Oh, I've moved on. I was 16 when he died. This is the one day out of the year I acknowledge he even existed.
He was reincarnated as your nephew and isn't that sick, you sick thing.
He loved you. His pride got in the way. His soul burns in Hell.
Stand back, girls, let me handle this. OP, the fact that you said 'Fuck him," and that you 'hated him' means you have not moved on. You need to see and accept your dad as just man, albeit, flawed and hurt himself. In the broad scope of humankind, he is just a speck that brought you to this place and time. It is your job to ensure that those that come after you can learn from the past. Good luck, hun.
R5. You are not babs in prince of tides. Good bye.
R5, some people don't want to be helped.
OP is a friend of mine. He knows what he feels and why. He is the definition of psychological health.
Somethings don't need to be forgiven, just understood. There's not enough wind in Oklahoma...
I'm sure you understand the many reasons I post the link below, Laker boy.
Carrie Underwood. Blown Away. Live. No big production, just the song.
It sounds like you haven't gotten over your hatred. Hate is toxic - to the person doing the hating.
No matter how badly your dad treated you, try to get beyond these feelings. It sounds like he doesn't deserve you spending negative energy on him.
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Some people are evil, people. My father was. And not "didn't love me enough" bad. Evil. I don't let it control me anymore, but it's a huge burden for sure. Sometimes just saying that I hate him helps me. Sorry to have rocked the DL boat a bit.
I feel the same way about my Mother OP. abusive, sadistic and it took me years to recover.
I hope you do well in the future. I totally relate to the feeling...
The fact that it's 17 years old and you haven't moved on means it prolly was your fault.