Between my partner and and my boss, I feel like I've got an alligator on each end of me, ripping me apart from both sides.
If I wasn't on Xanax, at least one of the three of us would be dead.
Any old excuse to hit the pills, Neely.
Glad it's helping, OP. Nothing wrong with using meds appropriately to help with these types of issues.
What feeling do you have being on Xanaz? Does it make you feel more relaxed and less anxious?
I'm wondering because my brother is on daily Xanax.
A partner should be providing joy in your life not anxiety.
What does he or she do that requires medication? Maybe you should rethink the relationship.
Maybe R5 and I are hopeless romantics, but, yeah, OP, your partner should be a positive influence in your life, not a negative one.
Can't you find anything stronger?
Can't you get rid of one of them?
That was my favorite Karen Carpenter song.
I had a family member who took them for anxiety.
Then she started taking them when she had a hangnail, broke a dish, and whatnot.
She almost died trying to kick them.
Sparkle, Neely, sparkle!
She goes running to the shelter of her mother's little helper...
Of course you take dolls.
r10 I know 2 people who got seriously addicted to xanax. One almost forged a prescription.
A doctor friend has seen so many addicts he's convinced the pharma company tweaked the formula to maximize addictive potential. It seems to happen quickly with xanax.
Why did you capitalize the title of the thread? Is it a book, musical or song?
Work of collective fiction, R15.
It's capitalized because Emily Dickinson wrote it.
Emily: do you need this partner and job that are making you unhappy? Maybe find a new job... if possible. And maybe you could live alone - perhaps in Amherst, Mass.
I know someone who is heaviy addicted to Xanax, OP, and she absolutely denies it. Claims she can quit any time she wants to. She has also had bouts with bipolar, and the xanax really seems to bring it out more for some reason. I'd talk to your doctor about finding something else.
About the personal situation, I was there once. My advice is to get rid of at least one of the things that is troubling you, and make a plan to get rid of them all. All stress all the time is not sustainable, and if you don't reduce some of it, you'll start having health problems. The xanax isn't going to stop that.
The other thing I learned is that if you are stressed out by work and home, there are people at work and home that aren't enjoying you either, so if you don't make plans to get out yourself, they will dump your ass right when it's least convenient for you. Make your getaway plans now and follow through. Listen to an old broad, I got dumped high and dry by both work and partner on the same day, with no money in the bank. Xanax won't save you from that.
Xanax is God's way of telling you to run for the hills, OP
Another job in this economy? Right. The partner drives me crazy, but I can't afford to live by myself on my salary alone. I'd have to work full time and I cannot mentally stand doing that for very long.
Why deal with some awful job full-time when I don't have to? Life is too short for that aggravation. I need to capture as much pleasure I can before I get cancer and die. Xanax helps me.
Xanax doesn't help you. It makes you feel calm and fluffy when there are things in your life you want to change.
Benzos don't solve anything, they just mask feelings.
They're fine short term, but if you cannot get through a day without one, it sounds like dependence. And in a few months you'll say you can't get through a day without two.
I can't change anything. Why is everyone so delusional? You think you're in control of your lives, but you aren't. I cannot deal with people. They are obstacles to happiness - I don't have to deal with many of them the way things are now. I've had to put up with too much BS in my life. I can't put up with anymore. I can't.
I don't think you should use Xanax daily, OP. It's a use as needed type of medication and is addictive.
If you need something daily you should look into other anxiety medication. There are better option then Benzos. It's a really rough withdrawal.
OP, benzos are just not the way. Seriously. They're such bad news--better to keep them for the occasional fun night than to use them every day. Get a real job (you can't work full-time? MARY!!!!!!!!) and a new boyfriend.
If you are this defensive about your xanax habit, I'd say it's time to cut down.
It's a lie that you can't change anything. You just need to focus on what you *can* change. Even if all you that can change is *how* you react to things. That is a huge power that we all have. Don't further your misery by convincing yourself you are powerless.
OP, you are with a partner that drives you crazy because you can't afford to live alone. Do you have any friends that could help you out or look for a roommate to share an apartment with.
Do stay in a drug haze to block out your problems, pick up yourself and make some changes in your life. I understand the job issue nowadays but don't make the economy an excuse to stay in a bad relationship.
You get off the drugs you can move into a sober living that is affordable. Am somewhat serious about that.
I just hate people and want them all to leave me alone. My partner keeps asking me if all I want to do with my life is sit on the couch watching old movies and eating. Truthfully, the answer is an unequivocal "Yes." If I could just do that every day and never have to look at another person again, it would be wonderful.
Okay, OP is a troll. Thanks r26.
I take two xanax most days. I would rather have a good job but that's not going to happen.
OP, I've walked a mile in your shoes. I was having terrible stress-related health problems, and didn't feel well enough to change jobs or leave my partner. The point I was trying to make was, neither my job or partner gave a shit how I felt and they left me. You have to prepare yourself, OP.
Taking Xanax and closing your eyes to the reality that your life isn't working is not going to help. Start looking for a roommate, or for a way to make more money, even a temporary second job so you can save some money would help. If things go wrong, you need to be able to land on your feet.
Benzo addiction is a nightmare that can take years to end.
I cannot get through a day without sodomizing a goldfish, OP, so count yourself lucky.
Bengali in Platforms
Why would you want to?
Yup, OP. Xanax addiction is something you really, really want to avoid. You need to read up on it. Doctors don't warn patients enough about the addictive quality of the drug or how horrible it is to kick the addiction.
I use Xanax for vertigo attacks
so you're dancing as fast as you can?
My brother takes Xanax every day and drinks a bucket load of Jim Beam along with it every day.
I worry about him, but he seems to handle it somehow.
Those pills are so bad for you op. If you stop taking them taper off slowly. I have clients that take mind altering pills like that and it makes them even crazier when they stop taking them. I'm so serious.
OP, are you still with us?
OP, are you out there?
I want to hear more about your brother, r36.
R20 nailed it about benzos.
They are good if you have anxiety or panic attacks that you can't talk yourself down from, or even bipolar disorder but in general if you're taking benzos daily it's way too easy to get addicted to them.
I've never taken benzos recreationally or had them prescribed but I have friends who were addicted to them.
This sounds like a Liza song
Bump for Xanax daily. ;-)
Yikes. BE CAREFUL. I became heavily addicted when I was caring for my mom who was dying of cancer. I started taking them "as needed" like when I would have a panic attack related to my mom which happened often. Then when my mom was in hospice, I raided my mom's ativan and a good friend of mine brought me a bottle of valium. So I was taking 3 different types of benzos during that time but xanax was definitely king. I went to Europe shortly after my mom died and my aunt in Belgium gave me boxes of it (not sure where she got it) and I managed to get a few prescriptions filled along the way.
Two years later, I had moved, gotten a job and started to deal with the grief of losing my mom but I had not even come close to kicking the habit. I was up to at least 7 a day along with a few glasses of wine but I'd still wake up in the middle of the night with my heart pounding and with music (usually a loud song) in my head until I popped another to quiet my heart and mind. I would have continued popping xanax but the clinic in the new town I moved to had refused to continue to prescribe it for me without psychiatric treatment and I had run out of my stash.
Coming off it was hell. I switched to valium (shorter half life) that I got from a friend because no doctor would help me and then weened off that over the course of a couple of months.
Of all the benzos, Xanax is the hardest to kick.