'He was the love of my life': Lindsay Lohan's private diary details surprise relationship with Heath Ledger
A diary purporting to have been written by Lindsay Lohan has revealed the actress was 'in love' with actor Heath Ledger at the time of his death in 2008.
The memoir, obtained by Star magazine, details the depth of Lindsay's feelings for the Brokeback Mountain star and hints at a romantic relationship between them.
'Today Heath died,' Lindsay wrote on January 22. 'I’m in love with him… He was the love of my life.
'He taught me so much, and he was everything I’ve ever wanted and more. I want to hear him laugh and hold me. I crave his touch and care,' she added.
According to Star, Lindsay was even planning to visit Heath in New York City three days after he passed away, with the actress intent on introducing him to her mother Dina.
Lindsay is reported to have broken down in tears in the middle of a Los Angeles restaurant when she learned of the Dark Knight actor's death.
'When a person dies the world stops. I'm numb,' she wrote in the diary.
'There's an emptiness. And a desire to feel loved.
'A need to be held in the arms of someone who understands. But what do you do when the one who understands is gone?'
The new revelations add weight to rumours that Lindsay and Heath were once romantically involved.
Indeed, in a 2008 phone conversation obtained by RadarOnline, Dina told Lindsay's father Michael that Lindsay 'was dating Heath when he died.'
Lindsay, who has struggled with addictions of her own, was also philosophical in the wake of the actor's untimely death at 28-years-old.
'It's like a game of Jenga, and when one piece slips, it all falls apart,' she wrote. 'One pill, one slip and it goes down the slope, crashes and burns and it's over. Why? I ask myself over and over. Cry is all I can do.'
She added in an entry dated January 31: 'Heath is a prime example of what this industry can do to someone.
'It craves to see someone fail. It brings enjoyment to us to watch one die. The tragedy and cravings for it can kill. And will.'
Heath Ledger split from his actress girlfriend Michelle Williams around September 2007.
He left behind a daughter Matilda Rose, now six-years-old.
I would be shocked if this were legit. I don't think she's this literate.
More likely, something that Dina invented to sell to tabloids for some coke money.
Boy, Michelle Williams is gonna be pissed that she kept her hair short all this time.
PR to promote her Playboy cover. No more.
She probably never even met Heath.
I'll cut the bitch!
Maybe it was a crazy fan's diary. It doesn't say she was dating him or even met him, only that there were rumors. Rumors I don't recall ever hearing or reading around that time.
I thought Lilo would die of a drug overdose. Now I'm guessing Williams will put out a hit on her.
She cray cray.
Actually, there were rumors about the two of them but one of the Olsens took the heat for being his last fuck buddy. I remeber no one, including myself, believing the print of the two of them together because it just seemed too easy to tie two random crackheads together.
Didn't she say last year that she should have been the lead in Black Swan? I guess this is her way of trying to steal the Michelle Williams gravy train, she probably thinks she should have been the lead in My Week with Marilyn too.
He was dating the model Gemma Ward when he died. Poor Lilo, reduced to hitching a ride on the poor dude's corpse.
Why was Heath involved with so many women?
Of course they were fucking. I definitely believed it, why wouldn't you? Him and Mary Kate likely too.
R20 Because he was actually straight. That's pretty uncommon among younger actors.
Druggy fuck buddies, like duh. That what young rich str8/bi's DO. Nod out after fucking their brains out.
But wasn't Heath involved with Michelle long-term? I thought he was a long-term relationship guy who was only with a few women.