I have a disorder in which I repeat the same word to myself for months.

I don't know why I do it. A couple of years ago it was "choink." Now, it's "pugedah." And there's one other I can't remember at the moment. I say it hundreds of times a week to myself, usually in moments of stress, or when I'm exerting myself carrying a heavy box or something. I have an injury to my lip from an attack a few years ago and it's slightly misshapen. I wonder if it's my way of getting my lip out of the way. Or, I could be just standard issue filled up with the crazy.

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• Oh, I do that all the time, OP, though not to the extent you do on a daily basis. But it definitely happens.

• Don't worry hon, it's your past life coming to the surface!

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• Say 'liquid eyeliner' Dawn.

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• I agree with the R2 response. An easy remedy is for you to make a more meaningful life for yourself. Learn something difficult that challenges your mind. With too little to think about, you get caught up with repetitious or meaningless concerns. If that doesn't work and you find yourself overwhelmed with these words to the point you are overly pre-occupied, then seek some help to uncover some baggage from your past.

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• R6 obviously doesn't understand OCD.

• I have the same problem with songs. Do they know it's Christmas is on a loop right now. I hate Bono. This makes me hate him even more

• Maybe there is a medication? If you don't let this illness get away from you, I'd say you will be OK but if you pay too much attention to the problem, it will take over.

• OP, are you Nell?

• You're coming unwrapped, tighten it up, we all have to keep from falling off the end of our ropes.

• You can't remember a word you repeated to yourself for months?

• Yep. A form of OCD. Did you start to do this after the attack, OP? Sometimes anxiety disorders, particularly OCD and panic attacks, are precipitated by a major stressful event. Do you have any particular thoughts or fears before you start to repeat the words?

• OP at link.

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• Me too. "Oscar, Oscar, Oscar, Oscar...."

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• R12, crazy, I know. It's sort of a "secondary" word. I'm sure I'll be uttering it in the next few hours, and then I'll report back. I have some anxiety in general... high-stress job, out of shape, etc. and yes maybe it grew a smidge after the attack. It's almost like I say the word to comfort myself. But it brings no comfort. I haven't said it in the last couple of hours.

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• I just remembered it: "Hemenah." It comes after "Pugedah." Maybe 10% of the time.

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• OCD triggered by PTSD

• It's funny, because when I say it, it's in the most matter-of-fact way, like why on earth wouldn't you say that, obviously. That's all the detail about my weirdness I have to share at present. Have a good night.

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• Here's a word you should say a lot: Therapist

• Can I pick your next word? I think it would be fun.

• If I were to incessently repeat a word I'd like it to be patoota-faboota. When I tire of that I shall endlessly repeat "plerp." I could say it as I squeeze each fingertip in order, over and over again. Squeeze, plerp, squeeze, plerp, sqeeze, plerp.... I am not making fun, it is just the sort of thing I like to do.

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• OP, it sounds like an OCD tic. If it bothers you please do consider therapy. There are some techniques that can help thwart such compulsive verbalizing break the loop.

• Choink!

• Echolalia is when you have to say the same word aloud over and over

• I would consult my physician first. It might be OCD, it might be something else like a mild case of tourette syndrome, not echolalia, but maybe palialia.

• OP, you know there is a whole lot of google pages and people suffering/questioning exactly the same malady you have described, so you are not alone. Google: Why do I blurt out things? I shout things out. I scream things uncontrollably. You will find the groups of people suffering from this thing. The good thing is that the doctors say not to worry about it, since you are not hurting yourself or anyone else. Good luck, and don't forget to close all of your windows.

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• I, like, have this problem too, OP!

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• I used to count to 10 over and over when I was anxious.

• OMG! you've got all of us repeating "choink" to ourselves!

• I have something similar. It's a tic brought on by intrusive thoughts or shameful memories. If I think about something painful, my brain seizes up and the only relief I get is if I mutter a certain word or group of unrelated syllables. The medication Nerotonin may help for you.

• You crazy, OP! But I sort of love you.

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• Sometimes I have the same word in my mind over and over for a long time. A few years ago, I looked up the meaning of "pedantic" over and over during a year or so. Right now it is "troglodyte". I keep thinking it must mean something and I would want to add it to my vocabulary, then I look it up and reject it, but it comes back into my mind and I start wondering what it means, wash, rinse, repeat.

• I count astronauts. My record is 39.

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• I do the same thing OP, repeat made up words or phrases to myself. I often wonder what the hell anyone would think if they heard me. My husband does it too. Then we have our strange little litany of things we say together. Kids do this a lot. It's just a coping mechanism. If you find you're out of control with it, then you might need some help with your anxiety levels.

• R24, R31, R33, you had me laughing out LOUD! When you have something so stupid and so personal and it's shared back with you, it's quite a trip. I heart you.

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• But those aren't even actually "words", are they? They're sounds. I don't know what that difference means but it could mean something.

• I did this as a kid, like a lot of other so called, "disorders", I eventually outgrew it. If it doesn't interfere with your daily life, let it be a quirk and enjoy it for being a part of who you are.

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• [quote]Echolalia is when you have to say the same word aloud over and over. Actually it's when you repeat what *another person* says. And not necessarily over and over. Frequently seen in autism and schizophrenia.

• What does it mean that my mind strings together things like people with the same last names in a list. Or a list of things like songs like this: Blue Monday Monday, Monday Rainy Days and Monday and it just keeps on going?

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• Bazinga!

• Depends, R42. Do you feel like you have to make those lists or something terrible will happen, or do you just get caught up in the details? Either way, if it doesn’t bother you or stop you from doing or expressing something you want, I see no harm in it. Unless it's something new - in that case go see your doctor.

• "Blork" is my repetitive word, OP. I've used it for years. My mind also seems to make up words to the rhythm of the washing machine. But I am bipolar 2 and we are known for shit like this lol. For example, bright colors can hurt us physically and we may rhyme or use alliteration a lot.

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• [quote]I have something similar. It's a tic brought on by intrusive thoughts or shameful memories. If I think about something painful, my brain seizes up and the only relief I get is if I mutter a certain word or group of unrelated syllables. R32, I do this but I use a nonsense phrase that has varied from time to time. I would never consider using pharmaceuticals because I don't perceive it as a problem that requires medication. My safe phrase does that for me by breaking the negative thoughts.

• For obvious reasons, douching is never far from my mind. Sometimes I'll open my mouth and have to stop myself from saying DOUCHE! My boss would frown upon that.

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• It's simple - stop it!

• Simple for you, R48. Obviously not so simple to others of us in this thread. Save your uninformed judgments for celebrities and leave real people alone.

• OP, you might want to embrace it as a mantra practice. Don't fight it but find through it an opportunity for chanting. Millions of people do it.

• OCD, or the beginnings of schizophrenia.

• That's how I see my "safe phrase," R50. I've used mantras and affirmations in the past and it's all the same thing.

• "choink" I repeat phrases, rather than words, to myself. They're typically from films or books.

• Sounds like "ear worms" (repetitive songs that repeat over and over) without the music, which is something I get when I'm a little bit amped up mentally. It goes away after a while if I don't worry about it. The kind of meditation I do might work--sit quietly for 20 minutes. Whenever you hear yourself say a word (or notice that you are thinking anything for that matter) just say aloud in your mind, "hear in." It's a label. The content is not important. You could also use the label "thinking" whenever you notice any thought, word, etc. While doing this meditation, don't try to make thoughts (or the word) go away, just label it in a generic way. See what happens. BTW I learned this from a great meditation teacher, Shinzen Young. He lives in Vermont but gives meditations around the country. He has a free book describing this type of meditation on his website. I learned it on several 5-day retreats a few years ago. There is more to this meditation (you can label physical sensations, feelings, visual images, visual rest, etc.), but any part of it is optional. Don't try to make anything change, just notice what happens over time--maybe nothing. That's ok too.

• Oh, I can relate to this. When I told a doctor about it, he said I should try Zoloft. I didn't, and I don't really have the time or money to try cutting-edge technology for OCD relief. I just try shifting to some other obsession, which works sometimes.

• R54 is the one who actually needs help.

• I agree.

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• Flerm, bitches. Feel it. Flerm.

• Chanel your energy towards something like learning a new language.

• For a very brief while, I'd have an urge to shout out "Boom Chaka Laka Boom" when I'd walk into a room full of people I didn't know. I googled the term and came across a youtube channel filled with people who had the same urge. Ironically, that's when the urge went away.

• My brother had tics such as clearing his throat repeatedly in his college classroom. The more he focused on it and trying to stop it, the more he would do it. He has had a lot of therapy over the years and has come to realize that our parents were very punishing and critical of his every move. He learned to forgive our parents over time, and the tics and OCD disappeared.

• Do you also have two penises???

• What, what?

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