The older I get, the more it becomes apparent that I'm still emotionally and mentally stuck in my middle school years. Needless to say, this is a huge problem for me with all sorts of negative ramifications. I cannot live to my full potential with what is essentially a 12-year-old's brain. Sure I have moments of maturity, but whenever I become stressed or challenged I feel myself revert right back to a little kid inside (I'm in my 30's now). Lately I've been researching arrested development, and have read that it's usually caused by some sort of trauma or abuse curing childhood. I was never abused or molested or anything though...the only "trauma" I can think of is the torture I endured throughout middle school for being gay. Those were the absolute darkest days of my life, and if I could completely erase those years from my memory I could. Would that be enough to cause arrested development though? And if so, why don't more gay men have it? Or do they? I also can't seem to find any information online about how to reverse it! Am I fucked for life?
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