which go towards health care and other government assistance for everyone who requires it.\
I think it is only in America and Third World Countries where the ill and the needy are not provided for by the state.
my 12 year old first cousin molested me when i was 6. i''m now late 40''s & saw him at my mom''s funeral. we had a "moment" in the receiving line, & i was attracted to him. i feel sick about it, but fantasize about fucking him.
Go buy one of those shower curtain rods that are bowed in a curve - works great. Or, if the weights aren''t heavy enough, add pennies.
R6, I wish I knew you sweetie; I would take your cat for you until things started working out. As someone posted, hopefully a friend will step in to help you out. Good Luck!
I''m a secret drinker%0D\
My parents are first cousins. We three kids turned out physically ok, no extra limbs.
When I was 12, I had my first real lesbian crush on a teacher. Now, 38 years later, we met online and became friends,and spend time together, but she has an older girlfriend that I''m not really fond of. My secret is, she still makes me feel nervous and all "melty",and I''m pretty sure I''m in love with her. I try not to think about it, and enjoy our friendship.
I''m in my late 30''s, college-educated, and have made my unemployment benefits laaaaast. %0D\
I haven''t worked in 2 years because I hate being treated differently for being gay at work. I lie and tell everyone I can''t find a job but I easily could b/c I''m a bright person.%0D\
I feel like the Mia Farrow character in "The Purple Rose of Cairo." I just want to feel safe and happy and loved...
I clicked on this thread hoping for a few laughs. This turned out to be one of the most depressing thread on DL. So long thread!
I have a cold right now. Hacking up gross shit. Instead of using Kleenex I just wipe it on the mattress, after spitting into my hand.
I have straight pubic hair and have a big bald spot in the middle of my bush.
I live in a very green city and my partner separates out all the recycling, but when I''m in a rush and cleaning the kitchen, I just put it all into one bag and throw it down the garbage shoot. I can''t be bothered to take labels off all the bottles and cans and put the recycling into 3 different places (the containers are not in the same place).\
I''ve always felt bad about it, but after reading this thread, I feel fine.
I was laxative bulimic on and off (usually on) for 7 years.\
No one ever knew anything. I didn''t do it if I was with other people.\
It took me 5 years to even realize that this was a real problem. Looking back I was a man with a severe eating disorder.
You''re not alone, R128. I was bulimic for close to 10 years--the traditional finger-down-the-throat variety. I did all mine in secret, although there were a couple of times I did it in public (casino buffets, etc). It''s scary to think of how I probably fucked up my long term health before I stopped.
[quote] have straight pubic hair and have a big bald spot in the middle of my bush.%0D\
That''s why I decided to shave. Waxing hurts to much.
I''m a Satanist who kills puppies for fun.
I''m dating Nick Carter.
He sends me flowers
I''m 2 sad 2 B B lieved.
I met a very dear friend of mine a week ago to wish him a Merry Christmas. He broke down in tears telling me that he was about to be evicted. He has been unemployed for more than 7 months now and is not very good with money. He has tried to start his own business in the interim, but it has been a dismal failure. At this point, he has not a cent to his name and no job prospects on the horizon. Against my better judgment, I leant him $2,000 to keep a roof over his head and to be able to eat. I don''t know if I''ll ever get that money back, but the thought of a friend getting evicted during Christmas and being essentially homeless made me very, very sad. I have not told anyone about this deed.
Did R6 even have a secret? He''s pissed none of his friends or favorite charities are helping him out, so obviously he''s told people of his circumstances.
I'm a 47 yr. old gay male and I've never had an orgasm with another person in the room. And I've never been in love, though I've had a couple relationships (my last with a sociopath who verbally abused me). My sex life has been pathetic by anyone's terms. My first experiences in my early twenties were with selfish jerks who made me feel unattractive. I look "normal", not fat or short or anything, kinda non-descript. But I can't seem to find anyone who thinks I'm attractive enough to bother with. %0D
It's affected my livelihood; why try to be a success just so you can sit on the couch and watch TV every night? It seems like a vicious circle: undesired -> uninspired -> poor -> undesired. I just scrape by on dumb entry-level clerical jobs. %0D
I'm funny, bright, caring, sharing etc. etc. But as I approach 50 it looks bleaker and bleaker. I don't want to have sex with anyone again until I find someone who can't wait to get their hands and mouth on me. Tired of being The Pleaser. %0D
I'm cynical now about relationships, as they all seem fake and based on material things. Whatever it is, I don't have "It". Just all seems like a waste of time.
So... What''s your secret, R137?
In 1999 my life took a bad turn. I was a 6 figure employee of a fortune 50 company who basically burned out on stress and had to leave. I then spent 3 years healing but could not afford to pay my taxes. Then until now I have worked to rebuild my life but afraid of the IRS finding me have not paid any taxes since then. I assume some day soon they will take me away. My partner who really saved me and showed me the good in people does not know. I am now so afraid of coming forward to the government.
I am in a very LTR but having an ''emotional affair'' with my ex.
I stole the pay and bonus list for my division when the old accounting guy had a problem with his computer. I don''t know what I was thinking.%0D\
He left his office to get out of my way. I printed it out and hid it in my jacket.%0D\
After I had fixed the problem, I started showing him where his files were. I clicked on the file drop down and the fucking thing was listed! I forgot about the recent items list. He got all suspicious but, ultimately, believed me when I said, "Gee, I don''t know why it''s there."%0D\
I never did anything with the list, but, to this day, I still feel like a creep for betraying his trust.
I''ve started doing webcam j/o shows. I think I''m starting to have a mid=life crisis.
Days off ahead with few responsibilities or places to have to show up. Would love to order up some rock and call in a hooker or another one or two looking to party. In days gone by I''d have been high through New Year''s Eve. The secret is I used to do it and am thinking about it. The fact is I probably won''t.
That was a good thing you did, R134. I agree you can probably consider the money gone, but at least you did something to help a fellow human being ... probably more than all those "keep Christ in Christmas" zealots put together have done.
As a very serious young Mary, I remember offering to cover for JC if he didn''t want to go through with it.
Are you straight?
I''m going through a deepening depression that could have tragic consequences--for me, that is. \
I know I need to resume therapy and get back on meds, but I keep finding excuses. Meanwhile, relationships are starting to suffer, my diet consists of me eating one meal a day, and I really don''t engage in any physical activity. I''m fairly new at my job and I just started grad school again so now''s not the time to fall apart!\
Think I''m exaggerating? Today, I haven''t gotten out of bed one single time. I woke up at 8 am and since then I''ve alternated between posting on DL, masturbating, and napping. I''m about to hook up my XBox so I can at least watch some movies or play some games.
R149, it''s okay to stay in bed sometimes. You need to recouperate from your job and attending classes. Nothing wrong with staying in bed occasionally on weekends. I''m sure you work hard and classes can be a lot of work.%0D\
At least you are posting on DL and watching a movie and playing games. Napping is good for recouperation too.
I stole highlighters, pens, post its, and white out from work this week.
guilty as charged
I am an exhibitionist
R72: Nazi who took a lot of gold stolen from the jews with him and slipped away to Argentina.
A friend molested me in my sleep when I was in middle school. That was almost 20 years ago. Never said anything ... until I told my therapist last week.
Ooh...a confession to a therapist that one was molested. Quel sorprise.\
Isn''t the point of most therapy to try to uncover some kind of abuse or molestation that either didn''t happen or was simply two kids being experimental?\
Get a real therapist. One who does cognitive-behavioral work rather than one who wants to to just come in and endlessly whine about your parents or uncover "being molested."
r155 = Unemployed cognitive-behavioral therapist
I was raped twice in my life. I never reported it to the police and hardly anybody knows about it. My therapist is the only person I''ve ever told the whole story to. \
People like r155 are why people like me think about killing ourselves.
I blew Richard Speck.
[R155] I knew I''d get attacked and, boy, it sure didn''t take long. I didn''t go to therapy because I was molested. I went bc I want to make changes in my life and, for once, actually be happy. (And, btw, how is it "2 boys being experimental" if I was asleep?) He also did other things, too. Telling someone felt good, and it made me realize this is at least part of the reason why I have trust issues with men/problems getting close to guys. Thus I am single. Different things work for different people. Now, since you''ve bashed someone else, you must feel soooooo superior. What a big man you are.
I''m not really Constance McCashin.
Constance McCashin, shoving an entire orange-flavored Hostess cupcakes in my maw
Katie Winters died from frozen armpits.
Ice Blue Secret
R72, I suspect that would be a surprise to very few people who know you.
When I was a kid, I was pissed off at this teenaged girl, she was the daughter of my dad''s boss. She was nasty to my mother. She wore contact lenses which were very expensive back in the 1960''s. I went into her bathroom and flushed one of the lenses down the toilet. She cried for hours, had to go back to wearing glasses since they couldn''t afford to replace the lost lens.
I am the Bad Seed reincarnated.
Years ago, I dated a guy in the seminary. I loved him and his giant dick, but he was a user and a liar. He dumped me for one of his buddies in the seminary. They planned to get ordained together and hopefully get posted to the same parish or city where they could continue their relationship. I was angry and pissed. I went to NYC to meet the head priest of the order and spilled my guts. After my revelation, both were thrown out and never ordained. My ex threatened to kill me, but instead moved to Florida where he got married, had a kid and teaches in a Catholic School.
I feel no guilt for what I did.
I am thinking of getting Juvederm injections in my face because my nasolabial folds are getting more pronounced. I''m 42 and I feel like it''s some time for sprucing up.
Thank God for Propecia
When I was in high school, my best friend and I would call her overweight, lonely cousin (we''re all female) and with each one of us on an extension, I would talk to her in a british accent, as a guy, and that I had a crush on her. She believed me. This went on for a little while.
despite having a pretty good education and some pretty good experience, I have been unemployed for almost 8 months and have no prospects or even hopes that things will get better. \
i generally feel that I will never be happy. all my friends are working at great jobs they love, they are in relationships, taking trips and having romantic weekends together, and I cant even go on a date. \
have never been clinically diagnosed as depression but this is assuredly what it is. sometimes I dont even feel like getting out of bed in the morning.
I''m in love with my father. My dick gets hard every time he hugs me. I''d leave my boyfriend in a minute if I knew my dad shared my feelings.
Me Love You Long Time............Until You''re Finished
163, contacts weren''t that expensive in the 60s. I started wearing them in 1966 and we were just middle class folk with a stay at home mom. How come your dad''s boss couldn''t afford a replacement? Sounds more like they thought their daughter had been careless and were punishing her by not replacing the lens.%0D\
Sounds like a righteous punishment for someone mean to your mom though. I would never have had the balls to do that.
The only person in my family who knows / realizes that I''m gay is my sister. My parents don''t know that my BF lives with me. When they come over to visit, they''re totally clueless as to why my "best friend" is always there!\
"Ummmm......he came over to watch the hockey game with me!"\
"Oh, how NICE! Have you met a NICE girl yet? The girl who works customer service at Kohls seems NICE! Maybe you should ask her out....""\
I''m not out, but I''m hoping to work up the nerve soon. I live in a small, conservative city in "flyover" country.
I used to escort all throughout college. I come from a wealthy family and never did it for the money. It honestly just turned me on to take money from needy, desperate (mostly older) men. I was doing a lot of acting at the time in college and found that I could easily turn off "me" and go into prostitute mode. I found it empowering and incredibly erotic. There was one guy who''d pay be $200 in cash twice a week to fuck me. I had so much more cash than someone in their late teens early/early twenties should ever have and usually just ended up putting it in a shoebox and forgetting about it. I never got an STD or HIV and came out of the whole experience relatively unscathed. %0D\
Years later, I was totally shocked when I saw the film "Klute" and ended up completely identified with Jane Fonda''s scenes with her psychiatrist. Her monologues were amazingly on point. My jaw dropped to the floor and the person I was watching it with thought I was having some kind of a moment. %0D
I keep getting pregnant and selling the babies to Angelina Jolie.
I am wealthy. My parents were in the drug trade.
I was prescribed PAXIL and Lorazepam 5 years ago for anxiety attacks that were terrifying. No therapy at the time. I thought the drugs were miracles, but after 5 years of no symptoms I stopped taking them. Within 2 weeks, the symptoms returned and I reached a point where I wanted to die from the emotional and physical pain. I went to the highest parking garage in downtown LA and was going to jump, but didn't. Instead, I went to an ER, where I was given some medications and introduced to a psychiatrist. We hit it off very well and I've seen him now for a year. I take PAXIL yet again and Clonazepam, and live a relatively normal life, while the therapy is helping me come to terms with repressed anger and fear. %0D
No one knows any of this, because I'm the kind of guy who always is outgoing and smiling to others. There are days when I feel a bit blue, like a cold stream of water is flowing through my subconscious, but I can "act" normal and managed as a regular person. I think this has taught me great humility and compassion for others, unlike the rich toad on this thread who never helps anyone and just boasts about how rich he is, then even rationalizes it by bringing God into it. How Republican can you get!%0D
I've had a rough past, but now am a hospital and hospice chaplain. I want to help others because I know what terror and fear are like.
R176, are you a woman or a man?
176. who didn''t turn at least one trick in college? I didn''t need the money, but felt like it was something to experience. Hardly worth it for $50, easier to hit my Pop for for $200.
This is R179 again. I have a husband who is wonderful. Nonetheless, I got a silly crush on Rodiney Santiago from A-List NY and let him fuck me one night here in LA (i started twittering him and sent him nude photos). I''ve actually regretted it ever since because he wasn''t the fantasy I had created from watching TV. My husband knows, and is OK with it....but inside I wonder if that is true.
I almost had sex with a co-worker%E2%80%99s husband. I wasn%E2%80%99t that attracted to him, but I couldn%E2%80%99t stand her, she%E2%80%99s one of those %E2%80%98happy%E2%80%99 types, always talking about her wonderful husband and life. He came on to me in a sleazy way during her birthday party, while she was dancing with her girlfriends. I didn%E2%80%99t do it and found it really hard to talk to her afterwards, though I became super nice to her. Thankfully, shortly after she left.
I do not find my Graduate Program to be particularly challenging and am making straight A''s without much effort. Others in the classes seem to be hustling, but I find myself wondering if the University I chose is really all that good after all.\
I am doing this just to get the degree, and don''t even want to pursue the career.
I have no idea why I do this or why I feel the need to admit it on here.\
When it is my turn to bring breakfast in for the office (six people tops), I get these really great, giant muffins from a local grocery store. They are 1.99 apiece.\
I take them to the self-check out lane and ring them up as donuts which are 50 cents apiece.\
I can afford the goddamned muffins, but I get some sort of thrill out of it all.
I live in Toronto, where a few years ago the stores all started charging 5 cents per plastic shopping bag. The stores keep the money it does nothing to help the planet, but they still call it an "environmental fee". So now everytime I go grocery shopping I steal something, usually something small like lip balm or gourmet cheese, something I can easily hide in a pocket or even in the bottom of the re-usable shopping bags we all have to carry now. \
It''s not stealing in my mind it''s a silent protest against an obvious cash grab by the stores.
I play the violin in a small quartet. We perform at a collection of private functions for wealthy/want to be wealthy clients. I am just not into the music anymore. I since I now have a growing passion in Death Metal music.
I am so depressed I can barely make it though the day. I think about suicide all the time. \
Oddly, very few people know this -- I tend to let other people''s energy take over my mood when I''m around them, so they think I''m in a good place.\
I can barely function and have no idea how I can live 50 more years.
sorry sad sack
At school I used to clone my bus ticket which was a paper weekly ticket. %0D\
I''d scan it onto my computer, alter the date and then present it to the busdriver and save %C2%A3%C2%A3%C2%A3 (am in the UK) on busfares for weeks. %0D\
I also used to save my school dinner money and bank it instead.
R171, how old are you? If you are in your 20s or 30s, you will come out okay.
r189 get to a doctor!
I was at a gem and mineral expo today and bought a couple of things. The woman checking me out was frazzled and charged me wholesale, as if I had a license and I did not say anything. \
I should have bought more, I may go back tomorrow.
To the people who are depressed, I know a couple posters here are advocates of Cognitive Behavorial Therapy, and it seems similar to mentoring/coaching style therapy. You are trained to detach the emotion from problems/people and events that make you emotional in a depressive/bad way. It''s a retraining of the brain. It does work.\
There are numerous books on the topic, and something I think is beneficial in exploring if you feel like you''re down. Other posters here have talked about it much, look into it if you feel it will be beneficial to you.
I became a heroin addict at age 28 after some unspeakable traumas. It was the only way I could emotionally cope with what had happened to me. I struggled with this addition for ten years until I went into rehab and stayed clean for almost five years. Then I relapsed. It started with pain pills, then alcohol, then anything I could get my hands on. I%E2%80%99ve been either full-on addicted to H since then, using other drugs/alcohol, or chipping. Sadly, heroin is the only drug that makes me feel "right." I don't nod out or get high, I just feel normal, or as normal as I can feel. I am not your typical junkie. I have always been employed and able to support myself and my family and pay my bills and hide my addiction very, very well. In some ways, that is even worse because you fight to maintain that veil of normalcy and, as a result, never hit the proverbial bottom. Lately, I find myself deeply depressed and thinking about suicide daily. I just don't have the guts to follow through %E2%80%93 yet. I am not in a relationship because every one I have been in in the past was horrid and I ended up getting screwed, and not in a good way. I understand R6. You just fight to keep your head above water for so long that you eventually wake up tired of life and wondering why you bother?
Depression Is Kicking My Ass
I sometimes wonder if I''m capable of genuine love.
No 196, get a dog, it will bring the love out in you.
Or at least you''ll have something to lick your balls
I still from the petty cash at work to pay my bar tab.
I seriously thought about getting FF''d, but my hips are too narrow.
R194, cognitive behavior treatment may work for light anxiety, but it won''t help someone who is so deep in a well of depression that they are thinking fondly of death. For Christ''s sake!! It is obvious that people who offer these sort of trite answers have not been through this particular form of hell.%0D\
THe answer is to seek professional maintream psychiatric help. For a short term, meds may help to chemically balance the brain and regain a sense of reality and self-control. Then CBT plus other therapies can be applied. %0D\
Depression is one mental disease that can be very successfully treated and handled. But so many people simply won''t go to the doctor and ask for help. So they just keep spinning downward until all they see around them is black. In such a condition, I doubt thinking happy thoughts in response to suicide thoughts is the answer. Get fucking real!!@
Years ago i went through a very self destructive sexual period. I pulled myself out of it, and must be immune to HIV as I remain negative.
R180, I''m a guy.
I hate Komen Foundation. And all that pink CRAP they claim raises money to cure breast cancer. %0D
When I get really pissed off at someone and want to hurt them, I steal the remote for their TV and throw it away. It clears my frustration seeing theirs.\
When I was young I once took my mom''s CD''s and sold them. She still talks about it and blames my sister in law for them going missing. Truth is I couldn''t stand listening to that shit anymore. Got a nice bottle of bourbon for it too.\
I really hate my FB friends. Well, the ones that use it. Their tedious posts irritate the fuck out of me. I want to delete them all, but deeper down I do care what my friends number is, and I don''t want to cause shit when they find out I deleted them.
I ate the Lindbergh Baby.
206, you left large chunks undigested as I''ve seen pictures of the corpse.
I fart a lot.
No 208, that is no secret.
I''m bipolar II and no one else knows -- not even my closest family members.
I am an alien. My spaceship crashed. And now I am impersonating a human being.
All righty then R207 , I ate MOST the Lindbergh Baby ( guess I shouldn''t have filled up dinner rolls first).
Eleanor Roosevelt ...(burp)
i''m waiting for my father to die and collect his life insurance... i havent spoke to him in decades\
he fucking owes me.
I cancelled my life insurance policy years ago, I know that fucking little ingrate son of mine is just waiting for me to die.\
Well SURPRISE Mary!
BTW, hope you got $10,000 saved up for my funeral , Mary!
R10, hilarious. Thank you.
My depression and anxiety especially are making me miserable. I was on Zoloft, and I guess it worked a bit but the anxiety side effect was awful. My insurance just lapsed, but I hope for it to be picked up by my union again soon. It''s so weird in that it just happens, even though everything in my very modest life is fine. Maybe it''s money related, as I live pretty much paycheck to paycheck, and have never been a big earner.
I''m on the verge of financial ruin and have no idea what to do...I feel the world is collapsing in on me and I have no way to avoid it\
stocking up on sleeping pills
I''m planning to go on my first vacation in many years in November and I''m going to be the slut I''ve fantasized about\
nothing reckless just plan on blowing every guy who comes my way
I''m in serious serious debt and considering doing porn to help pay off some bills
R218 It happened to me. The business I had been working in for two decades collapsed. There were massive layoffs. I lost everything. Every damn thing. I sold off my belongings to keep myself afloat, until I had nothing else to sell.\
I knew I my eviction was inevitable. I was months behind, and the landlord sooner or later was going to say to me "It''s time to go."\
I, too, "stocked up" on pills for that moment that I knew was coming. The moment came.\
My timing was off, and I woke up in a hospital two days later.\
I finally confided in a good friend, leaving out the part about the pills and the hospital. He asked me to come stay with him until I could get myself going again.\
I hope and pray that you have a friend like that. He saved my life. Please tell somebody what''s happening. I wish I could do something for you.
Too Many Secrets
R219, Have a great trip ! Just be careful the tour director may throw you off the motorcoach if you get caught doing that on the way to Branson.
I've had an on-again, off-again five-year affair with a married friend of mine. Both of us are delusional in that we think we're just good old friends with occasional benefits. And oh yeah he has spoken to me about how his wife says he's serially monogamous (before we fuck).
The Man in the Moon is a Lady.
I love my husband, but I often fantasize about porn stars or handsome guys I've seen on TV when we fuck.
Sometimes people find me annoying.
I think they're just fucking jealous so fuck 'em.
PS.When I meet someone I intuitively know finds me annoying, I go to the bathroom and pick my nose ensuring a boogey adheres to my finger. I then go and find any excuse to touch them/their shoulder etc to leave said boogey on them. Ha-fucking-ha.
I have 40,000 dollars in CC debt, 40,000 in college loans, owe 10,000 on a car and I make 53,000 a year.
I fucking hate every single person I work with and when I leave next year I am never going to talk to any of them again. They have no clue I feel this way about them.
Wow, I read that thread and understand how so many of you leave scathing, resist, hurtful remarks on to others. Do us a favor and take the fucking pills.
I suppress a secret desire to trip the idiot walking in front of me who's texting when he should pull his head outta his ass and watch where he's going!
I have that same desire, R231, except I just want to bump into those idiots from behind when they suddenly slow down and then push them as hard as I can.
I told my partner, when we first met that I have my MBA. We've been together 5 years and I've not been able to tell him the truth, that I never even finished my bachelors. I'm ashamed and I supposed this makes me a liar, but I cannot bring myself to tell him. I love him so much and he's the most honest, gentle human I've ever met in my life.
I think some hippie type men are sexy, except when they were shoes with toes.
I read back through a few pages to see if I posted this already, and I couldn't find it.
But if you've seen this before, I apologize.
I live in a house I inherited which has no running water and no heat. The roof leaks in several places.
I work two part-time jobs and barely have enough to feed myself, pay the electric bill, the phone bill, internet access, keep gas in my car to get to work, property taxes...
I have a relative who lives three houses away from me who lets me take showers and wash clothes at her house in exchange for lawn-mowing, doing her grocery shopping (she has vision problems and can't see well enough to drive), taking her to the doctor now and then, etc.
Sometimes I use her kitchen to cook hot food, too. And since she has limited vision, I cook for the two of us sometimes, too, sharing the expense of the food. I know she's grateful for my help, she couldn't make it without me and would probably have to go into some kind of institution or nursing home.
But I hate living this way.
My jobs require me to maintain a facade of middle-class respectability, and no one I no has any idea whatsoever that I live this way.
I never invite anyone to my house and on the two or three occasions in the past 10 years someone has come by unannounced and without an invitation, I told them I was about to leave and couldn't have company. And of course they could tell I live in an old run-down place and didn't want company.
I'm afraid I'll never be able to leave this horrible place, and that if my friend/cousin has to go into a care facility, I'll be in real trouble.
More from R55 and R61, please.
Making stray cats wear AIDS ribbons.
Sorry, wrong thread.
lol at r238
I still think about someone who dumped me ten years ago (well, my therapist knows, so this is not a total secret).
I have to finger donut holes to get hard.
I just made $10,000 going on a five-day "date."
R243, you SLUT!
Chung Ho have many shames. He leaves North Korea and go to American to express gayness. But I keep no secret. Feel shame that family is not eating well because punishment comes from those who leave Mr. Kim. Mr. Kim only thinks of rockets and not the kind in pockets. Family needs much food and Chung Ho needs to be gayness.
As a clerical worker, my boss lent me to the Human Resources office for a week as a warm body to fill the office while Human Resource employees were attemding a week long team building seminar. It was dull and boring to be just a placesetter and I was resenting my boss for taking me away from my full inbox so I went to the filing cabinets and opened all the personnel files of the people I knew and looked through their file, read their performamce reviews and looked at how much they were making. Especially my boss. I feel guilty because this is totally not in my character. But I guess it is in my character because I did it.
The real reason why I'm so thin? I have sores on my tongue and it pains me to eat anything. Whenever the old one is healed I get myself a new painful one. When you connect eating with uncomfortable pain you eat barely anything.
It's now past the statute of limitations and I plan on having it erased from my credit report using some of the methods I gleand for the insider secrets thread here at Datalounge!
R11 - Can you share some of these secrets or the link to that discussion?
R233, if he's the kindest human being then he will love you regardless of your degree. I didn't finish my Bachelor's either, but my husband thought I did. When I started making arrangements to go back to school, he saw the envelopes from colleges coming in and I finally told him. He said it didn't matter to him at all, that he loved me and not a piece of paper.
R253, the crux of the issue is NOT that you did not have the 'piece of paper'.
The issue is one of deceiving, lying, possibly not being able to apply for certain jobs without having finished a bachelors degree.
Not finishing college represents some things about a person - in that, why did you not finish? What are your aspirations, goals, etc without a bachelors degree? Why did you feel the need to cover this up? Are you on the same or similar intellectual level as your boyfriend?
I have a really embarrassing number of self-help books on my Kindle.
I tell all my lovers I'm HIV- when I'm HIV+ and I do condomless sex only.
So far no one has complained.
I masturbate with a condom on--saves on all the cleanup.
Mr. Clean (did you know I was gay despite the earring?)