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Were you ever molested as a child?

I have met an unusually large number of gay men who were abused as kids.

I'm not saying that being molested caused the homosexuality--most predators specifically choose most docile kids or the one who show gay characteristics.

Were you ever molested?

by Anonymousreply 117September 16, 2019 6:44 PM

I was molested.

by Anonymousreply 1August 22, 2014 1:27 PM

I was never molested, even though I went to a Boston Catholic school that, time showed, was notorious for the priests abusing the kids. What I've discovered, though, is that pretty much every straight-living married men whom I've had sex with HAD been molested as a child. My guess is that they're willingly putting themselves in a situation and telling themselves they want it, hoping it will help them deal with the memory of a similar situation in which they didn't have any choice or power.

by Anonymousreply 2August 22, 2014 1:38 PM

Nope. When I was 14 I went to my Sunday School teacher's house after school and lifted weights in his basement. He would train me, show me how. He liked to do that as a "perfect male Christian role model" type of thing. He was married and handsome and buff and charismatic.

I wanted him to get sexual with me SOOOO FREAKING BAD! But he never did.

by Anonymousreply 3August 22, 2014 1:42 PM

R3, he just had the decency to masturbate AFTER you left.

by Anonymousreply 4August 22, 2014 2:21 PM

Nope, sorry.

by Anonymousreply 5August 22, 2014 2:53 PM

No, but I think our church organist wanted to play my organ, starting when I was in seventh grade.

by Anonymousreply 6August 22, 2014 3:15 PM

Nope. Why no poll?

by Anonymousreply 7August 22, 2014 3:16 PM

Yeah a poll would make more sense, and no.

Me and my cousin used to fool around on sleepovers when we were both kids, but nothing naughty from anyone older

by Anonymousreply 8August 22, 2014 3:18 PM

I consented to sex with older men as a young teenager (13 and 14)... I suppose you could call that 'molested' but I have no issues.

I think the 'unusually large number' may just be perception, since str8 men aren't that open about being molested as children.

by Anonymousreply 9August 22, 2014 4:20 PM

That's funny, Op. I have met an unusually large number of women who were abused as kids.

I'm not saying that being molested caused their femaleness--most predators specifically choose most docile kids or the one who show female characteristics.

by Anonymousreply 10August 22, 2014 4:25 PM

OP starts this thread every few months. He/she has an unhealthy obsession/fetish about pedophilia. Frau or right wing shitstain?

by Anonymousreply 11August 22, 2014 7:47 PM

I was a fat kid, so child molesters didn't bother with me. I got enough physical and emotional abuse from teachers, classmates, and other authority figures, my Dad included, to fuck me up just as much.

by Anonymousreply 12August 22, 2014 7:50 PM

No. I was a complete virgin until 21.

by Anonymousreply 13August 22, 2014 7:56 PM

yup, at the orphanage. seriously.

by Anonymousreply 14August 22, 2014 7:57 PM

No, and I'm 61 now. Is it too late?

by Anonymousreply 15August 23, 2014 12:04 AM

My 16 year old cousin molested me several times when I was about four years old. When I told my mom about it about 30 years later when he was dying of AIDS, she slapped me and said I was lying.

by Anonymousreply 16August 23, 2014 12:11 AM

Technically yes. I walked in on rwo older guys (teenagers) fucking each other and insisted on getting in on the action or I was going to tell on them.

I was six at the time.

by Anonymousreply 17August 23, 2014 12:12 AM

I have met an unusually large number of idiots who were dropped on their heads as infants. Can you confirm this, OP?

by Anonymousreply 18August 23, 2014 12:19 AM

No, and it totally fucked me up. Why weren't any adults attracted to me? I've had negative body image and self-esteem issues ever since.

by Anonymousreply 19August 23, 2014 12:34 AM

Not as a child. I was 16. The molestation aspect fits because it was a practiced seduction by a serial younger-teen chaser (I looked young for my age) and his lies and manipulations created issues it took many years to work through.

by Anonymousreply 20August 23, 2014 1:14 AM

Homosexuality is caused by

A) Being molested as a child

B) Domineer mother and weak father.

by Anonymousreply 21August 23, 2014 1:36 PM

I think homosexuality is caused by the desire to have sex with someone of the same sex.

But I could be mistaken.

by Anonymousreply 22August 23, 2014 1:43 PM

Homosexuality is caused by genetics.

I went to a school run by priests and was never touched at all!!

How I wish the hairy gym teacher had!!

by Anonymousreply 23August 23, 2014 1:45 PM

[quote]Not as a child. I was 16. The molestation aspect fits because it was a practiced seduction by a serial younger-teen chaser (I looked young for my age) and his lies and manipulations created issues it took many years to work through.

Oh, get over it already, Michael.

by Anonymousreply 24August 23, 2014 1:46 PM

If you say "No," you must have been one ugly child.

by Anonymousreply 25August 23, 2014 1:46 PM

r21, most men who were molested as kids are heterosexual.

by Anonymousreply 26August 23, 2014 3:25 PM

Why was the thread about the Toronto teacher deleted?! like WTF?! that thread was really interesting and it was popular too. Was it deleted because it turned into a pedophilia debate?

by Anonymousreply 27August 23, 2014 8:20 PM

R25 piles on R19 I see.

by Anonymousreply 28August 23, 2014 8:21 PM

Many, if not most, of the people in the sex industry were molested as children. There has been quite a lot of research done on this.

by Anonymousreply 29August 23, 2014 8:28 PM

Yes. It took years to get over the guilt - it's helped me relate to many of my female friends, in some part, though. It actually prevented me from accepting my homosexuality for quite some time. Ironically, to this day, I prefer older men.

by Anonymousreply 30August 23, 2014 8:30 PM

I was a slutty child. I remember trying to seduce a fat bald older man in a jacuzzi at a Holiday Inn on a family road trip.

by Anonymousreply 31August 23, 2014 10:13 PM

Yes. But not by that much older. Boys my age and a year younger. Nothing serious as they wouldn't have known what to do. They just wanted to kiss me. Yeah, I was a pretty kid.

by Anonymousreply 32August 23, 2014 10:40 PM

I was never molested as a child. I know this doesn't sound right but now I don't feel fortunate but simply like I was one fucking ugly kid. I grew up in the 60s and 70s in a catholic environment.

Honestly when I was a young adolescent I was more than ready to be with a hot daddy. The memories I will never have!

by Anonymousreply 33August 23, 2014 10:50 PM

There were a few adults in my childhood that I really wanted to molest me. It was very frustrating.

by Anonymousreply 34August 23, 2014 11:02 PM

I cant tell you the number of times straight people have asked me this very question ! I always tell them the truth,wich is ,no. But I started developing at 11,was very active by age 12,first time getting fucked was by my 36 year old neighbor at 13,and by 14 I was letting 5 brothers in a rural town outside waycross ga pull a train on me (Long live the Mumby's!) . I don't know how or why I was so forward sexually,I wasn't raised in a sexual environment ( but it was the 60s) but all I know is when I grew hair "down there" I was more than ready to have sex. And they always act like they think Im lying about being molested !

by Anonymousreply 35August 23, 2014 11:05 PM

R35, are you male or female?

by Anonymousreply 36August 23, 2014 11:16 PM

"Many, if not most, of the people in the sex industry were molested as children. There has been quite a lot of research done on this."

What research? Does this research only exist in your head? There was a study of porn stars that actually showed they were no more likely to have been molested than other people.

by Anonymousreply 37August 23, 2014 11:50 PM

yes, by a cousin. Told my mother but she didn't believe me. She ignored it. Didn't give a shit actually. I wasn't her favorite child...that's why. She even stole my inheritance decades later. She is not in my life. I don't ever want to see her again, I don't even want to go to her funeral, maybe I will go just to spit in her grave.

by Anonymousreply 38August 24, 2014 12:08 AM

yes

by Anonymousreply 39August 24, 2014 12:15 AM

Abused yes, molested no.

by Anonymousreply 40August 24, 2014 5:19 AM

Two female relatives were molested by the same disgusting creep str8 male relative, he was related through marriage. Besides being a pedo, this creep caused other family problems.

My parents had the sense to tell me and my sibling to never to be alone with him. I think a lot of kids get molested because their parents don't warn them against predators.

Today parents discuss sex, but when I was a kid, sex wasn't even discussed, which meant most parents surely weren't telling their kids about perverts. Of course, they tell us not to go in someone's car etc, but being molested was never mentioned. Just that you might get abducted and killed!

From discussions with my friends, it seems every family has a weirdo pedo uncle or male cousin. Most molestations are done by str8 men.

The two female relatives who were molested, one is str8, she was very promiscuous as a teen, I lost count of how many guys she was with, she started fucking at around 13, the other is a lesbian in a long term relationship.

Being molested as a child, can totally turn people off to having sex at all, your trust isn't there because you were abused by someone you trusted.

by Anonymousreply 41August 24, 2014 7:02 AM

Male , R36.

by Anonymousreply 42August 24, 2014 1:57 PM

"Being molested as a child, can totally turn people off to having sex at all, your trust isn't there because you were abused by someone you trusted."

Most people say stuff like this to scare molested kids into believing that they will be messed up freaks when they grow up (even though it's not true).

by Anonymousreply 43August 24, 2014 3:56 PM

No and neither were any of my boyfriends. Only a straight female friend has told me she was abused as a child. And she isn't a lesbian now.

by Anonymousreply 44August 24, 2014 3:59 PM

I was molested by my pediatrician. Years later I found out my brother was too

by Anonymousreply 45August 24, 2014 8:04 PM

R21, Your second point may have some merit, your first however, is total fiction.

by Anonymousreply 46August 24, 2014 8:11 PM

I have no memory of being molested but sometimes I'm not so sure.

Anytime I watch a film with a scene of sexual abuse or rape I have an extreme reaction.

I had major panic attacks, hyperventilated and passed out while trying to watch the last 15 minutes of "The Accused" and the last 20 minutes of "Scum"

Even now thinking about those scenes of rape make me anxious and shaky.

by Anonymousreply 47August 24, 2014 9:28 PM

No I was no molested. I had a great childhood. Most gay men were not molested, that is right wing propaganda to paint us as damaged.

by Anonymousreply 48August 24, 2014 9:33 PM

I was at a picnic with the family, I must have been around 9 or 10. Walked toward what I thought the horses might be, man said he did not see any horses and proceeded to rub my crotch, I was so scared, he performed oral sex on me..never told the family...my BIG mistake. I would see him at church, his mother would walk in and he was behind her..they had money.

by Anonymousreply 49August 24, 2014 9:39 PM

•°~°•

by Anonymousreply 50August 28, 2014 10:20 AM

R29 Interesting! I was molested and abused. I am currently a male stripper, and will perforn completely nude with my dick hard

by Anonymousreply 51August 30, 2014 6:58 PM

r51, being molested has nothing to do with being a sex worker.

by Anonymousreply 52August 30, 2014 7:09 PM

Yep, by my brother. He was 7 years older. I always had some weird memories in my head, but couldn't really figure out what it was, but they started coming back in the last 10 years or so.

I always had memories of physical abuse--he beat me up and harassed me until I got old enough to fight back. But I now know he for sure he had sex with me when I was really young. I remember being in the twin bed and him covering my mouth. I really think I blocked it out immediately.

I've never told anyone in my family. He died after a long illness (he was sick his whole life) a few years ago. I never went to see him in the hospital and didn't really want to attend the funeral.

In my family's eyes, he was the poor "sick one" who left behind a daughter and I'm just the gay asshole who didn't care.

Ugh, I'm feeling sick now.

by Anonymousreply 53August 30, 2014 7:29 PM

bump

by Anonymousreply 54September 1, 2014 2:22 AM

I am a gay man and I was never molested as a child.

It left me permanently scarred.

I will always go through life wondering why I am not good enough.

by Anonymousreply 55September 1, 2014 2:53 AM

No.

by Anonymousreply 56September 15, 2019 1:15 AM

No, unfortunately.

by Anonymousreply 57September 15, 2019 1:20 AM

Yeah. The people you least expect, I suspect.

by Anonymousreply 58September 15, 2019 1:20 AM

Yes and its hard to talk about it. Also I had a boyfriend who was molested by his grandfather when he was 3 yo. Both me and him had addiction problems and severe sex and intimacy issues. we aren't together anymore but we still talk and somehow support each other.

by Anonymousreply 59September 15, 2019 1:30 AM

Yes. The father of one the neighborhood families. He did weird stuff to me that I just don't understand to this day. This was in the 70's and as I got older I just shut down sexually. I haven't had sex in over 30 years.

by Anonymousreply 60September 15, 2019 1:31 AM

Nope.

by Anonymousreply 61September 15, 2019 1:34 AM

Most gay people were never molested. Most people who were molested as kids are - shock! - straight.

Stop spreading lies and stereotypes, OP

by Anonymousreply 62September 15, 2019 1:35 AM

I was raped but not molested.

by Anonymousreply 63September 15, 2019 1:43 AM

Yes. by older boys in the neighborhood.

by Anonymousreply 64September 15, 2019 1:46 AM

No. Intimate friends and lovers have always thought I was as I tend to act like someone who was around matters of sex but if it happened, I have absolutely no memories. Playing around with peers, sure. But no adult molestation.

by Anonymousreply 65September 15, 2019 1:50 AM

I copy and pasted this from the Ricky Garcia Thread...

As someone who was abused at the same age as Ricky Garcia (boy bander suing his perp), there is one fundamental thing that is never addressed, and that is the reason it happened 20 times. The reason it happened so many times is because it feels good. That is why it is very confusing for 12 year old boys. And rape implies violence. He wasn't raped violently, he was seduced by a man who showed him how his body works. It's very easy to convince a 12 year old that they are enjoying the touch because their dick is hard.

Now, as an adult, he's realized that he wasn't participating in consensual touch. He was groomed and seduced and betrayed by someone he trusted and loved. Now, he'll be fucked up for life. A man sexualizing a boy intercepts the boy's natural sexual orientation and then they grow into men who are confused as to what they desire. These men usually identify as bisexual, or some sort of neutral label.

by Anonymousreply 66September 15, 2019 2:02 AM

I wasn’t molested but pedo tried to recruit me to find him girls (not too sharp was he) when I was 15. It was really strange looking back on it but he was mid 30s, pillar of society type and he had an obsession with very young girls, calling them nymphets. He would show me clippings from teenage magazines where girls spoke about boys they had crushes on or articles from experts telling girls masturbation was normal. He would shove them in my hand and say “see they want it”. He would go on and on about how 10 years old should be allowed to marry and the evil feminists were trying to disrupt nature. He mentioned Roman Polanski a lot too but I didn’t know who he was at the time. I thought he was super weird but when I told my parents he was a weirdo they gave out to me because he was such a pillar they wouldn’t hear any criticism.

I couldn’t take anymore and cut off all contact with him when he was pressuring me to bring “little girls” over to his house for a party and “fun”. Even though at the time I didn’t fully grasp what was going on I still feel pangs if guilt for not reporting him to someone or doing something and I really hope he never acted on his sick desires.

My ex was raped when he was 13 but at the time his abuser convinced him he was the one who initiated the sex and he was the one who had wanted it. My ex was in therapy when we met and doing well considering but he was reluctant to share his story because he beloved it wasn’t a good look for the gay community. His hangup was everyone thinks we were all molested so even if they express some sympathy they’ll so home and say “that explains it”. I heard a similar sentiment from a lesbian friend recently when Ellen shared her molestation story on Letterman. She said all her life people have asked her if she was molested as a child and she thinks Ellen and Rosie sharing their stories will just give wings to an already prevelant stereotype.

by Anonymousreply 67September 15, 2019 2:45 AM

Gay man here and no was never molested. I did use to hang at a business when I was 17 after they closed in the evening and visit with the owner a 30 something gay man. Lots of guys from school would hang there in the evenings he would give up sodas to drink and often order pizza. I knew I was gay then but wasn't out to anyone. One evening when we were there alone, just him and me, he came up behind me and kissed me, then he went up stairs without saying a word where he had a bed and didn't come back down. It sort of pissed me off that he would just assume I was open to that and I left and never went back, not being out yet I was sort of a screwed up mess. I wasn't attracted to him in the least, he had a boyfriend who I was very attracted to and if he had been the one who kissed me who knows what would have happened.

by Anonymousreply 68September 15, 2019 2:46 AM

No, I was never molested. It actually bothers me that so many people think that, because I'm Catholic, and grew up around priests, that I must have been molested. No, just no. Some of my cousins were also my high school teachers, so I guess there was lots of opportunity there. But nothing ever happened.

by Anonymousreply 69September 15, 2019 2:47 AM

Yes, I was.

by Anonymousreply 70September 15, 2019 2:50 AM

At age 13, I was assaulted (sexually and otherwise) by 4 boys who were all 1-2 years older than me. It only happened one time. But it seriously messed me up for about 40 years. I have never had a fulfilling sex life because of it. I don’t know what happened to 3 of them, but the 4th is C-list broadcast person on a sports network and I struggle every time his Joe-Republican face comes on television.

by Anonymousreply 71September 15, 2019 3:00 AM

Yes and once a psych asked “do you think that’s why your gay”. I found this very hurtful.

by Anonymousreply 72September 15, 2019 3:04 AM

I never thought/perceived that I was, but a neighbor of mine was a bit handsy and inappropriate.

A number of people in my youth group apparently were (as teenagers).

by Anonymousreply 73September 15, 2019 3:07 AM

I’m a gay male, 47 years old. I was molested by my older half-brother when I was 5. I do remember being interested in boys before this happened. I think it did affect me in some ways. I always felt like I had a huge, weird secret. I didn’t tell my parents until I was 30, and that same week they found out my mom had a heart attack. It was her son that molested me. My dad was angry that they had let him babysit me all those years ago. I don’t blame my parents. I did wait to have Wes until I was 23. I tried it with girls first...didn’t really like it. Finally tried guys at 31. I do feel fairly well adjusted. I’ve not had depression or substance abuse issues...I’m healthy, happy and productive. I did lots of personal work on myself in my 20s and 30s. Someone mentioned the confusion over the act itself feeling good...which is true. It wasn’t physically painful. Emotionally painful years later. But I often wonder if it’s more of a reaction to how other people perceive me as being a male that was molested. I think people expect that I should be damaged over what happed...but I’ve never let what happened to me define me or be a reason I thrive in life or not. It was simply a series of incidents that happened to my body as a child.. I give it no more meaning than that.

by Anonymousreply 74September 15, 2019 3:11 AM

[quote]r66 He would go on and on about how 10 years old should be allowed to marry and the evil feminists were trying to disrupt nature.

This is sadly comical. A 10-year-old as a spouse? You'd have to hire a sitter when you went off to work.

And every dinner table conversation would be, "Must we have peanut butter and jelly again, served on your [italic]stupid doll tea set??"

by Anonymousreply 75September 15, 2019 4:22 AM

yes

by Anonymousreply 76September 15, 2019 6:07 AM

Not as such as it was more like an assault.

A social worker tried to have a go at a school careers event. He made some borderline comments, I smiled along vaguely. About an hour he later sidled up behind me and slid his hand down my pants and touched my anus. It happened really fast and I swing around pretty fast and knocked him to the ground. Like an idiot I apologised. He got up and licked his finger. My 15-year-old virgin self was aghast. I told my (female) homeroom teacher what happened and she brushed it off.

I instantly told my parents who called the police. The principal was pissed. Fortunately my parents were rich and my mom a lawyer and her brother on the board. My home room teacher told the police that I told her that he tried to hold my hand. Lying bitch.

by Anonymousreply 77September 15, 2019 6:35 AM

[quote]I did wait to have Wes until I was 23

Who was Wes? How old was he? Was he cute?

by Anonymousreply 78September 15, 2019 7:45 AM

r71

Did they assault you because they knew/suspected you were gay?

by Anonymousreply 79September 15, 2019 7:57 AM

No, but that has happened to a couple of previous partners, it messes people up bad in many cases

by Anonymousreply 80September 15, 2019 12:19 PM

r79 Yes, and this was before I had any attractions that I was aware of. It was a few laters that I realized my sexuality but felt awful about it because of the incident. Sort of like, "OMG, they were right about me." I'm well beyond that now - but it was a journey.

by Anonymousreply 81September 15, 2019 6:24 PM

I was sexually assaulted when I was 17 by several men over the course of a year. I also had sex with my mother and was severely traumatized.

by Anonymousreply 82September 15, 2019 6:32 PM

I never was, nor aspired to be like some upthread, but I have known a number of gay guys who were, and the most disturbing thing about it, in some cases, is the casual dismissal of it on the part of the molested, even though their lives are a mess and they're unable to have a meaningful relationship. One guy I know actually brags about getting fucked when he was 12 by an uncle. He has all kinds of problems he doesn't acknowledge and has alienated a lot of people because of it. He's also a legit sex addict.

by Anonymousreply 83September 15, 2019 6:37 PM

[quote]being molested has nothing to do with being a sex worker.

A stripper is a stripper.

A hooker (sEx wOrKeR DuRrR!) is a hooker.

by Anonymousreply 84September 15, 2019 6:49 PM

r83 I am just like your friend. This is why abuse is so horrible for kids. I too had to be convinced that I was a victim and not a participant.

Dismissing it, is a coping mechanism. Bragging about sex at 12 is also a way justifying his enjoyment of the sex even though is was wrong. I enjoyed it. I sought it out even after one guy raped me violently. I literally raced home and hid from him for 3 or 4 weeks and then found myself knocking on his door, looking for more sex. I was 12!

Sex Addiction (hypersexuality) is a common side effect of child abuse.

by Anonymousreply 85September 15, 2019 6:50 PM

So is anonymous sex. Presenting hole to strangers etc.

by Anonymousreply 86September 15, 2019 6:52 PM

I NEVER had anonymous sex. I always asked for a name, even through a gloryhole.

by Anonymousreply 87September 15, 2019 6:56 PM

(Somehow I hijacked the Bo Sinn thread with my abuse story.. I as addressing Gay 4 Pay. I moving this over here, where it belongs.)

Someone asked if my abuse made sex with men easier.

It tore down boundaries that I would've normally had with boys. I had no sexual boundaries with boys. As an adult, I have no sexual boundaries with men. I didn't understand why i had crushes on girls but wanted to be sexual with boys. It's because I was taught how to have sex with men, but I was wired to be straight. I'm still that way. What does that make me? Am i gay? I don't have romantic feelings for men, but find them sexually appealing. It's the "imprinting" that occurs, when a boy is sexualized. I've never been in a relationship with a man, nor never met a man I wish I could date. And yet, I've met plenty of men, I wanted to fuck! I totally get the gay 4 pay thing, because had I been given the opportunity, in my foolish youth, i probably would have done gay porn.

by Anonymousreply 88September 15, 2019 6:57 PM

I think the really heartbreaking thing about many cases of molestation is the molested kid believes he's in love with his molester and once the molester dumps him he then spends his life pining for that love and never finding it again. As though the molester marked or branded him for life. It's deeply sad.

by Anonymousreply 89September 15, 2019 7:02 PM

I have never been molested.

by Anonymousreply 90September 15, 2019 7:02 PM

[quote]nor never met a man I wish I could date.

Double negative, r89. We don't do that in English. You would have to say "Nor have I ever met a man ..." or, alternately, "but I never met a man who ..."

by Anonymousreply 91September 15, 2019 7:07 PM

It made me feel ugly and used. It makes it hard to trust if I’m good enough for love or even sex. So at the moment I’m pretty much celibate.

by Anonymousreply 92September 15, 2019 7:08 PM

“The Tale” on HBO was a very insightful take on child molestation. Laura Dern was great. More importantly, it’s the first statutory rape film/discussion I’ve seen that is nuanced and shows how a 13 year old thinks they are making the decision to have sex. The movie portrayed well how a molester can take advantage - it’s not n cessation violent or unwilling sex. It made me think twice about the sex I had at 16 with older men - even though I actively sought it out. It’s rarely black and white.

by Anonymousreply 93September 15, 2019 7:08 PM

r91 Really? Seriously, really? Here's a crazy thought! Sometimes when you're typing, and thinking, you mind moves faster than your fingers and then we're left with typos. My post is also riddled with misspellings, missing words and fucked up punctuation!

You must have assburgers!!!! Because, if THAT is what you gleaned from a thread on molestation you must be lacking social skills!

by Anonymousreply 94September 15, 2019 7:20 PM

Yup. For a year when I was 14 by a teacher. He later went to jail when his wife caught him fucking a 13 year old in their basement.

by Anonymousreply 95September 15, 2019 7:34 PM

r88, here. **I was also asked "What have your relationships with women been like? Was your abuse by an adult male or an older child?"

I have only dated women, and sexually it's been okay. The first time I had sex with a woman it felt like something was missing. (a cock, frankly) Sex with men is better, because I feel more comfortable and less self-conscious with men.

First time I was five. A male babysitter (a teenager ?)

I had relations with both men and peers during my tween/teen years. When I started puberty, I think I was catnip for pedophiles, but it was a coach, then a teenage boy (16 probably). I was 12 when each one got me. I was completely receptive to it. I thought of it as consensual until I got some therapy. LOL.

r89 I definitely felt intense feelings for these two. My coach, it was more lust. The 16 year old, it was the idea of us being best friends. I had no friends at that age, and was very lonely. They both disappeared from my life suddenly, and I think It laid the groundwork for "abandonment issues". I desperately longed for them for years and years.

by Anonymousreply 96September 15, 2019 7:40 PM

Technically, yes.

I was in a hospital for almost a month during 6th grade. At some point during the stay, an orderly picked me up in a wheelchair for a specialist appointment. He brought me into an exam room, had me stand up, pulled up the front of my gown, and gently fondled my testicles. Afterward, he said I was in the wrong room and delivered me to the right room.

I was well aware of my interest in boys at least two years before this incident, so I don't think it affected my eventual confirmation as a Kinsey 6. I don't remember bad or icky feelings.

by Anonymousreply 97September 15, 2019 7:56 PM

[quote] You must have assburgers!!!!

Oh, dear.

by Anonymousreply 98September 15, 2019 8:04 PM

It's called punning, R98.

by Anonymousreply 99September 15, 2019 8:07 PM

r98 The incorrect spelling was intentional, mkay?

by Anonymousreply 100September 15, 2019 8:08 PM

[quote]No, and it totally fucked me up. Why weren't any adults attracted to me? I've had negative body image and self-esteem issues ever since.

That's almost exactly what I was going to write, except when I was a teenager I would have taken anyone of any age. I tried to show I was open to it, but no takers. I think I would have been better off if someone had shown some sexual interest in me.

by Anonymousreply 101September 15, 2019 8:13 PM

[quote}I would have taken anyone of any age.

I mean, fellow teenager or above.

by Anonymousreply 102September 15, 2019 8:14 PM

I am a female that was molested at six. I wised up after then and got away from creepy men as quickly as I could. Unfortunately I was a skinny girl that was a 36C in the sixth grade. People always said I looked like I was going to topple forward. Anyhow, creepy men including some of my friends fathers always tried to get me alone. I learned my lesson though and did not allow it to happen. I was disappointed in the fathers though. A couple of them I liked until they tried to make a pass.

by Anonymousreply 103September 15, 2019 8:28 PM

I was an 8 year old boy and had sex with an 11 year old boy who forced me to suck his dick.

by Anonymousreply 104September 15, 2019 8:42 PM

Excuse me! Still raped over here!

by Anonymousreply 105September 15, 2019 8:54 PM

Incident #1: I, your average 1950s, crew-cut 8-year-old; Bruce, your average 1950s wannabe delinquent, DA haircut, pegged Levi's, always with a cigarette in his hand. We were neighbors. One day, Bruce asked me if I ever jacked off. He then went on to explain what that was. I asked him to show me. He did. I became far more "hands-on" than he did. He was happy to just have mutual JO. I was far more interested in his ass. Within a very few weeks, I was cumming real cum. One day I convinced him to let me put my dick up his butt. The second he started complaining that it hurt, I came. A lot. Up his ass. He was pissed. Again, I was 8.

Incident #2: When I was about 10 or 11, I developed kind of a crush on my barber, an Italian-looking guy in his 30s or thereabout. I noticed that when I'd put my arm on the armrest of the barber chair, he'd lean up against it, allowing me to feel his entire cock. Unfortunately, due to my young age, I had no idea what to do next as far as encouraging anything further, so I simply suffered in silence. On a couple of occasions, I subtly moved my arm around a bit,which caused him to lean in even harder.

Incident #3: When I was either 16 or 17, I seduced my (very hot) married high school English teacher, using adult innuendo and sophistication in after-school conversations with him. This was in the 1960s, when behavior like mine simply was not done. But it worked. He became my first true lover, and we had a relationship all through my high school years.

I guess what I'm saying is, "molestation" can be a two-way street. When I was in my 20s, I realized I was being hit on by a neighbor boy of about 12 or so. I did nothing to encourage him, as to this day I am completely unattracted by guys younger than I am.

by Anonymousreply 106September 15, 2019 8:56 PM

No, but I have a question, don't get me wrong.

Why people think that being gay means that a man was abused as a child ?, I mean, by that logic, it means that gay men were abused by adult women, and that makes them no want to have sex or feelings with women.

by Anonymousreply 107September 15, 2019 8:56 PM

R107, I think the reasoning is that the experience pleasurable; therefore the abused individual becomes confused.

I do not buy it but two brothers I met as a social worker in the early 90s (both had AIDS) stated that they were always cute boys and men molested them from a very young age. Both said they liked the way it made them feel so neither ever questioned their sexuality. Retrospectively, they wondered if they were really gay. Both of them were younger than 25. They left Atlanta to return home. I doubt that either made it to 27.

by Anonymousreply 108September 15, 2019 9:08 PM

r106 I think we went to same barber!!!!! Mine used to press his dick against my 8-year-old fingers and knuckles. I was fascinated by it. The guy was really fuckin' bold, because my dad would be sitting right there reading the paper, and my dad was a mean looking asshole. I was always scared of getting caught.

When I was 17, I went a salon to get my hair cut and the stylist was gay, obviously. We were there alone. He locked the door when I showed up for the appointment. I thought it was strange, but he said I was the last appointment of the day. He did the same thing rubbing his dick against my fingers. Since he had acne crater scars all over his face, it didn't excite me. If he had been hot, I probably would've ended up in the bathroom with him.

by Anonymousreply 109September 15, 2019 9:11 PM

I was molested at the age of 5 by a neighbor. I was around 30 years old before I realized it wasn't my fault and that it was, in fact, sexual abuse.

by Anonymousreply 110September 15, 2019 9:29 PM

No, I wasn't. But I remember I was in a summer program once when I was about 10 years old and one of the counselors made an inappropriate pass at me. We were on a trip to an indoor pool and we were all in the locker room changing into our trunks. I was very shy and embarrassed, so I went to a part of the locker room that was more isolated and sat down and changed underneath my towel.

The counselor walks by and says "No fair! You're cheating" as though he wanted a good peek at my naked body and was disappointed I wasn't going to give it. I never told anyone about it, but even then I thought it was a pretty strange thing for him to say.

by Anonymousreply 111September 15, 2019 9:32 PM

A priest took us to the seminary when I was 11. Theoretically an introduction to a potential life as a priest. In reality, a long time boy molester who used trips to the seminary to abuse boys. I think he may have shared a few as well.

He always made going swimming in the seminary pool part of the trip. So he made us get undressed in the locker room and shower after. The closest he came or contact was grabbing me from behind in the pool - and though I don’t remember it, I’m sure he rubbed his dick against me.

Even crazier - and representative of just how pervasive it was in the Catholic Church. He took us to the room of two seminarians - and I remember just getting a really creepy vibe. The looks the seminarians exchanged with each other and the priest made me aware that something was up. Nothing happened - with me. But I’m sure something did.

30 years later he was arrested and charged as part of the whole Catholic Church scandal. Confirmed what I had always assumed. The priesthood was filled with child molesters. Especially in the 60s and 70s when the sexual norms started breaking apart - and Hollywood fed into the idea of pubescent sexuality as normal with Jodie Foster, Brooke Shilds, etc posed as sexual beings.

by Anonymousreply 112September 15, 2019 9:41 PM

alas no, but not for lack of trying to attract the attention of my hot hairy chested uncle parading around in a wife beater. i was 13

by Anonymousreply 113September 15, 2019 9:46 PM

[quote]The incorrect spelling was intentional, mkay?

No, it's not "mkay." You may not care enough about the English language to use some care in your postings, but DL won't have it. The murder of English grammar and spelling is not to be tolerated on DL, bitch! You are an ASSASSIN!

by Anonymousreply 114September 15, 2019 11:01 PM

You may have been molested - but the real crime is spelling. Oy, DL spellarians are an odd bunch.

by Anonymousreply 115September 15, 2019 11:38 PM

I was sexually amused.

by Anonymousreply 116September 16, 2019 6:42 PM

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